OBSESSION

OBSESSION

The mental gymnastics that i had to go through
Everyday it was harder to lie to myself, or to you
We were doing so well
Nothing was wrong
Until the day u left
Suddenly, for sure
You wanted to be friends, i wanted to get back... together
You wanted too have distance, i wanted to stay close... to you

Yet you were the one for me
I was sure about it too
But love forced us apart
How could i lose you, how could i lose you

Everyday i would wake, to the reality, the hardest feeling i will ever feel
The realisation that we had broken up, it broke my heart
Made worse by pretty dreams of pretty things
You were in my arms on a sunny, Sunday evening
Feelings were so strong
Sitting on a bench, talking about stupid things, smiling at one another, not a worry but eachother
But even if those feelings had now faded... for you
I wanted to feel them again
Reminiscing about you, so i could be there with you
If not in the present, then in the past
Time went too fast
How could it be possible to lose it all
It still left me appalled

But love wouldn't let us have it
We were still young
Yet you were the one for me
I was sure about it too
But love forced us apart
How could i lose you, how could i lose you

The realisation of my selfishness came by itself and soon the emptyness followed
I wanted to feel good again
Not be by myself
Not be crying... help
Feeling shitty would guilt me
I was feeling guilty, for blaming you for my sorrows
Doing things i regret, thought how could i have prevented these horrors
But it was too bad that i couldn't go to the past
I was in the present
You were still gone
Force myself out of bed just for a life on my own

Love wouldn't let us have it
We were still young
Yet you were the one for me
I was sure about it too
But love forced us apart
How could i lose you, how could i lose you

Everyday waking up late, go for a walk, listen to our favourite music
You were the one who introduced me
Remeniscing about the times, those which were fading as my memory was
Obsession clouded my thoughts
Depression is what it brought
Going day by day, hoping i would say... fuck it, and go on the rails
So i wouldn't have to see you with somebody else
Have you see me so miserable
Obsession is a sad thing, for sad people, in sad places
And it's a damn shame
I felt so much shame
Without you lifes so scary
I miss resting my head on you
Forgetting about the stress
Lately its just been too much
I'm scared
As a child without his momma

But love wouldn't let us have it
We were still young
Yet you were the one for me
I was sure about it too
But love forced us apart
How could i lose you, how could i lose you

Check my texts ,got no response
Why even check when i was blocked
Sit again inside my room
Life's empty without you
Feeling numb, feeling anxiety
Wouldn't cared if i had died for real
Wouldn't be very diffirent than right now
Yet after a while, ill be honest, i felt happy being free
The burdens disappeared, my head was clear
It all seemed so simple
Like a bird on a clear day, i was free
Time's the only way to heal