Submissions by msbeav (Brenda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Daisy Mae
Daisy Mae
Three and a half pounds of heart and might.
My ride or die, my best friend, my sidekick.
Her monkey and hippo, dear friends indeed,
Humping hippo brought laughter, and a hint of mischief in need.
She'd embarrass me, with a twinkle in her eye, putting on a show for all to see.
On my shoulders while driving is where she'd ride,
Looking out the window,
wild and free.
Everywhere we went, people would stare,
In awe of her beauty and personality to share.
Fearless and fierce, with big dogs around, ...
Three and a half pounds of heart and might.
My ride or die, my best friend, my sidekick.
Her monkey and hippo, dear friends indeed,
Humping hippo brought laughter, and a hint of mischief in need.
She'd embarrass me, with a twinkle in her eye, putting on a show for all to see.
On my shoulders while driving is where she'd ride,
Looking out the window,
wild and free.
Everywhere we went, people would stare,
In awe of her beauty and personality to share.
Fearless and fierce, with big dogs around, ...
#emotions
#love
#TimeHeals
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Love Will Never Die
On the night my mom passed I had a dream. In my dream was this beautiful angel with large pink wings. The angel smiled and said to me, " dry your eyes child, your mom is tired and ready to go home." NO , I screamed, this is her home!
The angel replied - follow me, there's something I want you to see.
She pointed to the left and there stood my mom in a field of wildflowers. She looked so beautiful with long dark auburn hair and not a wrinkle did I see. My mom was smiling and talking with my grandma and grandpa, aunts and uncles and my brother Joe too.
The...
The angel replied - follow me, there's something I want you to see.
She pointed to the left and there stood my mom in a field of wildflowers. She looked so beautiful with long dark auburn hair and not a wrinkle did I see. My mom was smiling and talking with my grandma and grandpa, aunts and uncles and my brother Joe too.
The...
#brother
#father
#mother
#separation
#sister
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As I Get Older
Time is just the most precious thing. The older you get, I guess the more you realize this. Maybe it’s not even an age thing. Maybe it’s a maturity thing, but none of us really knows for sure exactly how much of it we’re going to be given, and so when you truly grow, you learn to prioritize it well.
You learn to value your time, and take it for the gift that it is. Not tomorrow. Not a year from now. Not when you graduate, or when you meet “the one,” or when you have enough money. Not when you finally have all your ducks in a row, or when all your dreams come true. But now.
...
You learn to value your time, and take it for the gift that it is. Not tomorrow. Not a year from now. Not when you graduate, or when you meet “the one,” or when you have enough money. Not when you finally have all your ducks in a row, or when all your dreams come true. But now.
...
#love
#inspirational
#gratitude
#redemption
#emotions
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Love Myself
I think there will always be part of me that requires extra TLC. I think I'll always look into the mirror and fear the revival of versions of me that expired and faded with time. I think I'll always relive how brutal it was when I picked myself apart - and let the skin I settled in, define me. I think when I see my reflection, I'll always visualize my flaws, I spent so much time trying to create a version of me to diminish them. I think it's the voice in my head ... The one that told me that I wasn't good enough, is the same one that desperately reaches out to chat. I think it's because for...
#strength
#redemption
#emotions
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I'm Sorry
I'm sorry Brandi,
How I wish I could go back to change the wrong things I put you through, and to make time rearrange.
I'm sorry for what my life, fears and screw-ups, have done to you, I simply rolled with what those fears handed me.
Yes I should have done more and not just let it be. I was so scared and didn't really know what to do.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should have been -there's no excuse for it.
Those wounds you bear may never mend and I live with that every day.
But that doesn't mean that I the love I feel for you isn't real....
How I wish I could go back to change the wrong things I put you through, and to make time rearrange.
I'm sorry for what my life, fears and screw-ups, have done to you, I simply rolled with what those fears handed me.
Yes I should have done more and not just let it be. I was so scared and didn't really know what to do.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you like I should have been -there's no excuse for it.
Those wounds you bear may never mend and I live with that every day.
But that doesn't mean that I the love I feel for you isn't real....
#mother
#memories
#separation #daughter
#separation #daughter
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Anything Like Me
If you're anything like me, then you're hard as fuck on yourself. You often forgive others easily for their mistakes but when it comes to your own, you'll hold grudges against yourself forever - but you're working on that part.
You fight hard to get what you want, but you're not afraid of that - it isn't anything new. You've learned to be tough on the outside but on the inside, you're sensitive, with a heart that is bigger than you.
You have a smart-ass mouth - a gift and a curse - but it's really only used as a defense mechanism towards those who think that they can...
You fight hard to get what you want, but you're not afraid of that - it isn't anything new. You've learned to be tough on the outside but on the inside, you're sensitive, with a heart that is bigger than you.
You have a smart-ass mouth - a gift and a curse - but it's really only used as a defense mechanism towards those who think that they can...
#kindness
#strength
#forgiveness
#motivational
#TimeHeals
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Nothingness
The sound of two people ignoring each other
The sound of no one being there for another
The sound of hearing nothingness in the air
The sound of no one bothering to care
The sound of the wind blowing everything away
The sound of the pain you go through everyday
The sound of everything that is unknown
The sound of being completely alone
The sound of thinking quietly inside
The sound of being left behind
The sound of trying not to cry
The sound of wishing you could die
The sound of silence can't be heard ...
The sound of no one being there for another
The sound of hearing nothingness in the air
The sound of no one bothering to care
The sound of the wind blowing everything away
The sound of the pain you go through everyday
The sound of everything that is unknown
The sound of being completely alone
The sound of thinking quietly inside
The sound of being left behind
The sound of trying not to cry
The sound of wishing you could die
The sound of silence can't be heard ...
#grief
#rejection
#heartbroken
#despair
#emptiness
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I Have To
I have to move on from my past.
It's hard, but I have to start somewhere.
I have to take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.
I have to.
I need to be serious about leaving the bullshit behind.
Serious about starting over.
I have to.
It's not going to be easy, but then nobody ever said this process was going to be.
But I have to start somewhere.
Everyday I have to take the same steps, same precautions, and I have to keep the same level of awareness.
I realize this is the only way.
Hopefully I will learn how to move on...
It's hard, but I have to start somewhere.
I have to take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute.
I have to.
I need to be serious about leaving the bullshit behind.
Serious about starting over.
I have to.
It's not going to be easy, but then nobody ever said this process was going to be.
But I have to start somewhere.
Everyday I have to take the same steps, same precautions, and I have to keep the same level of awareness.
I realize this is the only way.
Hopefully I will learn how to move on...
#strength
#hope
#courage
#TimeHeals
#emotions
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One Day
One day I won't be writing about you anymore. At least I hope that's how it happens. I hope one day I write these words and every single one does not loop around your name.
One day, these words won't be bleeding, they won't be soaked in the pain of losing you.
One day I'll write of other things and not of the time I lost my whole heart and everything else. I won't still feel you reaching in, ripping me into a different person.
But that's not the part that hurt ...
The part that hurt the most was you walking away like I was nothing but a stranger who was never...
One day, these words won't be bleeding, they won't be soaked in the pain of losing you.
One day I'll write of other things and not of the time I lost my whole heart and everything else. I won't still feel you reaching in, ripping me into a different person.
But that's not the part that hurt ...
The part that hurt the most was you walking away like I was nothing but a stranger who was never...
#sadness
#grief
#heartbroken #emptiness
#heartbroken #emptiness
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Soul Lost
You pass me on the street and our eyes briefly meet.
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you,
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile.
You have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You asked me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing if I should cross the line.
Once you lose your soul, there is no turning back.
Everything you once loved no longer has an impact.
People see the smile on your face,
They think you are happy. ...
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you,
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile.
You have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You asked me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing if I should cross the line.
Once you lose your soul, there is no turning back.
Everything you once loved no longer has an impact.
People see the smile on your face,
They think you are happy. ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#heartbroken #emptiness
#heartbroken #emptiness
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Disappear
While waking up
A sudden thought came across my mind
Nobody knew what I was thinking about
It was a thought anyone would have had at least once
If I disappeared
If I were to disappear
As if I were never here
I wish I could not be here
Today I'm living as hard as I was yesterday
If I go on living as hard as I was yesterday
I might find a reason not to disappear
While the world was asleep
I stared out the window
And began thinking
I thought to myself
If I disappeared
If I were to disappear
...
A sudden thought came across my mind
Nobody knew what I was thinking about
It was a thought anyone would have had at least once
If I disappeared
If I were to disappear
As if I were never here
I wish I could not be here
Today I'm living as hard as I was yesterday
If I go on living as hard as I was yesterday
I might find a reason not to disappear
While the world was asleep
I stared out the window
And began thinking
I thought to myself
If I disappeared
If I were to disappear
...
#sadness
#anxiety
#grief
#loneliness
#emptiness
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Give Her Peace
Watching her fall apart
I cry because I need her back
Her body shakes as the cancer attacks
It's hard to see her go through this
She's my mom, the one I adore
Watching her slowly deteriorate
My tears fall to the floor
Screaming out to GOD,
GIVE HER PEACE
Please make her suffering go away
I can't stop this freight train
Oh what I'd give to stop her pain
My heart is breaking
I'll never be the same
I cry because I need her back
Her body shakes as the cancer attacks
It's hard to see her go through this
She's my mom, the one I adore
Watching her slowly deteriorate
My tears fall to the floor
Screaming out to GOD,
GIVE HER PEACE
Please make her suffering go away
I can't stop this freight train
Oh what I'd give to stop her pain
My heart is breaking
I'll never be the same
#sadness
#mother
#death #aging
#death #aging
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