Submissions by miseryomy
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DRUGS POEM
Published
9th Sep 2018 10:15pm
9th Sep 2018 10:15pm
OMG its Sandy and Sue (10 lines)
there here, they have arrived
through the chaos they survived
wrapped in plastic and ready to serve
Telling myself these two I deserve
A dance and date
One for lust and one for escape
Making me feel like a real man
blue eyes and a California tan
They wanted me until they were done
Leaving as fast as they had come
through the chaos they survived
wrapped in plastic and ready to serve
Telling myself these two I deserve
A dance and date
One for lust and one for escape
Making me feel like a real man
blue eyes and a California tan
They wanted me until they were done
Leaving as fast as they had come
#drugs
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SELF POEM
Published
9th Sep 2018 4:55am
9th Sep 2018 4:55am
Apathy
I sit here in a quiet and thoughtless state
Isolated I watch all around me connect and communicate
Trying to see these "colors" everyone supposedly talks about
I try and speak, even laugh, but nothing comes aloud
Seeing ones smile, laugh, even breaking down to cry
What is it like to live? What is it like to die
So distant in thoughts that resemble near nothingness
Double eye patched pirate sailing without a compass
I wonder what its like to feel, I wonder what its like to live
Sitting stoned silent waiting for this apathy to give
Isolated I watch all around me connect and communicate
Trying to see these "colors" everyone supposedly talks about
I try and speak, even laugh, but nothing comes aloud
Seeing ones smile, laugh, even breaking down to cry
What is it like to live? What is it like to die
So distant in thoughts that resemble near nothingness
Double eye patched pirate sailing without a compass
I wonder what its like to feel, I wonder what its like to live
Sitting stoned silent waiting for this apathy to give
#loneliness
#frustration
#FeelingLost
#emptiness
#boredom
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2018 10:46pm
8th Sep 2018 10:46pm
Just a doll
Its stuck inside like a barbed pin needle in a voodoo doll
Stuffed away, pressed down and to be made to feel nothing all
Sometimes discarded for days, unlucky streaks leaves me laying for months
Since I've been bought I haven't felt love, not even once
Just propped up put on sad and pathetic display
Waiting for some kind of attention any kind of play
Sitting here quietly collecting dust and partial sun
Wishing these lifeless legs could get up and run
Treated and discarded as an old raggedy doll
Forever waiting for attention... That is all
Stuffed away, pressed down and to be made to feel nothing all
Sometimes discarded for days, unlucky streaks leaves me laying for months
Since I've been bought I haven't felt love, not even once
Just propped up put on sad and pathetic display
Waiting for some kind of attention any kind of play
Sitting here quietly collecting dust and partial sun
Wishing these lifeless legs could get up and run
Treated and discarded as an old raggedy doll
Forever waiting for attention... That is all
#anger
#anxiety
#hate
#loneliness
#scary
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Sep 2018 8:18pm
8th Sep 2018 8:18pm
Not really "4" you
You dont have to respond... But I love you
I can't make sense of it. I don't know what to do
To scared to make a move and look like a fool
To nervous and nerdy to play this off cool
I know your smiling as your eyes read this
And even though we never met it's you I miss
Feeling like an absolute idiot with no relative thoughts
To write this was a self battle something well fought
I write on, in this poem of love I continue
Only after it was to late I realized it wasn't you
How love plays us in such cruel and undesirable ways
Ill continue to...
I can't make sense of it. I don't know what to do
To scared to make a move and look like a fool
To nervous and nerdy to play this off cool
I know your smiling as your eyes read this
And even though we never met it's you I miss
Feeling like an absolute idiot with no relative thoughts
To write this was a self battle something well fought
I write on, in this poem of love I continue
Only after it was to late I realized it wasn't you
How love plays us in such cruel and undesirable ways
Ill continue to...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark #emptiness
#dark #emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2018 7:59am
8th Sep 2018 7:59am
Imagine
I have this thought, it never leaves my head
I imagine I'm better off gone just a memory, dead
You see, the afterlife is maybe unknown but I am sure
So sure that the pain of this life will end the greatest cure
Than you have the ones that would suffer and relive your pain
Double edged sword, everyone pays the same
Selfish they all say, but I am living for you
I'm miserable and beyond help there's nothing anyone can do
Sure future smiles and laughs I would definitely miss
But look around you, violence, hate, greed, all of this
I am good and I...
I imagine I'm better off gone just a memory, dead
You see, the afterlife is maybe unknown but I am sure
So sure that the pain of this life will end the greatest cure
Than you have the ones that would suffer and relive your pain
Double edged sword, everyone pays the same
Selfish they all say, but I am living for you
I'm miserable and beyond help there's nothing anyone can do
Sure future smiles and laughs I would definitely miss
But look around you, violence, hate, greed, all of this
I am good and I...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Sep 2018 6:00am
8th Sep 2018 6:00am
You decide
Tonight I drink to forget the harder times
But somehow it creeps in deeper darker and more insane
I want to be happy but the past all that shit still haunts
Smiles and laughs interrupted by old memories that taunt
Everyone says its the past just get over it and move on
Another drink another hit from the bong
I can realize one thing
The past has shaped who I am, still a broken king
I know I'm good and I mean well at least for now
The struggles and torment and I can't help but wonder how
How I made it through so much and am still able to be me ...
But somehow it creeps in deeper darker and more insane
I want to be happy but the past all that shit still haunts
Smiles and laughs interrupted by old memories that taunt
Everyone says its the past just get over it and move on
Another drink another hit from the bong
I can realize one thing
The past has shaped who I am, still a broken king
I know I'm good and I mean well at least for now
The struggles and torment and I can't help but wonder how
How I made it through so much and am still able to be me ...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2018 8:22pm
7th Sep 2018 8:22pm
Hey stranger
Hey there stranger, you want to know something about me?
The struggles from manic thinking to a peaceful zone of apathy
I look in the mirror and think, think back on my childhood days
Hiding in closets, attics and further outside my home
The abuse endured daily, finding comfort being alone
The sadistic thinking of a troubled mother and father
Exhausting my self to please and make you happy, why even bother
The choices you made and the darkness you brought upon me
The self in the mirror is engulfed in a mental, torturous, agony
All the negatives...
The struggles from manic thinking to a peaceful zone of apathy
I look in the mirror and think, think back on my childhood days
Hiding in closets, attics and further outside my home
The abuse endured daily, finding comfort being alone
The sadistic thinking of a troubled mother and father
Exhausting my self to please and make you happy, why even bother
The choices you made and the darkness you brought upon me
The self in the mirror is engulfed in a mental, torturous, agony
All the negatives...
#anger
#love
#loneliness
#family
#FeelingLost
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2018 4:28am
7th Sep 2018 4:28am
Frozen
The sun hazed out by the winters snow.
Time will rot, for time is to slow.
It’s to late now all has gone up in smoke
And in the warmth I was just a joke
Now frozen to the bone we try to survive
Doing all we can to stay alive
I pray for protection from the frost giants that near
The torturing of this slow death we all fear
If we make it through this cold night
Will we awake tomorrow with our sight
Frozen, Frozen, Frozen
The doors to life are closing
As the sun takes a peak it smiles as if he’s teasing
Only for us to try and...
Time will rot, for time is to slow.
It’s to late now all has gone up in smoke
And in the warmth I was just a joke
Now frozen to the bone we try to survive
Doing all we can to stay alive
I pray for protection from the frost giants that near
The torturing of this slow death we all fear
If we make it through this cold night
Will we awake tomorrow with our sight
Frozen, Frozen, Frozen
The doors to life are closing
As the sun takes a peak it smiles as if he’s teasing
Only for us to try and...
#sadness
#depression
#dark
#suicide
#snow
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SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2018 4:22am
7th Sep 2018 4:22am
Drifts of Suicide
I don't know how I should feel today
My mind slowly drifts away
I feel lonely, lost, with no dedication
And again I am told to take more medication
Is this life that I really want to live?
I have nothing more I could possibly give
To many mistakes leads to a miserable life
Now once again flirting with this knife
I feel worthless, dirty, stupid, and dumb
The depression leaves so much pain, yet numb
Suicide is the most thought of everyday
So suicidal I forget to pray
I wish someone would come and save me
With more...
My mind slowly drifts away
I feel lonely, lost, with no dedication
And again I am told to take more medication
Is this life that I really want to live?
I have nothing more I could possibly give
To many mistakes leads to a miserable life
Now once again flirting with this knife
I feel worthless, dirty, stupid, and dumb
The depression leaves so much pain, yet numb
Suicide is the most thought of everyday
So suicidal I forget to pray
I wish someone would come and save me
With more...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#death
#suicide
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Sep 2018 7:27am
6th Sep 2018 7:27am
Holes in happiness (the void)
I do a lot of great things and I really do like me
I can honestly look into the mirror and see beyond insecurity
But when I slip and become that blurry shadow of shame
Your there to prove its all true and I'm just part of your game
I feel like I'm above average and that feels good
On any given day this goes away because your misunderstood
I can look at myself and say I love you
Those dark days you make it feel so untrue
I can love myself for me but I have my dark days
The only time you want to love is when your ready to prey
I may be...
I can honestly look into the mirror and see beyond insecurity
But when I slip and become that blurry shadow of shame
Your there to prove its all true and I'm just part of your game
I feel like I'm above average and that feels good
On any given day this goes away because your misunderstood
I can look at myself and say I love you
Those dark days you make it feel so untrue
I can love myself for me but I have my dark days
The only time you want to love is when your ready to prey
I may be...
#escape
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
6th Sep 2018 6:45am
6th Sep 2018 6:45am
I dont even know lol
So I'm sitting here kind of awake
This is probably for you make no mistake
I can't help but feel your stress and pain
I call myself genius to some I'm just insane
I had a dream last night and I actually remembered
That I have a friend this crazy September
I really don't know what you will bring to share
Honestly I dont even care
Sorry that kind of sounded wrong
Perks of writing a random poem and or song
Anyway for whatever reason your helping make it right
Because down and depressed and I still find the urge to write
I suppose I owe...
This is probably for you make no mistake
I can't help but feel your stress and pain
I call myself genius to some I'm just insane
I had a dream last night and I actually remembered
That I have a friend this crazy September
I really don't know what you will bring to share
Honestly I dont even care
Sorry that kind of sounded wrong
Perks of writing a random poem and or song
Anyway for whatever reason your helping make it right
Because down and depressed and I still find the urge to write
I suppose I owe...
#gratitude
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Sep 2018 9:36pm
5th Sep 2018 9:36pm
Suicide (a friendly note)
I am all about life
Yet I am still suicidal
Come drink and laugh for awhile
Killing ourselves again this night
The potential for abuse was high
Not a day went by that I didn't cry
Sitting in silence, suffering through the pain
Grinding on gears with rusted and faulty chains
After thirty-five long and lonely years
Still living in darkness, anger and fear
I can't help but often ask myself why
Why after all this pain am I still alive
Its self abuse to the fullest and I'm forever trapped
Blind, in search for a new...
Yet I am still suicidal
Come drink and laugh for awhile
Killing ourselves again this night
The potential for abuse was high
Not a day went by that I didn't cry
Sitting in silence, suffering through the pain
Grinding on gears with rusted and faulty chains
After thirty-five long and lonely years
Still living in darkness, anger and fear
I can't help but often ask myself why
Why after all this pain am I still alive
Its self abuse to the fullest and I'm forever trapped
Blind, in search for a new...
#anxiety
#depression
#suicide
#confusion
#emptiness
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