Submissions by ChockusDickus

I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
Why cant i end it?
Why must i go on?
I fucking hate you
But i love you still

You fucking know that you're ruining your life
Yet you still continue your stride
It all started since u hit the age of five
The moment you were able to be enticed by pleasure and comfort to be precise
Your lack of responsibility has been showing ever since
Now you're just betting with ur life like it means nothing
And who knows, maybe it doesn't
I know lately these thoughts be fucking with your head ...

Intro:
My self hatred had lead me down a path that would change it forever.
Online i found more failures like myself. Made me feel better about myself. Soon gaming and the internet took over my life. An escape from my real one

Verse 1:
One does wonder what happens when you gather lots of depressed people.
Let them share ideas and reconfirm eachothers beliefs
They influence eachothers thoughts and radicalise.
Making them come together in communities, fully anonymous.
They become less guarded about their ideas.
There they share the most...

OBSESSION

The mental gymnastics that i had to go through
Everyday it was harder to lie to myself, or to you
We were doing so well
Nothing was wrong
Until the day u left
Suddenly, for sure
You wanted to be friends, i wanted to get back... together
You wanted too have distance, i wanted to stay close... to you

Yet you were the one for me
I was sure about it too
But love forced us apart
How could i lose you, how could i lose you

Everyday i would wake, to the reality, the hardest feeling i will ever feel ...