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Help and Thoughts
How can I get help if I don't know what I need!
I wanna die but I can't people want me in their lives too much.
Ive thought on how good it would feel to bleed.
I don't know how people would react after my death, my life is based on a hunch.
people expect me to put my thoughts in a box for later, but when is later.
Is it when I focus on fun or when I'm with people.
How about when I'm in such a painful state.
I can't even think straight.
How can I show my pain when people hide it for me.
I know I'm not alone but I can't help but feel that I am alone.
I hope someday I feel enough pain that someone can see.
As I am with people all they see if someone happy and fun because my mouth won't let them see my pain even if its right here and now since I'm not alone in my zone.
I wanna die but I can't people want me in their lives too much.
Ive thought on how good it would feel to bleed.
I don't know how people would react after my death, my life is based on a hunch.
people expect me to put my thoughts in a box for later, but when is later.
Is it when I focus on fun or when I'm with people.
How about when I'm in such a painful state.
I can't even think straight.
How can I show my pain when people hide it for me.
I know I'm not alone but I can't help but feel that I am alone.
I hope someday I feel enough pain that someone can see.
As I am with people all they see if someone happy and fun because my mouth won't let them see my pain even if its right here and now since I'm not alone in my zone.
Published 24th Apr 2020
Author's Note
The mental health I am getting isn't enough and there is nothing I can do or show to get more or better because of quarantine. I can't even do tasks that other kids with depression or who cut do. I'm so tired of putting my thoughts in a box or letting them out because I can't get my help no matter what but I can't even end it because my friends would most likely join me in the afterlife and I can't have that happen.
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5th Jul 2020 9:15am
Reach out for help dear. Life is too precious and while so many bad things happening, remember that everything shall pass and tomorrow will be a brighter day. Friends?? DM ME.
