Submissions by Dash

My school wants me to do the work without the pressure.
My mental health is deteriorating quicker.
Because I'm stuck inside forced to work when work was all ways my mental issue, but at least with school I had a counsler or a friend to see physically.
Now the only people I get to see is my family.
I've had more mental breakdowns and panic attacks more then I ever had before this year.
Now I'm wanting to cut and bleed.
I know I shouldn't because of people who want me to succeed.
I want to die it's better then staying alive.
My friends would not...

How can I get help if I don't know what I need!
I wanna die but I can't people want me in their lives too much.
Ive thought on how good it would feel to bleed.
I don't know how people would react after my death, my life is based on a hunch.
people expect me to put my thoughts in a box for later, but when is later.
Is it when I focus on fun or when I'm with people.
How about when I'm in such a painful state.
I can't even think straight.

How can I show my pain when people hide it for me.
I know I'm not alone but I can't help but feel that I am...