Submissions by ChloesPoeticInk (Chloe Holland Dicks)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Welcome to my corner of the internet where words come alive. My poetry reflects my personal journey through mental health, love, loss, and everything in between.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Apr 2025 4:59am
14th Apr 2025 4:59am
BRIDGES
I can almost understand why people leap from bridges,
Why they stand there, hearts heavy with fissures.
In a world that screams and shouts,
Yet never hears the whispers of despair that drown out.
The weight of silence is a killer,
A noose that tightens, makes the soul a thriller.
On the edge, they see it all:
The shattered dreams, the pain that stands so tall.
What’s it like to feel so hollow,
To search for hope in darkness, but only find sorrow?
They look down at the water, reflecting a void,
Each ripple a...
Why they stand there, hearts heavy with fissures.
In a world that screams and shouts,
Yet never hears the whispers of despair that drown out.
The weight of silence is a killer,
A noose that tightens, makes the soul a thriller.
On the edge, they see it all:
The shattered dreams, the pain that stands so tall.
What’s it like to feel so hollow,
To search for hope in darkness, but only find sorrow?
They look down at the water, reflecting a void,
Each ripple a...
#anxiety
#despair
#disappointment
#emptiness
#loneliness
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DARK POEM
Published
14th Feb 2025 12:20pm
14th Feb 2025 12:20pm
Goodbye
Rest In Peace to Myself.
The final call has been made, and with it, a quiet goodbye to what's been.
The Last salute offered to the memories, the moments, and the pieces of me that once lived here.
It's time to let go, to rest in the stillness that follows the end of a chapter.
The journey has closed, and the silence speaks now, but in that silence, there's peace.
The past is no longer mine to carry. It's time to rest.
Goodbye.
The final call has been made, and with it, a quiet goodbye to what's been.
The Last salute offered to the memories, the moments, and the pieces of me that once lived here.
It's time to let go, to rest in the stillness that follows the end of a chapter.
The journey has closed, and the silence speaks now, but in that silence, there's peace.
The past is no longer mine to carry. It's time to rest.
Goodbye.
#bittersweet
#despair
#loneliness
#regret
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Feb 2025 1:05pm
6th Feb 2025 1:05pm
29 Days
It’s been 29 days—
29 mornings where I wake up
without shame choking my breath,
without a hangover pressing against my skull
like a cruel reminder of failure.
But God, I miss it sometimes—
the numbness,
the soft erasure of everything
that hurt too much to carry.
It calls to me still,
a gentle voice with sharp teeth.
"Come back," it whispers.
"You know I’ll hold you better
than hope ever could."
And I almost believe it.
Almost.
Because there are nights
when...
29 mornings where I wake up
without shame choking my breath,
without a hangover pressing against my skull
like a cruel reminder of failure.
But God, I miss it sometimes—
the numbness,
the soft erasure of everything
that hurt too much to carry.
It calls to me still,
a gentle voice with sharp teeth.
"Come back," it whispers.
"You know I’ll hold you better
than hope ever could."
And I almost believe it.
Almost.
Because there are nights
when...
#addiction
#anxiety
#bipolar
#depression
#PTSD
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2024 6:30pm
14th Oct 2024 6:30pm
Lost in the Dark
Why does no one talk about how hard it is to heal,
When your comfort is in the pain, where nothing else feels real?
I’ve been drowning in this darkness since I was just a kid,
I don’t know who I am without it—don’t know if I ever did.
Who am I without the weight, without the scars,
Without the demons that held me in their arms?
I don’t know how to be happy, don’t know how to breathe,
When the only air I’ve ever known has been suffocating me.
I’ve lived in hell so long, it feels like home,
And the idea of healing makes me...
When your comfort is in the pain, where nothing else feels real?
I’ve been drowning in this darkness since I was just a kid,
I don’t know who I am without it—don’t know if I ever did.
Who am I without the weight, without the scars,
Without the demons that held me in their arms?
I don’t know how to be happy, don’t know how to breathe,
When the only air I’ve ever known has been suffocating me.
I’ve lived in hell so long, it feels like home,
And the idea of healing makes me...
#dark
#disappointment
#emptiness
#grief
#rejection
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2024 6:03am
14th Oct 2024 6:03am
In the Loop
I’m lying here, still as the air,
But inside, I’m running, I’m everywhere.
I’m trapped in this place where time bends and breaks,
Reliving my past, feeling every mistake.
I thought if I could just go back,
I’d fix it all, erase the black.
The hurt, the loss, the words I regret,
But no matter what, I can’t forget.
I see them all—the ones I’ve known,
I try to reach them, but I’m alone.
I say what I couldn’t, I hold them tight,
But something’s wrong—nothing feels right.
I run through my life, scene...
But inside, I’m running, I’m everywhere.
I’m trapped in this place where time bends and breaks,
Reliving my past, feeling every mistake.
I thought if I could just go back,
I’d fix it all, erase the black.
The hurt, the loss, the words I regret,
But no matter what, I can’t forget.
I see them all—the ones I’ve known,
I try to reach them, but I’m alone.
I say what I couldn’t, I hold them tight,
But something’s wrong—nothing feels right.
I run through my life, scene...
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Oct 2024 11:23am
13th Oct 2024 11:23am
Fear of Abandonment
I don’t cling to you, though maybe I should,
I don’t hold on tight, though I wish that I could.
Instead, I push, and I break you apart,
Daring you to stay, though I know it’s too hard.
Every word you speak, I tear it in two,
Every promise you make, I doubt it’s true.
Because deep down, I can’t ever believe
That someone like you would never just leave.
I push every button, test every line,
Hoping you’ll snap, but wishing you’re mine.
I need to see if you’ll walk away—
Like all the others who couldn’t stay. ...
I don’t hold on tight, though I wish that I could.
Instead, I push, and I break you apart,
Daring you to stay, though I know it’s too hard.
Every word you speak, I tear it in two,
Every promise you make, I doubt it’s true.
Because deep down, I can’t ever believe
That someone like you would never just leave.
I push every button, test every line,
Hoping you’ll snap, but wishing you’re mine.
I need to see if you’ll walk away—
Like all the others who couldn’t stay. ...
#anxiety
#denial
#fear
#loneliness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Oct 2024 8:11am
13th Oct 2024 8:11am
I Want to Skydive Without a Parachute
I want to skydive without a parachute,
To free-fall into nothing, let the world slip away,
To feel the wind tear at my skin,
A final release, the escape I never dared to say.
There’s no safety net, no arms to catch me,
Just the vast, endless sky pulling me in.
I wonder if peace waits below,
Or if the fall itself will finally make me thin.
Thin enough to disappear,
To fade into air like I’ve always felt inside.
They say the ground comes fast and hard,
But maybe it’s softer than the lies I’ve had to hide.
...
To free-fall into nothing, let the world slip away,
To feel the wind tear at my skin,
A final release, the escape I never dared to say.
There’s no safety net, no arms to catch me,
Just the vast, endless sky pulling me in.
I wonder if peace waits below,
Or if the fall itself will finally make me thin.
Thin enough to disappear,
To fade into air like I’ve always felt inside.
They say the ground comes fast and hard,
But maybe it’s softer than the lies I’ve had to hide.
...
#anxiety
#disappointment
#emptiness
#loneliness
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Oct 2024 8:16pm
10th Oct 2024 8:16pm
Elegy for the Unseen
They said it was a tragedy, but only after you were gone,
When silence became your loudest scream,
They turned away, ignored the dawn,
Of a pain they chose to deem a fleeting dream.
"Attention-seeking," they muttered, cold,
While your soul unraveled in quiet despair,
They never stayed to hear your stories told,
Too blind, too busy, too wrapped in their own air.
Now they stand here, too late to care,
Gathered in grief where you once stood,
They wipe their tears, claim life’s unfair,
When you begged...
When silence became your loudest scream,
They turned away, ignored the dawn,
Of a pain they chose to deem a fleeting dream.
"Attention-seeking," they muttered, cold,
While your soul unraveled in quiet despair,
They never stayed to hear your stories told,
Too blind, too busy, too wrapped in their own air.
Now they stand here, too late to care,
Gathered in grief where you once stood,
They wipe their tears, claim life’s unfair,
When you begged...
#despair
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
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ANGER POEM
Published
7th Oct 2024 9:14pm
7th Oct 2024 9:14pm
He Said If You Enjoyed It, It's Not Rape
He said if you enjoyed it, it's not rape,
as if laughter could drown the echoes of pain,
as if joy could erase the scars left behind,
turning trauma into shadows, whispering blame.
He said if you enjoyed it, don’t be dramatic,
a hollow laugh that masked the cruel truth,
but countless souls wear this heavy disguise,
fighting for light, struggling for proof.
He said if you enjoyed it, be grateful instead,
as if suffering were something we should embrace,
but every smile that hides a heartache
is a mask worn...
as if laughter could drown the echoes of pain,
as if joy could erase the scars left behind,
turning trauma into shadows, whispering blame.
He said if you enjoyed it, don’t be dramatic,
a hollow laugh that masked the cruel truth,
but countless souls wear this heavy disguise,
fighting for light, struggling for proof.
He said if you enjoyed it, be grateful instead,
as if suffering were something we should embrace,
but every smile that hides a heartache
is a mask worn...
#anger
#anxiety
#apathy
#fear
#heartbroken
175 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Oct 2024 9:12pm
7th Oct 2024 9:12pm
Elegy for a Fading Light
My mind, it falters, sinking day by day,
I push, I pull, but I’m slipping away.
Each breath a burden, each thought a plea,
Trying to hold on to what’s left of me.
I know you see me, you ask if I’m fine,
But there are no words for the shadows inside.
I’m crumbling quietly, behind my own smile,
Just know, I’ve been breaking for quite a while.
If I fade, if I go, if I fall from this fight,
Know I tried to hold on, through the endless night.
But the weight is too heavy, the light too dim,
The war in my heart, I...
I push, I pull, but I’m slipping away.
Each breath a burden, each thought a plea,
Trying to hold on to what’s left of me.
I know you see me, you ask if I’m fine,
But there are no words for the shadows inside.
I’m crumbling quietly, behind my own smile,
Just know, I’ve been breaking for quite a while.
If I fade, if I go, if I fall from this fight,
Know I tried to hold on, through the endless night.
But the weight is too heavy, the light too dim,
The war in my heart, I...
#disappointment
#emptiness
#heartbroken
#loneliness
#sadness
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Oct 2024 12:44pm
1st Oct 2024 12:44pm
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
a title that feels like a weight I can't shake,
in a world where your love was a distant whisper,
and I was left shattered, my heart forced to break.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
when your smile felt cold, a mask that you wore,
every moment I craved, just a flicker of warmth,
but I found only shadows, and I longed for so much more.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
as I stood in your light, always waiting in vain,
fighting for scraps of affection, like a...
a title that feels like a weight I can't shake,
in a world where your love was a distant whisper,
and I was left shattered, my heart forced to break.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
when your smile felt cold, a mask that you wore,
every moment I craved, just a flicker of warmth,
but I found only shadows, and I longed for so much more.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
as I stood in your light, always waiting in vain,
fighting for scraps of affection, like a...
#daughter
#family
#memories
#mother
#parent
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SELF POEM
Published
30th Sep 2024 8:50pm
30th Sep 2024 8:50pm
Born to Write, But Never Written
Maybe some people are born to write,
to bleed ink on paper under the moon’s quiet light.
But never to be the verse, never to be seen,
lost in the spaces between what could have been.
For once, I want to be the poem, not the poet,
to be the one cherished, though I may not know it.
I tire of shaping words, molding my pain,
while the world reads my soul but never knows my name.
I want to be felt, in a line that’s pure,
in someone else’s story, a love that endures.
Not the pen that carves heartache into the sky, ...
to bleed ink on paper under the moon’s quiet light.
But never to be the verse, never to be seen,
lost in the spaces between what could have been.
For once, I want to be the poem, not the poet,
to be the one cherished, though I may not know it.
I tire of shaping words, molding my pain,
while the world reads my soul but never knows my name.
I want to be felt, in a line that’s pure,
in someone else’s story, a love that endures.
Not the pen that carves heartache into the sky, ...
#FeelingLost
#LifeAsAWriter
#memories
#SelfReflection
#SelfWorth
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