Submissions by lulumydog (Pip)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I just want to write now, can feel healing already
That f**king bed
That Fucking bed
Fuck its that time to go to bed
so i drink coffee smoke fags instead
cause im scared
will i have them nightmares again
who will wake me up
no one
i will have to do it alone
its so scary im crying
feel like dying
as the thought of doing this again
i dont think i can cope
the bedroom is a scary place i dont want to go in alone
how can i push myself in there to sleep when i l know what happens next
please help me someone
the fag aint even strong enough im dragging the hell out of it...
Fuck its that time to go to bed
so i drink coffee smoke fags instead
cause im scared
will i have them nightmares again
who will wake me up
no one
i will have to do it alone
its so scary im crying
feel like dying
as the thought of doing this again
i dont think i can cope
the bedroom is a scary place i dont want to go in alone
how can i push myself in there to sleep when i l know what happens next
please help me someone
the fag aint even strong enough im dragging the hell out of it...
770 reads
0 Comments
DIRTY BITCH
Dirty Bitch !
Its a full moon again
I have to fuck these men
This is what satisfies me
Getting sex where ever that may be
I get in the car drive really fast
The anticipation of not knowing
exactly where i am going
Is a fucking buzz and adrenaline rush
The music is blaring ministry of sound
I cant fucking wait to get round
Dressed in high stilettos,
Gold zips at the sides
Stockings suspenders
So very wet inside
I cant wait for the ride
I take my bag already packed
With...
Its a full moon again
I have to fuck these men
This is what satisfies me
Getting sex where ever that may be
I get in the car drive really fast
The anticipation of not knowing
exactly where i am going
Is a fucking buzz and adrenaline rush
The music is blaring ministry of sound
I cant fucking wait to get round
Dressed in high stilettos,
Gold zips at the sides
Stockings suspenders
So very wet inside
I cant wait for the ride
I take my bag already packed
With...
1230 reads
2 Comments
DEPRESSION
I,ve just woken up from a wonderful dream
My husband was there with my nephew it seems
This all sounds so great why call it depression
I am now living alone
The reality on waking
left me crying and shaking
And walking and thining
My mind really sinking
Back into that deep dark hole
I just wanted him to hold me
Cuddle me, unfold me
Tell me it will be alright
I dont have to fight this alone
My homes now a flat
I musnt look back
The silence the stillness
Im left with this illness
I wish he would just come...
My husband was there with my nephew it seems
This all sounds so great why call it depression
I am now living alone
The reality on waking
left me crying and shaking
And walking and thining
My mind really sinking
Back into that deep dark hole
I just wanted him to hold me
Cuddle me, unfold me
Tell me it will be alright
I dont have to fight this alone
My homes now a flat
I musnt look back
The silence the stillness
Im left with this illness
I wish he would just come...
749 reads
2 Comments
Sexually frustrated
I'm tired
I'm fucked
I wish
I lust...
I'm fucked
I wish
I lust...
3039 reads
5 Comments
PERIODS
Oh god I hate them
I know when they are coming
I cant run or hide
I can't take the pain away
of what im feeling inside
dreading the day
and the week before
as i know whats in store
blood
clots
hatred
anger
pain
its all the same
its coming again...
i cant get out
Have to stay in
or explain to a man
whats going on within
cant go to work - but I have too
so every 10 minutes have to run to the loo
as i know Im going to seep right through
theres nothing i can do
embarrassment to...
I know when they are coming
I cant run or hide
I can't take the pain away
of what im feeling inside
dreading the day
and the week before
as i know whats in store
blood
clots
hatred
anger
pain
its all the same
its coming again...
i cant get out
Have to stay in
or explain to a man
whats going on within
cant go to work - but I have too
so every 10 minutes have to run to the loo
as i know Im going to seep right through
theres nothing i can do
embarrassment to...
671 reads
5 Comments
Alcohol relapse reality
1061 reads
4 Comments
That f**king bed
Fuck its that time to go to bed
so i drink coffee smoke fags instead
cause im scared
will i have them nightmares again
who will wake me up
no one
i will have to do it alone
its so scary im crying
feel like dying
as the thought of doing this again
i dont think i can cope
the bedroom is a scary place i dont want to go in alone
how can i push myself in there to sleep when i l know what happens next
please help me someone
the fag aint even strong enough im dragging the hell out of it
but it seems as soon as i lit it
its at...
so i drink coffee smoke fags instead
cause im scared
will i have them nightmares again
who will wake me up
no one
i will have to do it alone
its so scary im crying
feel like dying
as the thought of doing this again
i dont think i can cope
the bedroom is a scary place i dont want to go in alone
how can i push myself in there to sleep when i l know what happens next
please help me someone
the fag aint even strong enough im dragging the hell out of it
but it seems as soon as i lit it
its at...
1093 reads
13 Comments
Everything to me
Although we never met you were everything to me
for you were growing inside me I wanted you to BE...
I dreamt about you every night waiting for you to arrive
never really thinking you wasnt to be born ALIVE
I imagined you as a little girl too grow up with long dark curls
I pictured your lovely dark brown eyes your smiling face my head a whirl...
for only four months I carried you and cannot believe your gone...
How can someone take you away what ever did i do wrong?
I know your alive and well in heaven my joy and pride
making someone happy taking...
for you were growing inside me I wanted you to BE...
I dreamt about you every night waiting for you to arrive
never really thinking you wasnt to be born ALIVE
I imagined you as a little girl too grow up with long dark curls
I pictured your lovely dark brown eyes your smiling face my head a whirl...
for only four months I carried you and cannot believe your gone...
How can someone take you away what ever did i do wrong?
I know your alive and well in heaven my joy and pride
making someone happy taking...
1130 reads
22 Comments
Inspired by you
915 reads
6 Comments
A GARDEN FULL OF WEEDS.
A Garden full of weeds
Im' looking out from the kitchen window
And all I can see, Is a garden full of weeds
What ever did i do wrong
To take this dream away from you and me
We used to get home from work and enjoy the things we see
because it was only you and me
what made that happen? cant you see
I miss coming home from work and truly enjoying our home
As now we just both get pissed
Even ignoring the phone
Don't you miss the things that we did
mowing the grass digging the weeds as they hid
behind the flowers blooming and swaying...
Im' looking out from the kitchen window
And all I can see, Is a garden full of weeds
What ever did i do wrong
To take this dream away from you and me
We used to get home from work and enjoy the things we see
because it was only you and me
what made that happen? cant you see
I miss coming home from work and truly enjoying our home
As now we just both get pissed
Even ignoring the phone
Don't you miss the things that we did
mowing the grass digging the weeds as they hid
behind the flowers blooming and swaying...
715 reads
4 Comments
THE BEATMASTER
The Beatmaster
I was standing in the middle of a cartoon crossroad
Not knowing which way to go, looking for a code
Then suddenly I ran, as someone was chasing me
I remember his red jacket jacket, from behind that tree
Now; In the middle of the road, I start to calm
As I saw a policeman standing, but he he had steel poles for arms
His face was really happy, and his cheeks were really red
But, he made me really wary, so I got up and fled.
This man in the red jacket was called the Beatmaster
I don't know how i know this, I just ran on faster...
I was standing in the middle of a cartoon crossroad
Not knowing which way to go, looking for a code
Then suddenly I ran, as someone was chasing me
I remember his red jacket jacket, from behind that tree
Now; In the middle of the road, I start to calm
As I saw a policeman standing, but he he had steel poles for arms
His face was really happy, and his cheeks were really red
But, he made me really wary, so I got up and fled.
This man in the red jacket was called the Beatmaster
I don't know how i know this, I just ran on faster...
691 reads
1 Comment
A BEAUTIFUL MARRIAGE ENDED...
I loved the front of my house, it was victorian, and was my dream home. I can see the bright yellow daffodils on the window ledges mixed with the stunning ruby red geraniums, through the gleaming windows which i kept clean all the time from my living room. I had about 100 daffodils altogether which i planted along the sides of the path to the front door, on the walls and the floor. It looked so fresh and colorful. This was our third house which I felt was our home. This was where we were the happiest. This home was renovated by us, and the back garden was perfect too, after we had done...
941 reads
6 Comments
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