Submissions by ChloesPoeticInk (Chloe Holland Dicks)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I’m Chloe Holland, a poet who writes from the rawest parts of my soul. My poetry dives deep into themes of mental health, trauma, and the quiet strength we often forget we have. Through my words, I aim to connect with those who feel lost or silenced.
DARK POEM
Published
28th Sep 2024 11:03am
28th Sep 2024 11:03am
The Signs You Missed
They say you can see the signs—
when someone’s ready to end it all,
but that’s a lie we cling to,
because facing the truth feels too small.
They smiled before they didn’t.
They laughed, joked, played along,
and you cheered at their happiness,
while they were drowning all along.
You missed the nights they cried alone,
the moments when the world closed in.
You saw the surface, the forced smile,
but never saw the chaos beneath the skin.
That’s the thing about thoughts like these—
they don’t...
when someone’s ready to end it all,
but that’s a lie we cling to,
because facing the truth feels too small.
They smiled before they didn’t.
They laughed, joked, played along,
and you cheered at their happiness,
while they were drowning all along.
You missed the nights they cried alone,
the moments when the world closed in.
You saw the surface, the forced smile,
but never saw the chaos beneath the skin.
That’s the thing about thoughts like these—
they don’t...
#emptiness
#grief
#loneliness
#sadness
#shame
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3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Sep 2024 3:29pm
26th Sep 2024 3:29pm
You'll be my Hardest Goodbye
I feel like I’m leading you on,
A flicker of hope before it’s gone.
“Leading” feels too gentle, too kind—
I’m drawing you close while losing my mind.
I’m pulled to you, yet I dread the truth—
Soon I’ll surrender to this storm uncouth.
I’ll make you fall, entangle our souls,
Then shatter your heart, leaving empty holes.
I’m so sorry—this wasn’t my intent.
You slipped into my life, a divine accident,
Meant to be a distraction, a moment to breathe,
While I prepared to say goodbye to all I grieve.
But...
A flicker of hope before it’s gone.
“Leading” feels too gentle, too kind—
I’m drawing you close while losing my mind.
I’m pulled to you, yet I dread the truth—
Soon I’ll surrender to this storm uncouth.
I’ll make you fall, entangle our souls,
Then shatter your heart, leaving empty holes.
I’m so sorry—this wasn’t my intent.
You slipped into my life, a divine accident,
Meant to be a distraction, a moment to breathe,
While I prepared to say goodbye to all I grieve.
But...
#ForbiddenLove
#forgiveness
#ILoveYou
#relationships
#support
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LOVE POEM
Published
26th Sep 2024 8:11am
26th Sep 2024 8:11am
You Don't Like Me
You don’t like me—
You like the way I fill the silence
when your world goes quiet,
when all your friends are gone,
and you’re left
with nothing but your own shadow.
You like how I make you feel important,
special, like the center of a universe
that you don’t even see me in.
You never liked me—
not for who I am,
but for the way I hold you
when no one else cares enough to.
You craved the attention,
the love you thought you deserved,
and I gave it, didn’t I?
I poured it out,...
You like the way I fill the silence
when your world goes quiet,
when all your friends are gone,
and you’re left
with nothing but your own shadow.
You like how I make you feel important,
special, like the center of a universe
that you don’t even see me in.
You never liked me—
not for who I am,
but for the way I hold you
when no one else cares enough to.
You craved the attention,
the love you thought you deserved,
and I gave it, didn’t I?
I poured it out,...
#denial
#fear
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Sep 2024 11:06pm
25th Sep 2024 11:06pm
I don't know how to live
I don’t know how to live—
I’m not alive,
Just breathing moments
I barely survive.
Ghosts of hours pass me by,
I see them fade, but wonder why
I feel so thin, I feel so weak,
This life is something I can’t seek.
I am not here, not anywhere,
Just floating in the heavy air.
A river with no course to run,
No bed to rest, no rising sun.
Am I real? Or just a thought—
A shell of what I once forgot.
A body moving with no will,
An empty heart, a soul so still.
I wake each day, my...
I’m not alive,
Just breathing moments
I barely survive.
Ghosts of hours pass me by,
I see them fade, but wonder why
I feel so thin, I feel so weak,
This life is something I can’t seek.
I am not here, not anywhere,
Just floating in the heavy air.
A river with no course to run,
No bed to rest, no rising sun.
Am I real? Or just a thought—
A shell of what I once forgot.
A body moving with no will,
An empty heart, a soul so still.
I wake each day, my...
#disappointment
#emptiness
#loneliness
#sadness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Sep 2024 00:06am
15th Sep 2024 00:06am
Am I a Murderer?
Am I a murderer for each tear I shed,
For every silent scream inside my head?
Is each skipped breath a crime I commit,
Each sleepless night, a mark that won't quit?
Am I a murderer for the dreams I erase,
For killing the light in this familiar face?
I push myself closer to that fatal edge,
Hoping the wind will answer my pledge.
Am I a murderer for the scars I create,
For flirting with fate, for sealing my fate?
Each pill, each cut, each skipped meal,
Is this the only way I know how to heal?
Am I a...
For every silent scream inside my head?
Is each skipped breath a crime I commit,
Each sleepless night, a mark that won't quit?
Am I a murderer for the dreams I erase,
For killing the light in this familiar face?
I push myself closer to that fatal edge,
Hoping the wind will answer my pledge.
Am I a murderer for the scars I create,
For flirting with fate, for sealing my fate?
Each pill, each cut, each skipped meal,
Is this the only way I know how to heal?
Am I a...
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Sep 2024 7:38pm
14th Sep 2024 7:38pm
They don't know
They don’t know I’m packing pieces of my soul away,
Carefully folding each fragment of my heart.
They don’t see me creating distance,
So my absence will be less of a jagged start.
They don’t know how soon the end will come,
When I offer a final farewell masked in light.
They don’t understand that each goodbye
Is a silent prayer for a less painful night.
They don’t know I hide beneath a veil,
A facade of warmth that’s not truly mine.
They don’t know I’m kind because I crave
A touch of compassion, so...
Carefully folding each fragment of my heart.
They don’t see me creating distance,
So my absence will be less of a jagged start.
They don’t know how soon the end will come,
When I offer a final farewell masked in light.
They don’t understand that each goodbye
Is a silent prayer for a less painful night.
They don’t know I hide beneath a veil,
A facade of warmth that’s not truly mine.
They don’t know I’m kind because I crave
A touch of compassion, so...
#despair
#emptiness
#grief
#sadness
#shame
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DARK POEM
Published
13th Sep 2024 6:47pm
13th Sep 2024 6:47pm
Uncertainty of What’s Real
I wake up to the aching, a dull, relentless throb,
Is it the pain that’s real, or just my mind’s cruel job?
Each pulse, each sharp reminder, it grips me from within,
But is it truth I’m feeling, or just the place I’ve been?
The bottle sits beside me, its answers clear and close,
But every time I reach for it, I wonder if I’m lost.
Is this the hurt I think it is, or just another game?
I’ve danced this line so many times, I'm starting to forget my name.
The pain, it feels like fire, but am I fanning flames?
Or am I...
Is it the pain that’s real, or just my mind’s cruel job?
Each pulse, each sharp reminder, it grips me from within,
But is it truth I’m feeling, or just the place I’ve been?
The bottle sits beside me, its answers clear and close,
But every time I reach for it, I wonder if I’m lost.
Is this the hurt I think it is, or just another game?
I’ve danced this line so many times, I'm starting to forget my name.
The pain, it feels like fire, but am I fanning flames?
Or am I...
#anxiety
#apathy
#confusion
#emptiness
#frustration
186 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
13th Sep 2024 1:33pm
13th Sep 2024 1:33pm
Stay Alive For Me
If I go, if I slip away,
Promise me you'll live each day.
Eat your meals, get your sleep,
Hold your heart, but do not weep.
Pretend like nothing ever changed,
Like my absence is just rearranged.
Act as though I never was,
Forget the pain, forget the cause.
You'll find someone better, you'll see,
Someone who’s more than I could be.
But know, in silence, in the dark,
I loved you with my whole heart’s spark.
I’m fading now, can’t hold on tight,
But promise me, you’ll be alright.
Live a...
Promise me you'll live each day.
Eat your meals, get your sleep,
Hold your heart, but do not weep.
Pretend like nothing ever changed,
Like my absence is just rearranged.
Act as though I never was,
Forget the pain, forget the cause.
You'll find someone better, you'll see,
Someone who’s more than I could be.
But know, in silence, in the dark,
I loved you with my whole heart’s spark.
I’m fading now, can’t hold on tight,
But promise me, you’ll be alright.
Live a...
#anxiety
#denial
#grief
#rejection
#sadness
128 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
13th Sep 2024 9:46am
13th Sep 2024 9:46am
Living for Others While Losing Myself
I'm live for your milestones,
For your birthdays, your vows, your smiles.
I count your moments like stars in the sky,
But my own road stretches for miles.
I stay for your child’s first steps,
For the joy that blooms in your eyes.
Yet when I turn to search for mine,
All I see are empty skies.
I’m here to witness your laughter,
To clap when you reach the peak.
But when I try to find my voice,
I realise I’ve forgotten how to speak.
I live in the shadow of your joy,
Waiting, just waiting,...
For your birthdays, your vows, your smiles.
I count your moments like stars in the sky,
But my own road stretches for miles.
I stay for your child’s first steps,
For the joy that blooms in your eyes.
Yet when I turn to search for mine,
All I see are empty skies.
I’m here to witness your laughter,
To clap when you reach the peak.
But when I try to find my voice,
I realise I’ve forgotten how to speak.
I live in the shadow of your joy,
Waiting, just waiting,...
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
#shame
118 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
11th Sep 2024 10:29am
11th Sep 2024 10:29am
The Art of Becoming Who I'm Not
I've mastered the art of mimicry,
Bending and twisting, so you'd see
The person you want, not who I am,
A reflection caught in someone else’s plan.
I wear the masks you’ve tailored tight,
Changing my colours in your light.
But the weight of this act has grown too vast—
I’ve lost myself in shadows cast.
You think you know me, but it's a lie,
A crafted version built to satisfy.
I shape-shift, I mold, I rearrange,
A puzzle of fragments that feel so strange.
In your eyes, I’m whole, I’m sound, ...
Bending and twisting, so you'd see
The person you want, not who I am,
A reflection caught in someone else’s plan.
I wear the masks you’ve tailored tight,
Changing my colours in your light.
But the weight of this act has grown too vast—
I’ve lost myself in shadows cast.
You think you know me, but it's a lie,
A crafted version built to satisfy.
I shape-shift, I mold, I rearrange,
A puzzle of fragments that feel so strange.
In your eyes, I’m whole, I’m sound, ...
#confusion
#frustration
#heartbroken
#loneliness
#sadness
153 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2023 1:58pm
26th Oct 2023 1:58pm
Elegy of the Craving Heart
In shadows deep, my soul’s release,
I think of ending it all, seeking peace.
Each day it calls, a sincere theme,
In life’s story, it’s a recurring dream.
A strong desire I can’t deny,
Suicide no longer feels awry.
It beckons me, a way to mend,
Escape the shadows, and find the end.
Problems boundless, a tangled mess,
Suicide as an escape, I confess.
A way to end the constant fight,
Find calmness in the eternal night.
Though I’d prefer nature’s gentle touch,
Its pace is slow, it doesn’t clutch.
I hasten it,...
I think of ending it all, seeking peace.
Each day it calls, a sincere theme,
In life’s story, it’s a recurring dream.
A strong desire I can’t deny,
Suicide no longer feels awry.
It beckons me, a way to mend,
Escape the shadows, and find the end.
Problems boundless, a tangled mess,
Suicide as an escape, I confess.
A way to end the constant fight,
Find calmness in the eternal night.
Though I’d prefer nature’s gentle touch,
Its pace is slow, it doesn’t clutch.
I hasten it,...
#anxiety
#depression
#death
#LifeStruggles
#suicide
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1 Comment
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