Submissions by Swan37
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I need a void to scream into. This is not a cry for help I just feel better when I write and let it all out
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jan 2022 1:47pm
19th Jan 2022 1:47pm
five am
God the shit I write makes me worry about myself
It honestly makes me think I might have adhd
What is wrong with me?
Or my brain to be more precise
I don't remember ever making any sense or being concise
I always just wanted to feel alright
Why does this cruel existence have to be my life?
I don't want to die
but shit sometimes I do and there's not much I can do
For me, I've lived long enough
I just want it to stop
Why does my head spin? Like ALL the time
And I hear these stupid voices in my head ...
It honestly makes me think I might have adhd
What is wrong with me?
Or my brain to be more precise
I don't remember ever making any sense or being concise
I always just wanted to feel alright
Why does this cruel existence have to be my life?
I don't want to die
but shit sometimes I do and there's not much I can do
For me, I've lived long enough
I just want it to stop
Why does my head spin? Like ALL the time
And I hear these stupid voices in my head ...
#sadness
#dark
#shame
#frustration
#despair
429 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Jan 2022 1:44pm
19th Jan 2022 1:44pm
First love never dies
Everybody always says that love is hard and that it brings hurt
They are all scared of it like it’s cursed
They say that love is blind
But it isn’t
Not for me
For me love was easy when it was with you
We breathed in the same rhythm, never out of sync
Like two halves merging together
same people in different skin
same mind in different heads
same spirit in our chests
We were like two pieces of the same puzzle
And our love wasn’t blind
For we saw each other perfectly
We...
They are all scared of it like it’s cursed
They say that love is blind
But it isn’t
Not for me
For me love was easy when it was with you
We breathed in the same rhythm, never out of sync
Like two halves merging together
same people in different skin
same mind in different heads
same spirit in our chests
We were like two pieces of the same puzzle
And our love wasn’t blind
For we saw each other perfectly
We...
#love
#lies
#gratitude
#FirstLove
#separation
527 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
3rd Sep 2021 8:50pm
3rd Sep 2021 8:50pm
I swear he sucks
why are tears of rage so freaking hot?
my whole head feels like it’s going to explode
I can feel the pressure in the back of my head ticking like a time bomb
I’m just waiting for the inevitable burst
I want to rip something apart
tear it to shreds
I want to throw rocks at vapid things and rip off my ears
which are so scorching hot from my tears
I can feel how they burn my skin as they slide down my cheeks
I swear I’ll get an itch from how stupid this all is
And in all my life I have never...
my whole head feels like it’s going to explode
I can feel the pressure in the back of my head ticking like a time bomb
I’m just waiting for the inevitable burst
I want to rip something apart
tear it to shreds
I want to throw rocks at vapid things and rip off my ears
which are so scorching hot from my tears
I can feel how they burn my skin as they slide down my cheeks
I swear I’ll get an itch from how stupid this all is
And in all my life I have never...
#anger
#hate
#father
#frustration
#disappointment
283 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Aug 2021 8:47pm
26th Aug 2021 8:47pm
Rotting inside my own flesh
I don’t know how I feel and it bothers me
I don’t know how I feel but I think that I feel sick
Sick of myself and sick of everyone else
I don’t know
Myself
Or anyone
Or anything
I just know that sometimes I find it hard to exist
yet when I go for a walk and deeply breathe in I find it easier to live
Why does responsibility scare me so much?
Why do I feel like I'll break down and cry whenever I get an assignment of...
I don’t know how I feel but I think that I feel sick
Sick of myself and sick of everyone else
I don’t know
Myself
Or anyone
Or anything
I just know that sometimes I find it hard to exist
yet when I go for a walk and deeply breathe in I find it easier to live
Why does responsibility scare me so much?
Why do I feel like I'll break down and cry whenever I get an assignment of...
#suicide
#confessional
#frustration
#confusion
#suffering
676 reads
5 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
25th Jul 2021 9:20am
25th Jul 2021 9:20am
Animalistic rage
#anger
#regret
#hate
#MovingOn
#suffering
441 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
25th Jul 2021 8:49am
25th Jul 2021 8:49am
The cherry tree
#depression
#secrets
#suicide #temptation
#suicide #temptation
384 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Jun 2021 3:10pm
15th Jun 2021 3:10pm
Yin Yang
I'm just like you and you're just like me
We play to win and for the thrill of it
The chill that creeps into our skin when we look into the eyes of defeat
How can we be the same when we're so different?
The way you do what you think is right, so unlike me who takes everything I see and does what I want and what I need
The way you accept and I deny
The fact you beg when I only plead
The way that I boss around while you lead
The fact you follow destiny while I do as I please
The way you don't trust no one and I trust everyone ...
We play to win and for the thrill of it
The chill that creeps into our skin when we look into the eyes of defeat
How can we be the same when we're so different?
The way you do what you think is right, so unlike me who takes everything I see and does what I want and what I need
The way you accept and I deny
The fact you beg when I only plead
The way that I boss around while you lead
The fact you follow destiny while I do as I please
The way you don't trust no one and I trust everyone ...
#love
#confusion
442 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
9th Jun 2021 5:22pm
9th Jun 2021 5:22pm
Gods and bugs
I don't want to die but I don't want to live.
I am too tired to exist.
But there are so many goals I have already achieved.
I am in too deep.
I'm too deep in this life to make it all go away with a single sweep of a knife.
I've lived too long not to think I would be bored if I were gone.
I've seen so many things without which I do not think I could live.
I know so many things that I'm scared of what might be if my brain stopped working.
But the thing is that the things I don't know are the things I truly want to know. ...
I am too tired to exist.
But there are so many goals I have already achieved.
I am in too deep.
I'm too deep in this life to make it all go away with a single sweep of a knife.
I've lived too long not to think I would be bored if I were gone.
I've seen so many things without which I do not think I could live.
I know so many things that I'm scared of what might be if my brain stopped working.
But the thing is that the things I don't know are the things I truly want to know. ...
#death
#nature
#TruthOfLife
415 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
9th Jun 2021 5:21pm
9th Jun 2021 5:21pm
double rainbow
There is this friend I kiss like all the time.
And she's going to kill me without even giving it a try.
She's going to rip out my heart just by looking at me like a precious gemstone from afar.
I love the way she smiles and it weirds me out.
I feel confused and I worry I'm going too far.
And that's the thing it's already too late for worries like that because I have already gone too far when we slept in my bed.
I'm not confused about whether I love her or not.
I’m just not sure what type of love it really is.
...
And she's going to kill me without even giving it a try.
She's going to rip out my heart just by looking at me like a precious gemstone from afar.
I love the way she smiles and it weirds me out.
I feel confused and I worry I'm going too far.
And that's the thing it's already too late for worries like that because I have already gone too far when we slept in my bed.
I'm not confused about whether I love her or not.
I’m just not sure what type of love it really is.
...
#friendship
#rainbow
#ForbiddenLove
432 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
8th Jun 2021 8:23pm
8th Jun 2021 8:23pm
empty
I eat too much.
Sometimes I wish that food made me barf so I didn't have to take another bite.
Why do I feel so empty inside?
No matter how much I put into my body it never satisfies.
I eat to the point my stomach hurts but I'm not done yet.
At least not until I feel like I need to hurl.
If I don't overeat and fill myself up to the brim until I feel like I can't breathe then I'm not done with my meal.
I eat until I feel so sick that I need to take a break to breathe.
Not...
Sometimes I wish that food made me barf so I didn't have to take another bite.
Why do I feel so empty inside?
No matter how much I put into my body it never satisfies.
I eat to the point my stomach hurts but I'm not done yet.
At least not until I feel like I need to hurl.
If I don't overeat and fill myself up to the brim until I feel like I can't breathe then I'm not done with my meal.
I eat until I feel so sick that I need to take a break to breathe.
Not...
#confessional
#EatingDisorder
#emptiness
716 reads
4 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Jun 2021 11:19am
8th Jun 2021 11:19am
Mundane things
Tanning in the sun and listening the waves hit the shore.
Having silly competitions just to see who can make a rock skip across the water the most times.
I love mundane things like that.
Enjoying something as simple as fruit or your favorite snack.
Watching the rain fall and smelling its scent.
Eating ice cream on a hot day and playing volleyball until the sun sets.
Showering using your favorite body scent or going hiking and sleeping in a tent.
Drinking hot cacao after making angles in the snow.
Reading a good book or watching your...
Having silly competitions just to see who can make a rock skip across the water the most times.
I love mundane things like that.
Enjoying something as simple as fruit or your favorite snack.
Watching the rain fall and smelling its scent.
Eating ice cream on a hot day and playing volleyball until the sun sets.
Showering using your favorite body scent or going hiking and sleeping in a tent.
Drinking hot cacao after making angles in the snow.
Reading a good book or watching your...
#happiness
#peace
#gratitude #freedom
#gratitude #freedom
572 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Jun 2021 11:04am
8th Jun 2021 11:04am
sleep deprivation
Why do floorboards creak?
I know I can just google it, but I actually don't care
It's just a question I ask myself when it's 3 am and I go to the kitchen to eat peanut butter with jam
Sometimes I eat it with a spoon and sometimes with bread
I don't know why I do it. Probably because I can
I'm not scared of the dark or the things that lurk inside but sometimes when I lay in bed I feel like I'm being watched by a man
I'm not scared of the dark but I guess that sometimes I am
Why does time...
I know I can just google it, but I actually don't care
It's just a question I ask myself when it's 3 am and I go to the kitchen to eat peanut butter with jam
Sometimes I eat it with a spoon and sometimes with bread
I don't know why I do it. Probably because I can
I'm not scared of the dark or the things that lurk inside but sometimes when I lay in bed I feel like I'm being watched by a man
I'm not scared of the dark but I guess that sometimes I am
Why does time...
#suicide
#insomnia
#suffering
#nightmares
#FeelingTrapped
460 reads
0 Comments
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