Submissions by ChloesPoeticInk (Chloe Holland Dicks)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I’m Chloe Holland, a poet who writes from the rawest parts of my soul. My poetry dives deep into themes of mental health, trauma, and the quiet strength we often forget we have. Through my words, I aim to connect with those who feel lost or silenced.
SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2024 6:30pm
14th Oct 2024 6:30pm
Lost in the Dark
Why does no one talk about how hard it is to heal,
When your comfort is in the pain, where nothing else feels real?
I’ve been drowning in this darkness since I was just a kid,
I don’t know who I am without it—don’t know if I ever did.
Who am I without the weight, without the scars,
Without the demons that held me in their arms?
I don’t know how to be happy, don’t know how to breathe,
When the only air I’ve ever known has been suffocating me.
I’ve lived in hell so long, it feels like home,
And the idea of healing makes me...
When your comfort is in the pain, where nothing else feels real?
I’ve been drowning in this darkness since I was just a kid,
I don’t know who I am without it—don’t know if I ever did.
Who am I without the weight, without the scars,
Without the demons that held me in their arms?
I don’t know how to be happy, don’t know how to breathe,
When the only air I’ve ever known has been suffocating me.
I’ve lived in hell so long, it feels like home,
And the idea of healing makes me...
#dark
#disappointment
#emptiness
#grief
#rejection
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Oct 2024 6:03am
14th Oct 2024 6:03am
In the Loop
I’m lying here, still as the air,
But inside, I’m running, I’m everywhere.
I’m trapped in this place where time bends and breaks,
Reliving my past, feeling every mistake.
I thought if I could just go back,
I’d fix it all, erase the black.
The hurt, the loss, the words I regret,
But no matter what, I can’t forget.
I see them all—the ones I’ve known,
I try to reach them, but I’m alone.
I say what I couldn’t, I hold them tight,
But something’s wrong—nothing feels right.
I run through my life, scene...
But inside, I’m running, I’m everywhere.
I’m trapped in this place where time bends and breaks,
Reliving my past, feeling every mistake.
I thought if I could just go back,
I’d fix it all, erase the black.
The hurt, the loss, the words I regret,
But no matter what, I can’t forget.
I see them all—the ones I’ve known,
I try to reach them, but I’m alone.
I say what I couldn’t, I hold them tight,
But something’s wrong—nothing feels right.
I run through my life, scene...
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Oct 2024 11:23am
13th Oct 2024 11:23am
Fear of Abandonment
I don’t cling to you, though maybe I should,
I don’t hold on tight, though I wish that I could.
Instead, I push, and I break you apart,
Daring you to stay, though I know it’s too hard.
Every word you speak, I tear it in two,
Every promise you make, I doubt it’s true.
Because deep down, I can’t ever believe
That someone like you would never just leave.
I push every button, test every line,
Hoping you’ll snap, but wishing you’re mine.
I need to see if you’ll walk away—
Like all the others who couldn’t stay. ...
I don’t hold on tight, though I wish that I could.
Instead, I push, and I break you apart,
Daring you to stay, though I know it’s too hard.
Every word you speak, I tear it in two,
Every promise you make, I doubt it’s true.
Because deep down, I can’t ever believe
That someone like you would never just leave.
I push every button, test every line,
Hoping you’ll snap, but wishing you’re mine.
I need to see if you’ll walk away—
Like all the others who couldn’t stay. ...
#anxiety
#denial
#fear
#loneliness
#shame
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Oct 2024 8:11am
13th Oct 2024 8:11am
I Want to Skydive Without a Parachute
I want to skydive without a parachute,
To free-fall into nothing, let the world slip away,
To feel the wind tear at my skin,
A final release, the escape I never dared to say.
There’s no safety net, no arms to catch me,
Just the vast, endless sky pulling me in.
I wonder if peace waits below,
Or if the fall itself will finally make me thin.
Thin enough to disappear,
To fade into air like I’ve always felt inside.
They say the ground comes fast and hard,
But maybe it’s softer than the lies I’ve had to hide.
...
To free-fall into nothing, let the world slip away,
To feel the wind tear at my skin,
A final release, the escape I never dared to say.
There’s no safety net, no arms to catch me,
Just the vast, endless sky pulling me in.
I wonder if peace waits below,
Or if the fall itself will finally make me thin.
Thin enough to disappear,
To fade into air like I’ve always felt inside.
They say the ground comes fast and hard,
But maybe it’s softer than the lies I’ve had to hide.
...
#anxiety
#disappointment
#emptiness
#loneliness
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Oct 2024 8:16pm
10th Oct 2024 8:16pm
Elegy for the Unseen
They said it was a tragedy, but only after you were gone,
When silence became your loudest scream,
They turned away, ignored the dawn,
Of a pain they chose to deem a fleeting dream.
"Attention-seeking," they muttered, cold,
While your soul unraveled in quiet despair,
They never stayed to hear your stories told,
Too blind, too busy, too wrapped in their own air.
Now they stand here, too late to care,
Gathered in grief where you once stood,
They wipe their tears, claim life’s unfair,
When you begged...
When silence became your loudest scream,
They turned away, ignored the dawn,
Of a pain they chose to deem a fleeting dream.
"Attention-seeking," they muttered, cold,
While your soul unraveled in quiet despair,
They never stayed to hear your stories told,
Too blind, too busy, too wrapped in their own air.
Now they stand here, too late to care,
Gathered in grief where you once stood,
They wipe their tears, claim life’s unfair,
When you begged...
#despair
#emptiness
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
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ANGER POEM
Published
7th Oct 2024 9:14pm
7th Oct 2024 9:14pm
He Said If You Enjoyed It, It's Not Rape
He said if you enjoyed it, it's not rape,
as if laughter could drown the echoes of pain,
as if joy could erase the scars left behind,
turning trauma into shadows, whispering blame.
He said if you enjoyed it, don’t be dramatic,
a hollow laugh that masked the cruel truth,
but countless souls wear this heavy disguise,
fighting for light, struggling for proof.
He said if you enjoyed it, be grateful instead,
as if suffering were something we should embrace,
but every smile that hides a heartache
is a mask worn...
as if laughter could drown the echoes of pain,
as if joy could erase the scars left behind,
turning trauma into shadows, whispering blame.
He said if you enjoyed it, don’t be dramatic,
a hollow laugh that masked the cruel truth,
but countless souls wear this heavy disguise,
fighting for light, struggling for proof.
He said if you enjoyed it, be grateful instead,
as if suffering were something we should embrace,
but every smile that hides a heartache
is a mask worn...
#anger
#anxiety
#apathy
#fear
#heartbroken
136 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Oct 2024 9:12pm
7th Oct 2024 9:12pm
Elegy for a Fading Light
My mind, it falters, sinking day by day,
I push, I pull, but I’m slipping away.
Each breath a burden, each thought a plea,
Trying to hold on to what’s left of me.
I know you see me, you ask if I’m fine,
But there are no words for the shadows inside.
I’m crumbling quietly, behind my own smile,
Just know, I’ve been breaking for quite a while.
If I fade, if I go, if I fall from this fight,
Know I tried to hold on, through the endless night.
But the weight is too heavy, the light too dim,
The war in my heart, I...
I push, I pull, but I’m slipping away.
Each breath a burden, each thought a plea,
Trying to hold on to what’s left of me.
I know you see me, you ask if I’m fine,
But there are no words for the shadows inside.
I’m crumbling quietly, behind my own smile,
Just know, I’ve been breaking for quite a while.
If I fade, if I go, if I fall from this fight,
Know I tried to hold on, through the endless night.
But the weight is too heavy, the light too dim,
The war in my heart, I...
#disappointment
#emptiness
#heartbroken
#loneliness
#sadness
120 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Oct 2024 12:44pm
1st Oct 2024 12:44pm
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
a title that feels like a weight I can't shake,
in a world where your love was a distant whisper,
and I was left shattered, my heart forced to break.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
when your smile felt cold, a mask that you wore,
every moment I craved, just a flicker of warmth,
but I found only shadows, and I longed for so much more.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
as I stood in your light, always waiting in vain,
fighting for scraps of affection, like a...
a title that feels like a weight I can't shake,
in a world where your love was a distant whisper,
and I was left shattered, my heart forced to break.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
when your smile felt cold, a mask that you wore,
every moment I craved, just a flicker of warmth,
but I found only shadows, and I longed for so much more.
I’m ashamed to be called your daughter,
as I stood in your light, always waiting in vain,
fighting for scraps of affection, like a...
#daughter
#family
#memories
#mother
#parent
127 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Sep 2024 8:50pm
30th Sep 2024 8:50pm
Born to Write, But Never Written
Maybe some people are born to write,
to bleed ink on paper under the moon’s quiet light.
But never to be the verse, never to be seen,
lost in the spaces between what could have been.
For once, I want to be the poem, not the poet,
to be the one cherished, though I may not know it.
I tire of shaping words, molding my pain,
while the world reads my soul but never knows my name.
I want to be felt, in a line that’s pure,
in someone else’s story, a love that endures.
Not the pen that carves heartache into the sky, ...
to bleed ink on paper under the moon’s quiet light.
But never to be the verse, never to be seen,
lost in the spaces between what could have been.
For once, I want to be the poem, not the poet,
to be the one cherished, though I may not know it.
I tire of shaping words, molding my pain,
while the world reads my soul but never knows my name.
I want to be felt, in a line that’s pure,
in someone else’s story, a love that endures.
Not the pen that carves heartache into the sky, ...
#FeelingLost
#LifeAsAWriter
#memories
#SelfReflection
#SelfWorth
133 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
29th Sep 2024 6:32pm
29th Sep 2024 6:32pm
It’s Hard to Love a Poet
It’s hard to love a poet, I know it’s true,
because I’ll love you deeply, but never just you.
I’ll love the pain, the ache in my chest,
the quiet moments when I can’t find rest.
You’ll think you hold me, but I’m never there,
lost in a world you can’t touch, I swear.
I’ll whisper sweet lines, make you feel seen,
but between the verses, I’ll slip in between.
I bleed my love on pages, not in your arms,
and you’ll feel like you’re losing to invisible harms.
You’ll watch me drift, lost in my mind,
chasing ghosts...
because I’ll love you deeply, but never just you.
I’ll love the pain, the ache in my chest,
the quiet moments when I can’t find rest.
You’ll think you hold me, but I’m never there,
lost in a world you can’t touch, I swear.
I’ll whisper sweet lines, make you feel seen,
but between the verses, I’ll slip in between.
I bleed my love on pages, not in your arms,
and you’ll feel like you’re losing to invisible harms.
You’ll watch me drift, lost in my mind,
chasing ghosts...
#ForbiddenLove
#ILoveYou
#LookingForLove
#relationships
#romantic
227 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Sep 2024 9:49am
29th Sep 2024 9:49am
Don’t Fall in Love with Me
Don’t fall in love with me, I beg you now,
I’m a storm you can’t calm, and I don’t know how
to stay when the darkness swallows me whole,
to hold on to love when I’m losing control.
I’ll make you smile, I’ll make you believe,
but in the end, I’m the one who will leave.
My heart’s a wreck, a broken machine,
held together by threads you’ve never seen.
I’ll give you pieces I can’t even keep,
whisper promises I’ll break in my sleep.
I’ll let you in close, but when you’re inside,
you’ll find all the places where I...
I’m a storm you can’t calm, and I don’t know how
to stay when the darkness swallows me whole,
to hold on to love when I’m losing control.
I’ll make you smile, I’ll make you believe,
but in the end, I’m the one who will leave.
My heart’s a wreck, a broken machine,
held together by threads you’ve never seen.
I’ll give you pieces I can’t even keep,
whisper promises I’ll break in my sleep.
I’ll let you in close, but when you’re inside,
you’ll find all the places where I...
#FallingInLove
#forgiveness
#honesty
#ILoveYou
#relationships
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2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
28th Sep 2024 10:20pm
28th Sep 2024 10:20pm
My Funeral, My Last Breath
I planned my funeral, down to the bone.
Wrote the welcome for a crowd I’ve never known.
Prayers for a soul that’s been dead for years,
but no one noticed, no one shed tears.
I picked the playlist, my final say—
AI Gonplei Ste Odon, where I’ll decay.
Because even in death, I need a hand
in controlling the chaos I could never withstand.
I wrote my obituary in a single line—
“She lived, she hurt, she fell out of time.”
Nothing more, because what’s there to tell
of a life lived quietly in its own hell?...
Wrote the welcome for a crowd I’ve never known.
Prayers for a soul that’s been dead for years,
but no one noticed, no one shed tears.
I picked the playlist, my final say—
AI Gonplei Ste Odon, where I’ll decay.
Because even in death, I need a hand
in controlling the chaos I could never withstand.
I wrote my obituary in a single line—
“She lived, she hurt, she fell out of time.”
Nothing more, because what’s there to tell
of a life lived quietly in its own hell?...
#despair
#emptiness
#grief
#loneliness
#sadness
205 reads
4 Comments
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