I Will Never Understand

I will never understand
Why you willingly put that into your body
You tell me you want to stop
And I see you are making some steps
Yes, I get its an addiction
Yes, I know it’s hard
But this is hard on me too
I’ve spent my whole life never associating
With people who do that type of stuff
The mental conflict in my head is hard to hide
You say it helps relax you
But there are millions of other things you could be doing
I care so much for you that I look past this
But I feel like you don’t see what it does to me
It makes me feel like I am not good enough
Like you don’t care enough to try and stop
Like I am not worth quitting for
I know from personal experience what addiction feels like
I know it’s not an easy path
But I don’t think you really want to stop
I hope this doesn’t come across as a judgement
Because I know what you are going through
But I hate seeing another person I love go through this
I hate being another bystander
And I don’t want you to go down the same path
That nearly killed someone else that I love