Submissions by PurplePandas
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Every poem that I have written is about how I have felt at a certain time or something that I have seen or experienced. With the exception of the two horror poems that I attempted to write. I hope to inspire and help people with my poetry.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
13th Dec 2023 4:35am
13th Dec 2023 4:35am
Surviving
Paycheck to paycheck.
My life is a literal train wreck.
I'm not tired of trying.
I'm just tired of fighting.
Numerous bills and endless stress.
How do I even clean up this mess?
An unhappy marriage and a broken home.
I'm convinced that I can't do any of this alone.
Two parents are supposed to be better than one.
Too bad when they're angry it's like a war zone.
Screaming and crying with no communication.
Physical violence with no hesitation.
There is no teamwork, so they don't move forward.
Taking one step...
My life is a literal train wreck.
I'm not tired of trying.
I'm just tired of fighting.
Numerous bills and endless stress.
How do I even clean up this mess?
An unhappy marriage and a broken home.
I'm convinced that I can't do any of this alone.
Two parents are supposed to be better than one.
Too bad when they're angry it's like a war zone.
Screaming and crying with no communication.
Physical violence with no hesitation.
There is no teamwork, so they don't move forward.
Taking one step...
#money
#poverty
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Dec 2023 4:31am
13th Dec 2023 4:31am
Broken Best Friends
I still have the towels when we dyed our hair.
It's been so long, but the stains are still there.
I normally succeed in not thinking about you.
The towel reminded me of what we would do.
Dying our hair when something went wrong.
Talking that would last all night long.
Laughing until we cried at the dumbest jokes.
Crying so hard we'd swear we'd have a stroke.
Answering the phone when no one else would.
Doing anything and everything because we could.
We were grown and free.
Back when it was a we.
It's something we...
It's been so long, but the stains are still there.
I normally succeed in not thinking about you.
The towel reminded me of what we would do.
Dying our hair when something went wrong.
Talking that would last all night long.
Laughing until we cried at the dumbest jokes.
Crying so hard we'd swear we'd have a stroke.
Answering the phone when no one else would.
Doing anything and everything because we could.
We were grown and free.
Back when it was a we.
It's something we...
#BestFriend
#friendship
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LOVE POEM
Published
4th Apr 2022 3:41pm
4th Apr 2022 3:41pm
Heart Won't Let Go
Why does my heart hold on?
To someone that's not there.
To someone who doesn't care.
It's honestly just not fair.
I don't want to love him.
When did this even begin?
It hit me out of nowhere.
And now I live in fear.
Fear that one day he'll be gone.
And I took too long.
To tell him my feelings.
To properly fix him.
And fear that everyone will know.
That my heart isn't actually cold.
I don't know how to emotionally grow.
Because for some things, my heart won't let go.
To someone that's not there.
To someone who doesn't care.
It's honestly just not fair.
I don't want to love him.
When did this even begin?
It hit me out of nowhere.
And now I live in fear.
Fear that one day he'll be gone.
And I took too long.
To tell him my feelings.
To properly fix him.
And fear that everyone will know.
That my heart isn't actually cold.
I don't know how to emotionally grow.
Because for some things, my heart won't let go.
#hate
#heartbroken
#emptiness #fear
#emptiness #fear
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Feb 2022 11:56pm
27th Feb 2022 11:56pm
Weight
I look in the mirror a little too long.
This isn't me, it's not where I belong.
The double chin.
Blemishes on my skin.
How did I let it get this far?
Is that acne or an acne scar?
Will it stay?
Will it go away?
I don't want another thing to make me ugly.
It's bad enough that I have a belly.
That makes shirts and pants too small.
I buy clothes just to return them all.
Nothing ever fits.
I hate myself for it.
I've tried and I've tried.
I've even exercised.
Nothing seems to work. ...
This isn't me, it's not where I belong.
The double chin.
Blemishes on my skin.
How did I let it get this far?
Is that acne or an acne scar?
Will it stay?
Will it go away?
I don't want another thing to make me ugly.
It's bad enough that I have a belly.
That makes shirts and pants too small.
I buy clothes just to return them all.
Nothing ever fits.
I hate myself for it.
I've tried and I've tried.
I've even exercised.
Nothing seems to work. ...
#SelfReflection
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Feb 2022 5:32am
12th Feb 2022 5:32am
Home
You only fail when you haven't tried at all.
So today I didn't because I gave it my all.
I poured my heart and soul.
Into a house to call a home.
But I didn't meet the criteria.
Because my credit score is weak.
A big down payment
And I'll have what is meant
To be mine for my family.
I just have to be ready.
To keep trying and not give up.
Everything in life is tough.
Nothing comes easy, it takes effort.
Things that come easy aren't treasured.
So, I'll keep putting myself out there and just hope. ...
So today I didn't because I gave it my all.
I poured my heart and soul.
Into a house to call a home.
But I didn't meet the criteria.
Because my credit score is weak.
A big down payment
And I'll have what is meant
To be mine for my family.
I just have to be ready.
To keep trying and not give up.
Everything in life is tough.
Nothing comes easy, it takes effort.
Things that come easy aren't treasured.
So, I'll keep putting myself out there and just hope. ...
#love
#LifeStruggles
#home #money
#home #money
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
31st Jan 2022 5:49am
31st Jan 2022 5:49am
Disorders
I have these moments where I can't breathe.
I have these nights where I just can't sleep.
Thoughts going and going; I can't get them to stop.
It's the same things that I've always fought.
Mental disorders I don't even know exist.
Evaluate me and give me a long list.
Of words I've never seen.
And disorders I don't believe.
That I could have anything wrong.
Because it's just been too long.
And I haven't ended my life yet.
So, it's something I just don't get.
I'm fine since I haven't had a breakdown. ...
I have these nights where I just can't sleep.
Thoughts going and going; I can't get them to stop.
It's the same things that I've always fought.
Mental disorders I don't even know exist.
Evaluate me and give me a long list.
Of words I've never seen.
And disorders I don't believe.
That I could have anything wrong.
Because it's just been too long.
And I haven't ended my life yet.
So, it's something I just don't get.
I'm fine since I haven't had a breakdown. ...
#anxiety
#depression
#death #suicide
#death #suicide
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Jan 2022 5:07am
28th Jan 2022 5:07am
Empty Shell
My heart doesn't work the way that it should.
My mind doesn't think the way that it would.
Before everything happened and tore me apart.
Before I learned about a lot of peoples' heart.
Or the lack thereof.
Before I lost all my trust.
In every single person I thought was the one.
The one who was there and the one who loved.
Me for me and not who they wanted me to be.
An ear to listen, a heart to feel, an eye to see.
The pain we go through every day.
Changing us all in so many ways.
What do we do when we've lost...
My mind doesn't think the way that it would.
Before everything happened and tore me apart.
Before I learned about a lot of peoples' heart.
Or the lack thereof.
Before I lost all my trust.
In every single person I thought was the one.
The one who was there and the one who loved.
Me for me and not who they wanted me to be.
An ear to listen, a heart to feel, an eye to see.
The pain we go through every day.
Changing us all in so many ways.
What do we do when we've lost...
#SelfReflection
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DARK POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 12:54pm
18th Jan 2022 12:54pm
Die Alone
Why do we need people when we die alone?
I'm tired of needing someone to answer the phone.
To vent to someone, stop myself from falling apart.
To get some help to mend my breaking heart.
I need something to distract me from the thoughts.
To distract me from the feelings that I caught.
For everyone I know, for caring when I shouldn't.
For doing things when everyone else wouldn't.
Nobody cares about people anymore.
Only about what they can afford.
What they can't, if they're broke.
If they're funny or if they're the joke.
...
I'm tired of needing someone to answer the phone.
To vent to someone, stop myself from falling apart.
To get some help to mend my breaking heart.
I need something to distract me from the thoughts.
To distract me from the feelings that I caught.
For everyone I know, for caring when I shouldn't.
For doing things when everyone else wouldn't.
Nobody cares about people anymore.
Only about what they can afford.
What they can't, if they're broke.
If they're funny or if they're the joke.
...
#identity
#death
#LifeStruggles
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3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 12:54pm
18th Jan 2022 12:54pm
Don't Deserve What Ifs
I'm tired of the what ifs.
I'm tired of this mental list.
My mind is going crazy.
My heart is getting empty.
What if I wouldn't have left?
What if I wouldn't have slept?
What if I would have told you how I felt?
What if I could go back and just accept?
Accept the feelings I ran from.
Accept that you weren't dumb.
Some things you said make sense now.
All of the things I just wouldn't allow.
I wouldn't allow you to break my walls.
I would purposely ignore all your calls.
Even when I knew that you were...
I'm tired of this mental list.
My mind is going crazy.
My heart is getting empty.
What if I wouldn't have left?
What if I wouldn't have slept?
What if I would have told you how I felt?
What if I could go back and just accept?
Accept the feelings I ran from.
Accept that you weren't dumb.
Some things you said make sense now.
All of the things I just wouldn't allow.
I wouldn't allow you to break my walls.
I would purposely ignore all your calls.
Even when I knew that you were...
#confessional
#myself
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection #SelfDiscovery
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 00:36am
18th Jan 2022 00:36am
Dream Catcher
Why can't my dream catcher keep the nightmares at bay?
I still dream where I scream, but no one hears what I say.
I dream that I jump or get pushed off a cliff.
I'm falling fast and I can't seem to get a grip.
I dream of being cheated on in horrible ways.
I'm tired of the tricks my mind always plays.
I dream of loved ones lost like they're still alive.
I wake up hoping and die a little more inside.
Your brain knows how you feel deep in your soul.
It knows your worst fears and your biggest goals.
It knows the things you'd wish for...
I still dream where I scream, but no one hears what I say.
I dream that I jump or get pushed off a cliff.
I'm falling fast and I can't seem to get a grip.
I dream of being cheated on in horrible ways.
I'm tired of the tricks my mind always plays.
I dream of loved ones lost like they're still alive.
I wake up hoping and die a little more inside.
Your brain knows how you feel deep in your soul.
It knows your worst fears and your biggest goals.
It knows the things you'd wish for...
#dreams
#spiritual
#sleep #nightmares
#sleep #nightmares
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jan 2022 00:35am
18th Jan 2022 00:35am
He Won
I love him, but I don't want to.
He's not willing to do what he needs to.
I'm pretty sure he doesn't care anyways.
He's not consumed by me or in a daze.
He doesn't think about me like I do him.
His heart doesn't hurt like mine, he wins.
He got away easily with no regrets.
He even kept my heart when he left.
Mine just as well as every other female.
How did I allow to be treated this way?
Why do I fall harder the more I fight?
The more I stay away, the more I miss.
I still feel you everywhere.
On my lips, my...
He's not willing to do what he needs to.
I'm pretty sure he doesn't care anyways.
He's not consumed by me or in a daze.
He doesn't think about me like I do him.
His heart doesn't hurt like mine, he wins.
He got away easily with no regrets.
He even kept my heart when he left.
Mine just as well as every other female.
How did I allow to be treated this way?
Why do I fall harder the more I fight?
The more I stay away, the more I miss.
I still feel you everywhere.
On my lips, my...
#sadness
#rejection
#despair
#disappointment
#denial
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th Jan 2022 6:01pm
10th Jan 2022 6:01pm
Making Me See
My feelings for you are finally going away.
I just know that there's nothing more to say.
I'm wasting my breath when I talk.
I'm wasting my energy when I walk.
Toward you and how I feel.
Because now it isn't that real.
My feelings are diminishing.
My dreams aren't existing.
You're gone and I almost don't care.
Because you were never really there.
You've changed into someone I don't recognize.
But it's actually you, I should have realized.
I should have listened to what people said.
I shouldn't have listened to...
I just know that there's nothing more to say.
I'm wasting my breath when I talk.
I'm wasting my energy when I walk.
Toward you and how I feel.
Because now it isn't that real.
My feelings are diminishing.
My dreams aren't existing.
You're gone and I almost don't care.
Because you were never really there.
You've changed into someone I don't recognize.
But it's actually you, I should have realized.
I should have listened to what people said.
I shouldn't have listened to...
#forgiveness
#inspirational
#MovingOn #acceptance
#MovingOn #acceptance
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