Submissions by nightbirdblue (enbyblue)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I am fluid polygender, identifying as both “she/her” & ”they/them” • Panromantic and married to the love of my life! 🏳️🌈 Poetry on mental illness, spirituality, LGBTQIA2+ experiences, and surviving DV.
Wallflower
a quiet girl observes
around the room
although she makes
eye contact
with you
only briefly, fleeting
she wonders
how you make
it look so easy
you, with your
casual yarning
laughter and charm
while she, silent
waits for her turn
and fumbles for
something to say
wishing she were
more down to earth
pretending that
everything’s okay
while the truth is
it hurts to smile
her cheeks are tired
and her teeth
are clenched
she starts to sweat
her...
around the room
although she makes
eye contact
with you
only briefly, fleeting
she wonders
how you make
it look so easy
you, with your
casual yarning
laughter and charm
while she, silent
waits for her turn
and fumbles for
something to say
wishing she were
more down to earth
pretending that
everything’s okay
while the truth is
it hurts to smile
her cheeks are tired
and her teeth
are clenched
she starts to sweat
her...
#anxiety
#LifeStruggles
#jealousy
#admiration
#despair
1097 reads
29 Comments
The Divination of Bubbles
descending into clarity
warmth hugs every crevice
an exhale of certainty
tension at ease; I now focus
on this moment, just the one
where time stands motionless
pastel bubbles foretell my fortune
and I sink below the surface
tingles creep up my spine
follicles sway at the indulgence
tip back my glass of fine wine
and know: my future is limitless
warmth hugs every crevice
an exhale of certainty
tension at ease; I now focus
on this moment, just the one
where time stands motionless
pastel bubbles foretell my fortune
and I sink below the surface
tingles creep up my spine
follicles sway at the indulgence
tip back my glass of fine wine
and know: my future is limitless
#happiness
#TimeHeals
#magic
#water
#inspirational
529 reads
11 Comments
The Gift
There is too much energy
in my bones tonight for sleeping.
Gazing out my window at the shadows
where a full moon in Pisces ought to shine.
Mind races like the currents of
the Grand River that I sat by.
Crystals that were gifted there
call a Siren song to my heart.
The tides are churning, seafoam oozing
like pus from the pores of perceivable time.
Minerals collect at my feet.
How long have I been standing here
with this wistful stare?
in my bones tonight for sleeping.
Gazing out my window at the shadows
where a full moon in Pisces ought to shine.
Mind races like the currents of
the Grand River that I sat by.
Crystals that were gifted there
call a Siren song to my heart.
The tides are churning, seafoam oozing
like pus from the pores of perceivable time.
Minerals collect at my feet.
How long have I been standing here
with this wistful stare?
#river
#moon
#astrology
#fate
#SelfReflection
901 reads
15 Comments
Gaia
Mother Nature erupts with a crack!
Thunder rumbles through the tree tops
of Her desperate femme fingers,
while leaves flutter and whip wild
in the winds of Her heaving breath.
Her heart bursts from the Earth
with a sizzling pure white voltage!
The echoes of Her making love to the Sky...
as rain cools them in a silky wet embrace.
🌬🍃⚡️🌧
Thunder rumbles through the tree tops
of Her desperate femme fingers,
while leaves flutter and whip wild
in the winds of Her heaving breath.
Her heart bursts from the Earth
with a sizzling pure white voltage!
The echoes of Her making love to the Sky...
as rain cools them in a silky wet embrace.
🌬🍃⚡️🌧
#romantic
#earth
#storm
#nature
#sensual
979 reads
21 Comments
New Moon in Virgo
I’ve returned from my brief travels
To find a new world unraveled
The wind is on the chillier side
And my yellow wildflowers have died
All the cats are starved for love
While the hens don’t give a cluck
And a New Moon casts its shadow
Where the weeping willow wallows
So the time has come to refocus
Meditate holding the asana Lotus
Preparing for a future I’ve sown
Becoming into thyself as grown
Abiding time with each breath released
Honing my power, my will, my peace
To find a new world unraveled
The wind is on the chillier side
And my yellow wildflowers have died
All the cats are starved for love
While the hens don’t give a cluck
And a New Moon casts its shadow
Where the weeping willow wallows
So the time has come to refocus
Meditate holding the asana Lotus
Preparing for a future I’ve sown
Becoming into thyself as grown
Abiding time with each breath released
Honing my power, my will, my peace
#strength
#moon
#astrology
#spiritual
#meditation
1270 reads
22 Comments
New Wave
Searching through the late night
Wondering...
Oh how things have changed
I used to stay up so late
Frantically spilling my heart
Pouring out onto the page
And oh how I’ve missed it so
Perhaps the greatest heartache
Abandoning my gifted pen
For some few too many days
Though it has not been silent
I was just stricken by my fate
A wrong turn left at somewhere
Or so I thought, perhaps a mistake
So I was lost and found again
Writhing in self-shame
Until I found the courage to return
Despite what they...
Wondering...
Oh how things have changed
I used to stay up so late
Frantically spilling my heart
Pouring out onto the page
And oh how I’ve missed it so
Perhaps the greatest heartache
Abandoning my gifted pen
For some few too many days
Though it has not been silent
I was just stricken by my fate
A wrong turn left at somewhere
Or so I thought, perhaps a mistake
So I was lost and found again
Writhing in self-shame
Until I found the courage to return
Despite what they...
#courage
#TimeHeals
#MovingOn
#acceptance
#SelfDiscovery
667 reads
18 Comments
Bedside Prayer
Those nights when you feel all alone
When memories leave you lost and cold
Scattered and nervous; what life is this
To continue breathing this existence?
How could I let it go on for so many years?
Why did I wait so long to face my fears?
Switched on autopilot with no control
While fake plastered smiles took their toll
And I try to sleep but the memories cascade
Emotional whirlwinds sweep me away
So I do what I know must be done
I am a warrior and I will no longer run
The truth is clear and I see...
When memories leave you lost and cold
Scattered and nervous; what life is this
To continue breathing this existence?
How could I let it go on for so many years?
Why did I wait so long to face my fears?
Switched on autopilot with no control
While fake plastered smiles took their toll
And I try to sleep but the memories cascade
Emotional whirlwinds sweep me away
So I do what I know must be done
I am a warrior and I will no longer run
The truth is clear and I see...
#strength
#abuse
#memories
#rhyming
#SelfWorth
1462 reads
24 Comments
The Artifact
Tonight I am an archeologist
Rediscovering old tombs
The grave stone warns of years before
When hope was dire and lost
Unearthing dirt, and that’s all I find
It’s been confirmed: a life of lies
I lay down in this cold
And slowly bury myself again
Revisiting the past
Is like a black
And white film
Cut up
It is true
It was true
It was all true...
I can’t believe I survived
Rediscovering old tombs
The grave stone warns of years before
When hope was dire and lost
Unearthing dirt, and that’s all I find
It’s been confirmed: a life of lies
I lay down in this cold
And slowly bury myself again
Revisiting the past
Is like a black
And white film
Cut up
It is true
It was true
It was all true...
I can’t believe I survived
#strength
#abuse
#memories
#LifeChangingMoment
#SelfReflection
810 reads
22 Comments
My Wage’s Worth
Reduced
To paper clips
And stapling activities
Un-stapling, reprinting
Updating just one page
Not wasting
Lining up the office supplies
Keeping it simple
Like a factory production
It’s all my vacant stare can handle
Cutting lengths of bluish ribbon
No need to count them
Punching holes to tie them through
Then curling with scissors
Next I keep the scissors
Comfortably in my hand
Cutting tiny squares of double sided
Tape to stick to ornate bags
The final paper cover adheres
And...
To paper clips
And stapling activities
Un-stapling, reprinting
Updating just one page
Not wasting
Lining up the office supplies
Keeping it simple
Like a factory production
It’s all my vacant stare can handle
Cutting lengths of bluish ribbon
No need to count them
Punching holes to tie them through
Then curling with scissors
Next I keep the scissors
Comfortably in my hand
Cutting tiny squares of double sided
Tape to stick to ornate bags
The final paper cover adheres
And...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#determination
#despair
1418 reads
23 Comments
Office Dweller
Desperation
Nagging at my structure
Collapsed foundation
Similar to brittle bones
Of my rib cage
An anxious air that fills them
Shaking
My dungeon is
My shelter
But today I am told
That I must sacrifice
This very special space
This dreaded workplace
Uncertainty reigns
With the rise and fall
Of my disdain
Evicted
I have been forced
Out of my cave
Reluctant
I will my feet to walk
To my temporary station
On the filthy sales floor
Avoiding...
Nagging at my structure
Collapsed foundation
Similar to brittle bones
Of my rib cage
An anxious air that fills them
Shaking
My dungeon is
My shelter
But today I am told
That I must sacrifice
This very special space
This dreaded workplace
Uncertainty reigns
With the rise and fall
Of my disdain
Evicted
I have been forced
Out of my cave
Reluctant
I will my feet to walk
To my temporary station
On the filthy sales floor
Avoiding...
#LifeStruggles
#frustration
#anxiety
#satirical
#rhyming
1008 reads
15 Comments
Desolation
( I miss what I never had… )
Black:
Black is the absence
The absence of light
The absence of life
The absence of color
The void ever-present
An emotional wasteland
Black incubates…
Every desperate desire consumed
A child left grasping
Clutching at empty space
The pain of a vacant ribcage
Sucking in air between sobs
Begging for love to fill the hole
A hollow heart is black…
Black is the absence.
Black:
Black is the absence
The absence of light
The absence of life
The absence of color
The void ever-present
An emotional wasteland
Black incubates…
Every desperate desire consumed
A child left grasping
Clutching at empty space
The pain of a vacant ribcage
Sucking in air between sobs
Begging for love to fill the hole
A hollow heart is black…
Black is the absence.
#depression
#secrets
#family
#SelfReflection
#loneliness
669 reads
10 Comments
Confinement
paralyzed
by Borderline
Personality Disorder
quiet
and confined
carving creations
out of darkness
specified dynamics
domination
deviates intention
delineates compulsion
crying
uncontrolled emotions
curling up inside
only folded
like little pieces
of paper
valiant in nature
but suppressed
hiding...
I am the darkness
by Borderline
Personality Disorder
quiet
and confined
carving creations
out of darkness
specified dynamics
domination
deviates intention
delineates compulsion
crying
uncontrolled emotions
curling up inside
only folded
like little pieces
of paper
valiant in nature
but suppressed
hiding...
I am the darkness
#sadness
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#MentalHealth
887 reads
15 Comments
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