Submissions by cjmshadow (Poetic Joker)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
11th Jun 2012 7:24pm
11th Jun 2012 7:24pm
Let's Go to the Beach
I've been staring at the waves for hours, contemplating if this is what I want
They softly sway with the ocean's rhythm inviting me in, almost like a subtle taunt.
The beach used to help me feel relaxed, and wash away all my fears
But now it holds a dark gloom, almost as if it knows why I am here.
I used to enjoy burying myself in the sand, enjoying its comforting heat
But tonight all I feel are the gentle waves as they swirl around my bare feet.
Slowly I wade in until I'm neck deep, the icy water making my body feel numb
I wait for a few more minutes, even...
They softly sway with the ocean's rhythm inviting me in, almost like a subtle taunt.
The beach used to help me feel relaxed, and wash away all my fears
But now it holds a dark gloom, almost as if it knows why I am here.
I used to enjoy burying myself in the sand, enjoying its comforting heat
But tonight all I feel are the gentle waves as they swirl around my bare feet.
Slowly I wade in until I'm neck deep, the icy water making my body feel numb
I wait for a few more minutes, even...
1239 reads
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Jun 2012 5:14pm
8th Jun 2012 5:14pm
Call From the Past
When I logged onto DU to check my messages, I wasn't expecting to see your name
I'm not quite sure if you really want to fix things, or if this is just another fucking game.
All my life, I've hated my birth family; because of you all I was thrown in foster care
But now years later you try to talk to me, claiming you're better, saved, living in a life of prayer.
How am I supposed to just forgive the ones who caused me so much torture and pain
In all honesty, I don't know what to do; is there any point in communicating, any gain.
It's because of you people that I...
I'm not quite sure if you really want to fix things, or if this is just another fucking game.
All my life, I've hated my birth family; because of you all I was thrown in foster care
But now years later you try to talk to me, claiming you're better, saved, living in a life of prayer.
How am I supposed to just forgive the ones who caused me so much torture and pain
In all honesty, I don't know what to do; is there any point in communicating, any gain.
It's because of you people that I...
918 reads
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
4th Jun 2012 7:13pm
4th Jun 2012 7:13pm
Ultimate Sacrifice
Your name popped up on my news feed today
When I saw the three letters next to it, I couldn't quite find any words to say.
An Army soldier fighting in Afghanistan, dead at the age of twenty-one
You left behind a lot of sad people, including your wife and six month old son.
I know in our work, death can occur at anytime, and anywhere
But that doesn't mean that it's easier to deal with, or that I think it's fair.
I've dealt with death all my life, but military deaths hurt me more
For we share a unique bond, whether Air Force, Army, Navy, or Marine Corps. ...
When I saw the three letters next to it, I couldn't quite find any words to say.
An Army soldier fighting in Afghanistan, dead at the age of twenty-one
You left behind a lot of sad people, including your wife and six month old son.
I know in our work, death can occur at anytime, and anywhere
But that doesn't mean that it's easier to deal with, or that I think it's fair.
I've dealt with death all my life, but military deaths hurt me more
For we share a unique bond, whether Air Force, Army, Navy, or Marine Corps. ...
1069 reads
8 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
20th Apr 2012 5:02pm
20th Apr 2012 5:02pm
Small Victory?
You appeared without warning tonight, dear ugly beast of mine
I thought things would go smoothly today, everything seemed just fine.
But after just a few incidents, you emerged with a fury even you usually don't feel
These emotions spread through me, make my skin tingle, and my mind begins to reel.
I can't stop shaking, and my entire body feels as if it's on fire
Neither can I stop this feeling inside, this overwhelming desire.
The desire to cut myself over and over, and watch puddles of my blood form on the floor
To burn over my cuts again and again, until I go...
I thought things would go smoothly today, everything seemed just fine.
But after just a few incidents, you emerged with a fury even you usually don't feel
These emotions spread through me, make my skin tingle, and my mind begins to reel.
I can't stop shaking, and my entire body feels as if it's on fire
Neither can I stop this feeling inside, this overwhelming desire.
The desire to cut myself over and over, and watch puddles of my blood form on the floor
To burn over my cuts again and again, until I go...
822 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Apr 2012 9:54pm
13th Apr 2012 9:54pm
Never Forgotten
Well, I must admit I wasn't expecting this wave of different emotions to occur
I wish it didn't still feel so fresh, I wish I could say that it was just a big blur.
But I can't; they say you never forget your first one
I'm inclined to agree that you don't, no matter how long since it's been over and done.
No matter how it happened the memories are still there
Happy or sad, these memories are painful, and rather quite unfair.
I thought it'd be ok, even though it had something with your name
I should've known better than to try and best love's cruel game. ...
I wish it didn't still feel so fresh, I wish I could say that it was just a big blur.
But I can't; they say you never forget your first one
I'm inclined to agree that you don't, no matter how long since it's been over and done.
No matter how it happened the memories are still there
Happy or sad, these memories are painful, and rather quite unfair.
I thought it'd be ok, even though it had something with your name
I should've known better than to try and best love's cruel game. ...
1026 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Apr 2012 7:42pm
12th Apr 2012 7:42pm
Because of Me
The guilt and regret won't leave my mind as I enter this church for you
All our memories keep swirling through my brain as I sit here on this wooden pew.
I can't bring myself to talk about you; when asked I say I have just one sister
For the pain I feel when I think of you burns within me like a thousand boiling blisters.
I wish I could still say I had two sisters, that I wasn't always the family's "baby"
If only I had been braver and stronger back then, maybe, just maybe,
You, baby sister, would still be here, and I never would've had to say goodbye
But...
All our memories keep swirling through my brain as I sit here on this wooden pew.
I can't bring myself to talk about you; when asked I say I have just one sister
For the pain I feel when I think of you burns within me like a thousand boiling blisters.
I wish I could still say I had two sisters, that I wasn't always the family's "baby"
If only I had been braver and stronger back then, maybe, just maybe,
You, baby sister, would still be here, and I never would've had to say goodbye
But...
1110 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
17th Mar 2012 8:44pm
17th Mar 2012 8:44pm
This Night
The beast clawing his way out of me tonight
Emotions are swirling, memories of yelling, and another bad fight.
Pacing in circles, pulling at my hair
Broken glass on the floor, a broken bookshelf, a thrown deskchair.
People in my room, trying calm me down and talk to me
But right now, "calm" is something that I cannot be.
Alone later once again, oblivious to their phone call
Minutes later, a knock on my door, voices down the hall.
Security patrol telling of a report they received that I might cause myself harm
Even though the last thing on my mind...
Emotions are swirling, memories of yelling, and another bad fight.
Pacing in circles, pulling at my hair
Broken glass on the floor, a broken bookshelf, a thrown deskchair.
People in my room, trying calm me down and talk to me
But right now, "calm" is something that I cannot be.
Alone later once again, oblivious to their phone call
Minutes later, a knock on my door, voices down the hall.
Security patrol telling of a report they received that I might cause myself harm
Even though the last thing on my mind...
922 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
5th Feb 2012 4:48pm
5th Feb 2012 4:48pm
Lost Control
Fear spreads through me as the familiar rage begins to overtake me
If only people knew what was happening, if only they could see.
But no one recognizes the signs, the tremors in my body, the darkening eyes
No one sees the monster inside me; no one hears my desperate cries.
The monster is back, bloodthirsty as ever, desiring to cause even more pain
Every time he comes out, I lose more of myself, become more and more insane.
He takes over, binds me with his hate, and locks me away
I never know how long he’ll imprison me for, whether a few hours or the...
If only people knew what was happening, if only they could see.
But no one recognizes the signs, the tremors in my body, the darkening eyes
No one sees the monster inside me; no one hears my desperate cries.
The monster is back, bloodthirsty as ever, desiring to cause even more pain
Every time he comes out, I lose more of myself, become more and more insane.
He takes over, binds me with his hate, and locks me away
I never know how long he’ll imprison me for, whether a few hours or the...
1494 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
28th Jan 2012 8:48pm
28th Jan 2012 8:48pm
Duty
As I sit here on duty today
All is quiet, no one has anything to say.
Maybe I'm going deaf, am I no longer able to hear?
Or maybe it's because NO ONE is even here, but probably at home drinking a beer.
Maybe it's safe to say that sitting here for 8 hours is pointless, no one comes or goes
But it is our duty, which must be followed, as all military personnel knows.
Whether a Sailor on the pier, on the quarterdeck, or possibly on roving patrol
Or maybe a Marine, standing guard in fearful places others see as a hellhole.
Duty is duty, and part of what we swore to...
All is quiet, no one has anything to say.
Maybe I'm going deaf, am I no longer able to hear?
Or maybe it's because NO ONE is even here, but probably at home drinking a beer.
Maybe it's safe to say that sitting here for 8 hours is pointless, no one comes or goes
But it is our duty, which must be followed, as all military personnel knows.
Whether a Sailor on the pier, on the quarterdeck, or possibly on roving patrol
Or maybe a Marine, standing guard in fearful places others see as a hellhole.
Duty is duty, and part of what we swore to...
946 reads
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SONG LYRICS
Published
11th Jun 2011 3:17pm
11th Jun 2011 3:17pm
Monster (by Skillet)
The secret side of me
I never let you see
I keep it caged
But I can't control it
So stay away from me
The beast is ugly
I feel the rage
And I just can't hold it
It's scratching on the walls
In the closet, in the halls
It comes awake
And I can't control it
Hiding under the bed
In my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this?
Make it end!
[Chorus]
I feel it deep within,
It's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I
Feel like a monster
I hate what I've become ...
I never let you see
I keep it caged
But I can't control it
So stay away from me
The beast is ugly
I feel the rage
And I just can't hold it
It's scratching on the walls
In the closet, in the halls
It comes awake
And I can't control it
Hiding under the bed
In my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this?
Make it end!
[Chorus]
I feel it deep within,
It's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I
Feel like a monster
I hate what I've become ...
1428 reads
14 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
25th May 2011 4:22pm
25th May 2011 4:22pm
The Beast Within
There's a terrifying feeling deep inside me
It causes my eyesight to blur, until the point that I cannot see.
It feels like I'm being trapped in an evershrinking cage
I can feel my whole body begin to tremble from this sudden powerful rage.
I need some kind of escape, I can't take this emotion swirling inside my head
I suddenly want to hit someone, something, anything, until that thing is dead.
My room is spinning, I think I'm going to go insane
There's an overwhelming desire, acraving, aneed to inflict great pain.
A beast appears next to me, maniacal...
It causes my eyesight to blur, until the point that I cannot see.
It feels like I'm being trapped in an evershrinking cage
I can feel my whole body begin to tremble from this sudden powerful rage.
I need some kind of escape, I can't take this emotion swirling inside my head
I suddenly want to hit someone, something, anything, until that thing is dead.
My room is spinning, I think I'm going to go insane
There's an overwhelming desire, acraving, aneed to inflict great pain.
A beast appears next to me, maniacal...
2420 reads
14 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
1st May 2011 2:31pm
1st May 2011 2:31pm
Drowning in Death
Here we are sitting in the quiet night
I look at you under the soft moonlight.
Teardrops slowly fall from your beautiful eyes
And the sight of them makes me wanna die.
I know there were things that got in our way
There were times we hurt each other with what we had to say.
But I’m here now to say that everything will be okay
All our pain will someday go away.
We hug in a tight loving embrace
But then I see the look on your angelic face.
And realize that through your hope and love the pain is still there
So I wrap my arms...
I look at you under the soft moonlight.
Teardrops slowly fall from your beautiful eyes
And the sight of them makes me wanna die.
I know there were things that got in our way
There were times we hurt each other with what we had to say.
But I’m here now to say that everything will be okay
All our pain will someday go away.
We hug in a tight loving embrace
But then I see the look on your angelic face.
And realize that through your hope and love the pain is still there
So I wrap my arms...
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DU Poetry : Submissions by cjmshadow (Poetic Joker)
