Submissions by JaeNicole

Dear mama,
Can't you see that I'm no different than I was 17 years ago?
I still have the same precious heart, and smooth skin.
The only thing that has changed about me is this world we are 'living' in..
I still have the same perfect soul that I had when I was born,
But now it has been subjected to evil and a place full of sin.
I know I've made a lot of mistakes, but who is to say that I have sinned?
What living being is so all knowing that they can even define sin?
I have so many questions that I wish I could ask you...
I mean I could ask you but you...

Escaping.. Escaping.. Escaping.
Sitting here fully numb, I can't keep waiting..
I feel it ending.
The walls begin shaking, the room is collasping.
My mind is backtracking, and the last breath of air.. I'm grasping.
Collapsed upon.
Unfortunately the past can never be undone..
I'm holding onto this last breath, considering my life is in my lungs.
But now there is no going back.
Buried beneath lies and having been broken,
A lot has changed since we've spoken..
I'm over now... Making all the wrong choices.
I still smile and pretend I'm listening,...

He is the only one that would ever see me like this.
But he is fading away.
He sees me as perfection.
But he is fading away.
I am his creation; to him pure perfection.
No where else in life will I find this.
I'm losing it all.
The only time I'll ever be thought of as perfect
..... I'm perfect to someone... And it's almost gone.
So I sit here repeating myself.
Months turned to weeks, those weeks turned to days, the days turned into hours, hours condensed to minutes, and those minutes were disappearing into seconds... The last seconds... I'll miss you, I...