Submissions by msbeav (Brenda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
26th May 2021 3:17pm
26th May 2021 3:17pm
You See Her
You can't imagine the things she has been through.
You see her smiling, you see how strong she is, but behind that smile is so much pain.
She is screaming inside.
You see her going through day-to-day life but you don't see the struggle it takes just to breathe.
You see her alone, deep in thought.
What you don't see is her praying for better days.
You ask her if she is okay and she says she is fine, but her heart is broken into a million pieces.
She never believed this could happen to her and nobody understands the pain she lives with each and every...
You see her smiling, you see how strong she is, but behind that smile is so much pain.
She is screaming inside.
You see her going through day-to-day life but you don't see the struggle it takes just to breathe.
You see her alone, deep in thought.
What you don't see is her praying for better days.
You ask her if she is okay and she says she is fine, but her heart is broken into a million pieces.
She never believed this could happen to her and nobody understands the pain she lives with each and every...
#sadness
#grief
#heartbroken
#despair
#emptiness
474 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
24th May 2021 5:06pm
24th May 2021 5:06pm
The Crowd Disappears
Empty
But full
Broken
But I pick up the pieces
Blank
But colorful
Motionless
But my mind keeps spinning
Falling
But I haven't hit the ground yet
Lonely
But crowded
Loved
But cold
Silent tears
Angry words
Fake smiles
I need help
But the crowd disappears
And I'm left standing alone
Again
But full
Broken
But I pick up the pieces
Blank
But colorful
Motionless
But my mind keeps spinning
Falling
But I haven't hit the ground yet
Lonely
But crowded
Loved
But cold
Silent tears
Angry words
Fake smiles
I need help
But the crowd disappears
And I'm left standing alone
Again
#anger
#heartbroken
#frustration
#disappointment
#emptiness
335 reads
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
24th May 2021 4:57pm
24th May 2021 4:57pm
I Still Wonder
We were once inseparable and nothing could tear us apart. You were my world and your birth gave my life purpose. For the first time I knew the feeling of real love, and then came the day you left me. I walked out of the courthouse crying and devastated. You and your Dad's girlfriend we're standing next to the car and I wanted to tell you I love you and I didn't want to let you go. But you turned your head away from me and laughed, I wanted to die right there.
I felt so betrayed and abandoned, I turned to look for you but you were gone.
I saw your face in my tears as they fell to...
I felt so betrayed and abandoned, I turned to look for you but you were gone.
I saw your face in my tears as they fell to...
#heartbroken
#conflict
#betrayal
#disappointment
#bittersweet
222 reads
1 Comment
DRUGS POEM
Published
23rd May 2021 2:50pm
23rd May 2021 2:50pm
Words
When I was sad and depressed,
I needed you to cheer me up.
Instead
I smoked Meth till I was too numb to feel anything.
When everyone was attacking me and putting me down,
Making me feel so low,
I needed you to be the one to defend me.
Instead
I endured all the cruel words and criticism the world threw at me.
When family and friends turned on me and I was completely alone,
I needed you to come find me.
Instead
I learned what "Lonely " really meant.
When I wanted to die,
I needed you to stop me...
I needed you to cheer me up.
Instead
I smoked Meth till I was too numb to feel anything.
When everyone was attacking me and putting me down,
Making me feel so low,
I needed you to be the one to defend me.
Instead
I endured all the cruel words and criticism the world threw at me.
When family and friends turned on me and I was completely alone,
I needed you to come find me.
Instead
I learned what "Lonely " really meant.
When I wanted to die,
I needed you to stop me...
#anger
#heartbroken
#confusion
#disappointment
#emptiness
885 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2021 1:28pm
22nd Apr 2021 1:28pm
Lost and Found
Forgive me for thinking
I meant more than nothing ...
Or at least more than this.
You've got my head entwined
With fake happiness
Nothing less than a straining twist
Of what's real and what's not.
Stuck in something unfamiliar
Something lovely, yet peculiar.
I'm lost
I'm found
Life turned around
My world upside down.
I meant more than nothing ...
Or at least more than this.
You've got my head entwined
With fake happiness
Nothing less than a straining twist
Of what's real and what's not.
Stuck in something unfamiliar
Something lovely, yet peculiar.
I'm lost
I'm found
Life turned around
My world upside down.
#anger
#anxiety
#heartbroken
#confusion
#disappointment
389 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Jan 2021 4:22pm
7th Jan 2021 4:22pm
My Flaws
I'll admit it, I have flaws, Fuck, I have MANY flaws.
I have imperfections beyond your wildest nightmares. I have a temper, I like things to go my way, I get addicted easily, I love too much, I give too fast, I give up too often, and I fight too hard.
But I'll let you in on a little secret, I'm not changing anytime soon.
Yes, I may have flaws, but they balance out with my good qualities and make for one perfect Storm.
What's life without a little mystery, a little adventure ... A little dynamic.
I have imperfections beyond your wildest nightmares. I have a temper, I like things to go my way, I get addicted easily, I love too much, I give too fast, I give up too often, and I fight too hard.
But I'll let you in on a little secret, I'm not changing anytime soon.
Yes, I may have flaws, but they balance out with my good qualities and make for one perfect Storm.
What's life without a little mystery, a little adventure ... A little dynamic.
#happiness
#kindness
#courage
#gratitude
#emotions
1208 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
26th Dec 2020 8:57pm
26th Dec 2020 8:57pm
Christmas
Brandi Lee ...
What do I want for Christmas?
I want you to come around. I want you to ask me questions, ask my advice, tell me your worries, your dreams. I want you to share your life with me. Come over and laugh with me, or laugh at me. I don't care because hearing your laugh is music to me.
Raid my fridge and eat all my chocolate, it's ok , I wouldn't want it any other way.
I just want you to be healthy and happy.
This is the only Christmas present I want.
Merry Christmas Babygirl and never forget how much I love you.
Mama
What do I want for Christmas?
I want you to come around. I want you to ask me questions, ask my advice, tell me your worries, your dreams. I want you to share your life with me. Come over and laugh with me, or laugh at me. I don't care because hearing your laugh is music to me.
Raid my fridge and eat all my chocolate, it's ok , I wouldn't want it any other way.
I just want you to be healthy and happy.
This is the only Christmas present I want.
Merry Christmas Babygirl and never forget how much I love you.
Mama
#Christmas
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ANGER POEM
Published
5th Nov 2020 4:35pm
5th Nov 2020 4:35pm
Destruction
It's over
Concluded
Totally demolished
It's anger
Betrayal
Utterly acknowledged
It's shame
Denial
Personally embraced pain
It's Injustice
Detached
Staring you in the face
It's clinical
Simply isolated power
Control
It's secretly perpetrated
Hunger
Starvation
Numb
Reduction impact
Terror
Subtle destruction
Concluded
Totally demolished
It's anger
Betrayal
Utterly acknowledged
It's shame
Denial
Personally embraced pain
It's Injustice
Detached
Staring you in the face
It's clinical
Simply isolated power
Control
It's secretly perpetrated
Hunger
Starvation
Numb
Reduction impact
Terror
Subtle destruction
#anger
#anxiety
#frustration
275 reads
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
5th Nov 2020 4:22pm
5th Nov 2020 4:22pm
Choices
So many choices
So many decisions
So many voices
So many revisions
So many noises
So many opinions
So many rejoices
So many religions
So much heartbreak
So much misery
So much at stake
So much forgotten history
So much more to explore
So much more I implore
So much more to see on this tour
So much more behind the door
So much magic in the air
So much hatred as you stare
So much belief in your prayer
So much love when you care
So many decisions
So many voices
So many revisions
So many noises
So many opinions
So many rejoices
So many religions
So much heartbreak
So much misery
So much at stake
So much forgotten history
So much more to explore
So much more I implore
So much more to see on this tour
So much more behind the door
So much magic in the air
So much hatred as you stare
So much belief in your prayer
So much love when you care
#hope
#courage
#forgiveness
#gratitude
#emotions
327 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2020 3:24am
23rd Oct 2020 3:24am
The Creature
I fell into the darkest Room in the world,
A Room with no walls or doors.
I could feel my mind slipping away, my heart stopped beating, fear was eating me.
I felt like the room had a soul, and the soul was in pain, I could FEEL the room.
In the distance I could see a reflection, the reflection was disfigured. It was dark, yet I could see it. It was showing its tongue, and blood was dripping from it. I could feel the fear consuming me, I wanted to escape.
Then I could see the tears coming from its eyes. But it was not its tears, it was mine. I feel the creature and it...
A Room with no walls or doors.
I could feel my mind slipping away, my heart stopped beating, fear was eating me.
I felt like the room had a soul, and the soul was in pain, I could FEEL the room.
In the distance I could see a reflection, the reflection was disfigured. It was dark, yet I could see it. It was showing its tongue, and blood was dripping from it. I could feel the fear consuming me, I wanted to escape.
Then I could see the tears coming from its eyes. But it was not its tears, it was mine. I feel the creature and it...
#fate
#monsters
#nightmares
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
22nd Oct 2020 10:23pm
22nd Oct 2020 10:23pm
Letter To My Daughter
I know you're an adult now and that happened faster than my mind can wrap-around. You went from 6 months to 20 in about 2 weeks, at least that's how it feels to me.
So many times what I want to say is not what comes out. In my fear for your safety, for protecting you from every hurt I endured, every pain I see you walking toward, I come across as angry.
It seems to you that I just dont understand.
Babygirl, nothing could be further from the truth.
I do understand,
I understand completely.
And what you need to understand that my job as your...
So many times what I want to say is not what comes out. In my fear for your safety, for protecting you from every hurt I endured, every pain I see you walking toward, I come across as angry.
It seems to you that I just dont understand.
Babygirl, nothing could be further from the truth.
I do understand,
I understand completely.
And what you need to understand that my job as your...
#birth
#childhood
#aging #nostalgia
#aging #nostalgia
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Oct 2020 8:49pm
17th Oct 2020 8:49pm
PEACE
Sometimes I'm afraid,
Afraid of life
Afraid of death.
But when all is said and done and nothing is left,
When the world has taken its part,
When the world has broken my heart.
When life seems to pass me by, when I take that plunge but fail to fly,
I become something else as I enter reality,
my thoughts come fast and escapes as brutality.
The heat rises from within, my inner strength is fierce.
The darkness fades and my words will pierce.
My instincts become sharper, my nerves on edge.
Like the Phoenix I rise from the ash and I tackle...
Afraid of life
Afraid of death.
But when all is said and done and nothing is left,
When the world has taken its part,
When the world has broken my heart.
When life seems to pass me by, when I take that plunge but fail to fly,
I become something else as I enter reality,
my thoughts come fast and escapes as brutality.
The heat rises from within, my inner strength is fierce.
The darkness fades and my words will pierce.
My instincts become sharper, my nerves on edge.
Like the Phoenix I rise from the ash and I tackle...
#anger
#anxiety
#frustration
#confusion
#boredom
366 reads
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