Submissions by craze4u (Jaylyne Lugo)

All alone consumed by darkness.
Surrounded by lonliness and despair.
Old and new hurts tug at my heart.
Nothing but the sound of my thoughts torture me.
Myblade shines in the night.
My skin craves for the pain.
The cold sharpness press against my gentle but alreadytainted skin.
Red tear drops flows out so beautifully.
Why cant this be a good thing to do.
I feel in control.
When i dothis i feel compfort in my soul.

Why mom,
Did you give life to me?
Was i on accident?
Maybe youshould of got an abortion when you had the chance?!

Why mom,
Ihave to go through this mess.?
Was i born for you to have unreasonable control over me?
Am i aslave toyou?

You seem likeanother individual to me?
You saythat you love me and yeti dont feelthesame.
Some days i just hate you with a passion.
Why im like this you say,
Every day is like hell with you..

I should of stayed with my grandmother
When the social services took me away..
Idont even know you...

Cutting...
Hate, heart broken, hurt, pain, loneliness
Comes deep within
Is this really happening?
As the blade cuts into my skin..
Ican run but i cant hide
What an addiction!!!
Whycant i stop?
Maybe wen the day come
that someone understands...
my feelings for you
will never end...
And neither with my blade!!!

what an image..
self esteem breaks..
i only see anger and bitterness
me and only me knows how i feel
but i learn to live and i dont care
no more should i feel alone....
cuz when i see u everything is just a memory....
(fades)......................................