Submissions by marina2020 (Rain Woman)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write in the dead of night, scribbling my emotions on a page.
Missing You
I lie awake in bed
Wearing one of your shirts
And daydreaming of kissing you again
This distance hurts me
Way more than I thought it would
But I just have to hold on a little longer
I need to see you
And hug you
And never let you go
You are my happiness
My warmth
My weirdo
Our calls and texts
Are just not enough some days
Leaving me sad and miserable
All I want is to feel your touch
Kiss your lips
And be in the presence of the one I adore
But for now I'm here ...
Wearing one of your shirts
And daydreaming of kissing you again
This distance hurts me
Way more than I thought it would
But I just have to hold on a little longer
I need to see you
And hug you
And never let you go
You are my happiness
My warmth
My weirdo
Our calls and texts
Are just not enough some days
Leaving me sad and miserable
All I want is to feel your touch
Kiss your lips
And be in the presence of the one I adore
But for now I'm here ...
#love
#boyfriend
#LongDistanceRelationship #IMissYou
#LongDistanceRelationship #IMissYou
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Part I
I feel like I’m falling
Spiraling down
Farther into this dark hole
I just can’t get a break
So many shitty things keep happening
And I can’t make them stop
I feel so alone
And helpless
And broken
Shattering more and more
Spiraling down
Farther into this dark hole
I just can’t get a break
So many shitty things keep happening
And I can’t make them stop
I feel so alone
And helpless
And broken
Shattering more and more
#sadness
#depression
#LifeStruggles #hurt
#LifeStruggles #hurt
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Day 30
My mind is full of so many other things right now
Yet it is day 30 or 30
Somehow I’m here
I thought for sure I wouldn’t be
It’s been a hard month to say the least
I do not know how to write anything anymore
My brain just doesn’t want to work
Not after everything
And yet I’m still here
Trying to reach that 50 unique word count as quickly as possible
Yet it is day 30 or 30
Somehow I’m here
I thought for sure I wouldn’t be
It’s been a hard month to say the least
I do not know how to write anything anymore
My brain just doesn’t want to work
Not after everything
And yet I’m still here
Trying to reach that 50 unique word count as quickly as possible
#NaPoWriMo2021
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6 Months
The last 6 months have been hell
I went from worrying about my first year of college
To worrying about my dads health
6 months has changed my life
Knowing the doctors can’t do anything else hurts
Knowing I’m so far away right now makes me sick
I just want to see him before he’s gone
I really don’t want to think about that
I’ve cried the majority of the past 24 hours
I don’t know how anyone takes this news
How do I cope with the idea
That my dad won’t live to see me turn 20
Or graduate college
Or get married
It hurts
I went from worrying about my first year of college
To worrying about my dads health
6 months has changed my life
Knowing the doctors can’t do anything else hurts
Knowing I’m so far away right now makes me sick
I just want to see him before he’s gone
I really don’t want to think about that
I’ve cried the majority of the past 24 hours
I don’t know how anyone takes this news
How do I cope with the idea
That my dad won’t live to see me turn 20
Or graduate college
Or get married
It hurts
#sadness
#father
#family
#cancer
#NaPoWriMo2021
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I Will Never Understand
I will never understand
Why you willingly put that into your body
You tell me you want to stop
And I see you are making some steps
Yes, I get its an addiction
Yes, I know it’s hard
But this is hard on me too
I’ve spent my whole life never associating
With people who do that type of stuff
The mental conflict in my head is hard to hide
You say it helps relax you
But there are millions of other things you could be doing
I care so much for you that I look past this
But I feel like you don’t see what it does to me
It makes...
Why you willingly put that into your body
You tell me you want to stop
And I see you are making some steps
Yes, I get its an addiction
Yes, I know it’s hard
But this is hard on me too
I’ve spent my whole life never associating
With people who do that type of stuff
The mental conflict in my head is hard to hide
You say it helps relax you
But there are millions of other things you could be doing
I care so much for you that I look past this
But I feel like you don’t see what it does to me
It makes...
#drugs
#addiction
#NaPoWriMo2021
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Relaxation
Today was the day to relax
Finals are starting soon and homework is not stopping
Today I needed to step back
And take a breath
It’s good to get work done
But I can only do so much before I burn out
Today was my day to recharge
I did some yoga
Admired my cat
Played Pokémon Go with my boyfriend
Got some good food
Took a nice long hot shower
And played some Minecraft
It’s been a pretty good day
And I know it’s not quite over yet
Once my other half is back home
We can cuddle and watch a movie
Maybe eat some ice...
Finals are starting soon and homework is not stopping
Today I needed to step back
And take a breath
It’s good to get work done
But I can only do so much before I burn out
Today was my day to recharge
I did some yoga
Admired my cat
Played Pokémon Go with my boyfriend
Got some good food
Took a nice long hot shower
And played some Minecraft
It’s been a pretty good day
And I know it’s not quite over yet
Once my other half is back home
We can cuddle and watch a movie
Maybe eat some ice...
#love
#college
#NaPoWriMo2021
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My Home
Sometimes I forget how much I enjoy your presence
Because when you are away for a long time
All I want to do is be able to hold you
Your touch is so warm and comforting
Some days it’s hard to go without
Sometimes just your voice is all I need to feel loved
But other times I need your hugs and kisses
No matter how my day goes
Seeing you makes everything better
I can always count on you to bring my mood up
And make me laugh
Being with you is the best feeling that I’ve ever felt
I never want to be away from you
You are my home
Because when you are away for a long time
All I want to do is be able to hold you
Your touch is so warm and comforting
Some days it’s hard to go without
Sometimes just your voice is all I need to feel loved
But other times I need your hugs and kisses
No matter how my day goes
Seeing you makes everything better
I can always count on you to bring my mood up
And make me laugh
Being with you is the best feeling that I’ve ever felt
I never want to be away from you
You are my home
#love
#home
#NaPoWriMo2021
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Anger
I’m just so frustrated for no good reason
I feel like I’m not being productive
But when I try to be, I can’t get anything done
It makes me angry that I’m angry
And nothing seems to be helping
I want to punch something so bad
I was perfectly fine yesterday
Feeling good and like I have most things figured out
But today, I’m stuck in my own head
Frustrated over nothing
Feeling like shit
It’s a feeling I get every so often
But can never explain well
The urge to punch something is strong
Just to get the anger and frustration out
I feel like I’m not being productive
But when I try to be, I can’t get anything done
It makes me angry that I’m angry
And nothing seems to be helping
I want to punch something so bad
I was perfectly fine yesterday
Feeling good and like I have most things figured out
But today, I’m stuck in my own head
Frustrated over nothing
Feeling like shit
It’s a feeling I get every so often
But can never explain well
The urge to punch something is strong
Just to get the anger and frustration out
#anger
#frustration
#NaPoWriMo2021
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His Music
Some days I just listen to my dad’s music
The 70s, 80s, and 90s mostly
Even though I am so far away from him, it helps
I didn’t think I loved his music this much
But now every time I listen to it, I’m reminded of him
It’s going to be hard when he’s gone
And I have to listen to it all by myself
I hate the uncertainty of his cancer
No one has any idea how long he will live
What he listens to is now what I listen to
Growing up with these songs has forever connected them to him
I remember that I use to get so sick of him always putting on...
The 70s, 80s, and 90s mostly
Even though I am so far away from him, it helps
I didn’t think I loved his music this much
But now every time I listen to it, I’m reminded of him
It’s going to be hard when he’s gone
And I have to listen to it all by myself
I hate the uncertainty of his cancer
No one has any idea how long he will live
What he listens to is now what I listen to
Growing up with these songs has forever connected them to him
I remember that I use to get so sick of him always putting on...
#sadness
#father
#cancer #NaPoWriMo2021
#cancer #NaPoWriMo2021
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Just Us
Laughs and smiles
Talking and silence
Walking and stopping
Looking at the view and each other
Food and drinks
Happiness and joy
Having fun and living in the moment
Being present and focused
Goofing around and not caring who can see
Admiring the flowers and the pond
Watching the sun set and the moon rise
Feeling perfect and loved
No worries and nothing on my mind but you
Seeing you laugh and smile
Is the best thing in the world
Talking and silence
Walking and stopping
Looking at the view and each other
Food and drinks
Happiness and joy
Having fun and living in the moment
Being present and focused
Goofing around and not caring who can see
Admiring the flowers and the pond
Watching the sun set and the moon rise
Feeling perfect and loved
No worries and nothing on my mind but you
Seeing you laugh and smile
Is the best thing in the world
#love
#NaPoWriMo2021
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Day 22
Day 22
I’ve had some ups and downs
But I’ve made it this far
The journey is unforgiving
But I can see the end is near
I’m so close yet so far
Just barely hanging in
Trying my best to stay on course
And stay on time
I almost lost it a few times
But I managed to find my way back on track
Each day gets harder
And I find myself wanting to give up
Then I remember what it felt like last time
To survive and win
I’m chasing that feeling again
I want it so bad I can almost taste it
I’ve made it all the way to ...
I’ve had some ups and downs
But I’ve made it this far
The journey is unforgiving
But I can see the end is near
I’m so close yet so far
Just barely hanging in
Trying my best to stay on course
And stay on time
I almost lost it a few times
But I managed to find my way back on track
Each day gets harder
And I find myself wanting to give up
Then I remember what it felt like last time
To survive and win
I’m chasing that feeling again
I want it so bad I can almost taste it
I’ve made it all the way to ...
#NaPoWriMo2021
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Interview
I have an interview
For a job
Tomorrow
I am so terrified
I want this job so bad
And I don’t want to mess this up
I have literally wanted to work here
For as long as I can remember
It’s a job that I see as fun
Not just work
I am so nervous
I don’t want to say the wrong thing
I think I’ll be fine
I’m pretty perfect for the job
And I know they always need more people to work
But I am still scared
Everyone is telling me that I’ll do great
But the anxiety in the back of my head is saying
“Don’t fuck it...
For a job
Tomorrow
I am so terrified
I want this job so bad
And I don’t want to mess this up
I have literally wanted to work here
For as long as I can remember
It’s a job that I see as fun
Not just work
I am so nervous
I don’t want to say the wrong thing
I think I’ll be fine
I’m pretty perfect for the job
And I know they always need more people to work
But I am still scared
Everyone is telling me that I’ll do great
But the anxiety in the back of my head is saying
“Don’t fuck it...
#anxiety
#NaPoWriMo2021
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