Submissions by alwayslaughing (Krystal Montoya)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I am a deep thinker. Live only feeling with my heart. I love peoples spirits and the debths of their souls. I love GOD always and forever. i LOVE LOVE LOVE POETRY.
ANGER POEM
Published
13th Mar 2011 10:14am
13th Mar 2011 10:14am
friends
envy,and without...
walking around with worry and doubt.
i want to run,or possibly punch someone in their throat.
i want to take the life i live today ,,,and take it far SO FUCKING FAR FAR AWAY!
who am i to lay, down in the dirt i forgot how to pray.
now im bitter and it tastes sweet.
i want to just snatch off that bitches face as i continue to seek.
THE TRUTH.
THE DECIET.
THE BITCH I ONCE KNEW AS A "TRUE HOmIE" I WILL BEAT black and blue..
for that cunt did what she evily knew NOT TO DO..
AND FUCK THE ONES WHO STILL KICK IT WITH HER TOO.i...
walking around with worry and doubt.
i want to run,or possibly punch someone in their throat.
i want to take the life i live today ,,,and take it far SO FUCKING FAR FAR AWAY!
who am i to lay, down in the dirt i forgot how to pray.
now im bitter and it tastes sweet.
i want to just snatch off that bitches face as i continue to seek.
THE TRUTH.
THE DECIET.
THE BITCH I ONCE KNEW AS A "TRUE HOmIE" I WILL BEAT black and blue..
for that cunt did what she evily knew NOT TO DO..
AND FUCK THE ONES WHO STILL KICK IT WITH HER TOO.i...
987 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Jan 2011 11:20am
9th Jan 2011 11:20am
"IT"
Fuck your lies i do despise. I am deprived I do realize.why all the worry or all the stress? i can't ever seem to catch my breath. I bleed your name as we hang out all day,yet it is insane to feel this blame.Another once said a convience I was, struck me real deep cuz I believed that I was.I paced back and forth all night as you slep. and never did you know of all the tears that were weap. I am upset! Yes I lied to you. I didn't know how to say the truth. i am fed up with just kicken it all the time...if thats what i wanted then guess shit would be fine. I'm atmy end now decesions to be made....
1145 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
4th Jan 2011 5:24pm
4th Jan 2011 5:24pm
sleep deprived
I'm sick of all this trying. i live for today with a soul thats blind. I need an escape or just a quick place to chill so i can't gather my thoughts and plan not to kill. I'm all alone and my dreams are all shattered ,like broken mirrors that i threw as i grewoutrageouslyMadder!! My eyes cry sadder and the evil grows fatter. When willmy devouring become complete shits starting to taste real sour? smells like some feet cuz their too high to shower! Time goes by quicker when your plotting your power.Sleep is for the weak i can go another 24 hours but i'd look like a freak so i'll walk in the...
1128 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
30th Dec 2010 8:15am
30th Dec 2010 8:15am
sorrow
A walk through life bruised and shattered.All along trying my hardest not to become tainted by the noise of hurtful chatter. All the things said, the rumors,...all made me wish i could kill myself enstead of wake up to feeling this dread. Surrounded by faces going no places.Smiles look clouded and voices have no real meaning. Why do i continue to choose to be all thier walls for their leaning? i live everyday with feelings of HURT that wont go away. I run with pain as if i'm a game, advice thrown away all while i put my own name to shame. I stood no ground so i stayed in the shade, then i...
958 reads
1 Comment
ANGER POEM
Published
30th Nov 2010 4:09pm
30th Nov 2010 4:09pm
just a reminder
Living and trying,Lieing and dying. Searching for a heart thats just like mine. No where to find 'cuz I can't unwind.My heart doesn't rest and feels as though its going to pound out of my chest... ugh..How I'm so fucken tired of even wasting my breath!! Ilook in the mirror and stareing back at me is fucken death! Pain is my name remembering that nothing will ever be the same. I should of been done playin' their evil fucked up games! A fight alwaysfought for everyone fighting for the fake ass fame! I won't stand to hear another broken promise promising to to claim to be for sure this time..I...
1139 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
15th Nov 2010 8:13pm
15th Nov 2010 8:13pm
WILL BE JUST ME
(not sure what category this falls under)I can't sleep I toss and i turn.Wondering when it'll be when I finally learn.My heart still beats, and all day I laugh.Not skipping a beat to smile as we pass.I'm not going to be a prisioner of anyones mind!I will continue being me and to me that's just fine!
950 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
6th Nov 2010 4:36am
6th Nov 2010 4:36am
f**kEN OVER IT
A smile is worn yetmy heart is torn.Thoughts are born whats lost i mourn. I stayed in the wrong by living a lie, wondering why i stay a continue to try. I watched you cry and DID NOT CARE! It just pissed me off I FUCKEN SWEAR!!!I walked in silence and stood alone. Scared to turn violent my temper has grown! When will I decide to make that decision? To leave you behind to continue your bitchin'! fighting a battle for happiness i sought.Throughout our time we just argued and fought! I wont even bother wasteing mydeath, To tell you the truthof how I long for my own breath!.....
1296 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
6th Nov 2010 00:29am
6th Nov 2010 00:29am
"ONE"
"one"Alone again I feel too often.All my own choice to lay in this coffin.I tried, I fought, I prayed, and I sought.Everything remains in disarray.Past reflections surfacing true emoitions,bottled up lost in tears of the ocean.Waiting for the time.A place of acceptance to finally meet,the reality i murdered because of defeat.Daze in and nights out, I am alone.Not freed by the smoke that had flown to exhale,a cloud to sit upon to remain stuck...wispering a new song of how I had failed.Too often remains Alone,...All Alone is my coffin...All Alone way too often.............LONELY....
1003 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Nov 2010 00:50am
4th Nov 2010 00:50am
how i feel today..
........I'm holding my heart in my hands looking down into my reflection...barley beating I see the streams of my tears whats left of my true happiness.........
934 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2010 11:56pm
3rd Nov 2010 11:56pm
" lies ending"
Alone' sits at my side and awaits for the Thick white fog to drift away...It's not everyday that she feels this sad and very lonely... But she does today! A Broken Hearted Locket lay beneath her nervous feet... and appearing through her front door she greets with a Bitter Sweet Smile, looking Not at his face the whole while. S c r a m b l i n g for words to blurt out that make sense! Nothing was heard or felt..I could'nt believe these were the cards that were delt. 'tick,.. tick,...tock,..tick' sounded like my dice.. I saw throughmy ears the pastsix months,,,ALL LIES!...'Alone' again walked...
986 reads
4 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2010 9:12am
3rd Nov 2010 9:12am
"faceing facts"
I say "this" or i claim "that",but the truth remains THE TRUTH...that it's all just a bunch of crap!I HATE WHO I'VE BECOME and thats a fact!A monster or some desperate beast,looking foranother sack so i can feast! My family is thought of tye very least. A selfesh bastard..I AM A SLAVE ON A LEASH1All the faceless 'friends', all the partys,no job, NO ENDS....the mess to clean up the very next day! Feeling like shit cuz the guilt wont go away!Very unhappy and always feeling uneasy. Just want to stay locked inside my home so nobody see's me!When i am awake it seems as though i...
984 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2010 6:11pm
2nd Nov 2010 6:11pm
"Empty"
I smile, yet the truth lies within.All my pain I swallow just to hide my pride that hollow. I choose not to be a leader and continue to follow. When is it Tomorrows, Yesterdays, TODAY? A LIFE I SEEK TO BORROW.........
829 reads
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DU Poetry : Submissions by alwayslaughing (Krystal Montoya)
