Submissions by RatherNotSay

The weather is cold outside,
But nowhere near as icy as my heart feels.
And that's something I cannot hide.
Even though, ever so slowly it heals.
My head spins with images,
And my eyes water with memories,
My insides burn with taughts,
And spreading through me, the emotions ignite.
I weakly look up; the feelings have overtaken me.
So used to me being unaffected and strong,
No one even bothers to give a second look to see,
To see, that somethings gone wrong.
Hunched over a place where I can't be found.
I'm left to...

Looking through others eyes,
I know I seem to be holding on. 
They dont know that within me, my soul lingers.
And my insecurities have won.
I doubt a tear would even drop.
I doubt a heart would even sink.
For I am not worth the grief,
Nor am I worth the effort. 
This state of mind wont be brief.
Even though my words seem almost, as a relief.
I doubt a thought would even run.
I doubt you would even notice.
No matter how much I try not to,
My insides fill with self hatred and lonliness.
I cannot let the feelings go.
Is is any wonder...