Submissions by petdollygirl

I don't like who I am when I'm not confident, when I'm sleepy, when I'm distracted, when I can't stand up straight, when I'm consciously thinking about interacting with someone rather than letting it flow, when I don't have meaningful interactions with those around me.  I don't like it when I feel out of control of myself; when any of a number of things are not under my control.

And this is a problem because there's nobody there to take control of me.  I can let go into the trust that a dominant commands of me.  But there's no one taking control.  And I need it.  I thrive on it, I...