Submissions by _v_

My ambitions ran high I was motivated in till I let you in, now life's   complicated I never wanted something I can't have it's right in distance but I can't grab, I deny it so I said,then i add one more drink in hopes it ends  the silly thoughts in my head which causes me to rethink  times  again, oh how I wish to delete the past oh how I'd do anything to forget your ass, i can't afford this delusion can't restore with no solution, even more I hate your face, I hate your smile, I hate your taste, with your style comes disgrace I'd do anything to clock out this place, I feel dumb like Im...

With the lights turned low 
Memories start to flow it feeds the anticipation and starts to grow
feeling your hands moving up my thighs, sliding  off my panties from  around my sides, with the wall pressed against my face, i yearn for your tight embrace  were pair-ale   face to face ,I kneel down to give you a taste the thrust of my tung has been over said  then   You lift me from giving you  head, I wrap my arms around your neck  as I stratal you, you come right in with haste both of your hands griping my waist this motion has a magnificent pace our sexual tactics are far from being...

My addiction surrounds me in this place
,,I  keep thinking of our last embrace....
  It teases me like a warm sweet taste...but I cant stop till I win the race,
You keep running thru my mind 
 i anticipate when's our next time,
    like a  lit cigerate that burns to  fast  I'm trying to savor it and make it last
 in need of a hit ... I feel like I'm on fire it's  something in the distance that I Desire
  an ice cold feeling in my veins, I need a long drag but all I see is flames,
 as i get closer to the source I start to feel no remorse 
your what i want, i...

compromise and regret is what comes to mind when  thinking  of past times spent..
 For fear of my irrational thots take over the  physical body drowned  by another drink of the bottle  knowing i was almost never sober making bad choices.. judgment of the nights
There are no spaces forward only steps back to the moments of the purity that I now lack
If time flys by and never stands still am I really to blame for the reluctant emotions I feel?
I'm at a cross roads to decide if I should tell anther lie or  tell these secrets That i hide  ....
 will it end, will it all just go...