Submissions by BordelineChick15
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
26th Nov 2014 1:31am
26th Nov 2014 1:31am
Recovery pt.1
In the beginning it was a dull knife
And in the end it became a razor blade
You see cutting doesn't solve anything
But it temporarily relieves the constant pain
My momma said "just be happy"
Go to school and be just like that kid
I can't
I'm fighting a monster in my head
If I hear you yell at me again
I'm gonna wanna hold a shotgun to my head
My momma cried
Seeing me almost unconscious in my bed
Empty pill bottle next to me
With fresh cuts on my wrist and a letter in my hand
I don't wanna remember...
And in the end it became a razor blade
You see cutting doesn't solve anything
But it temporarily relieves the constant pain
My momma said "just be happy"
Go to school and be just like that kid
I can't
I'm fighting a monster in my head
If I hear you yell at me again
I'm gonna wanna hold a shotgun to my head
My momma cried
Seeing me almost unconscious in my bed
Empty pill bottle next to me
With fresh cuts on my wrist and a letter in my hand
I don't wanna remember...
548 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Feb 2014 6:00am
5th Feb 2014 6:00am
Hiding Pain
I'm laughing but the only thing I feel is pain
I'm smiling but inside I'm really dying
I seem stronger but I only feel weaker
I'm not crying but I feel torn apart
Please come back
I wanna lie in your arms
I'm smiling but inside I'm really dying
I seem stronger but I only feel weaker
I'm not crying but I feel torn apart
Please come back
I wanna lie in your arms
734 reads
1 Comment
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Nov 2013 00:25am
20th Nov 2013 00:25am
Forever & Always
I want you...
I want to feel you...
I want you to feel me...
Touch me...
Give me gentle kisses on my neck...
Bite me...
I want to be held tightly into your arms and both of us to look deeply into our eyes and fall inlove all over again...
And keep falling inlove everyday...
I want to kiss you...
Feel the touch of your soft lips against mine...
Kissing your forehead while your head is on my lap; falling asleep...
I want to see you smile that wonderful smile of yours...
The one that always brightens up my day and makes me laugh and smile...
I want to feel you...
I want you to feel me...
Touch me...
Give me gentle kisses on my neck...
Bite me...
I want to be held tightly into your arms and both of us to look deeply into our eyes and fall inlove all over again...
And keep falling inlove everyday...
I want to kiss you...
Feel the touch of your soft lips against mine...
Kissing your forehead while your head is on my lap; falling asleep...
I want to see you smile that wonderful smile of yours...
The one that always brightens up my day and makes me laugh and smile...
806 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
17th Jul 2013 10:47am
17th Jul 2013 10:47am
Suicide My Love
It hurts
The pain
It's like I'm drowning
All those words
They just...tear me up
You walk away in silence
And it hurts even more
I need to
Be happy
Be positive
Be joyful
I can't
I'm broken
I'm empty
I'm lonely
You promised
You promised you would never break my heart
But you did
And now that you left
I don't wanna live
The pain
It's like I'm drowning
All those words
They just...tear me up
You walk away in silence
And it hurts even more
I need to
Be happy
Be positive
Be joyful
I can't
I'm broken
I'm empty
I'm lonely
You promised
You promised you would never break my heart
But you did
And now that you left
I don't wanna live
580 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th May 2013 1:37am
7th May 2013 1:37am
Letting Anger Out; So If You Don't Care, Don't Read
Alright. You want me to be honest with you?
I'm fucking sick of feeling unhappy
I'm fucking sick of feeling like i'm not good enough
I'm fucking sick of things going good then they just get worse
I'm fucking sick of you not understanding me
I'm fucking sick of my disorder
I'm fucking sick of not being skinny enough
I'm fucking sick of people judging me
I'm fucking sick of you not being here
I'm fucking sick of everything
And sometimes all I want to do is Die
Not because I want to end my life
But...
I'm fucking sick of feeling unhappy
I'm fucking sick of feeling like i'm not good enough
I'm fucking sick of things going good then they just get worse
I'm fucking sick of you not understanding me
I'm fucking sick of my disorder
I'm fucking sick of not being skinny enough
I'm fucking sick of people judging me
I'm fucking sick of you not being here
I'm fucking sick of everything
And sometimes all I want to do is Die
Not because I want to end my life
But...
810 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
6th May 2013 00:03am
6th May 2013 00:03am
The Life Of Borderline Personality Disorder
Have you ever thought about ending it all?
Have you ever thought about picking up the knife again?
Have you ever thought about skipping another meal?
I've thought about all of those things...All the time.
Some days I'm happy
Some days I just want to kill myself
There are days when I look in the mirror
And see nothing but ugly
I compare myself to the Victoria Secret Model's a lot
I beat myself up and hate myself because I want to look just like them
But I don't
So I don't eat
Other days I think I'm the most...
Have you ever thought about picking up the knife again?
Have you ever thought about skipping another meal?
I've thought about all of those things...All the time.
Some days I'm happy
Some days I just want to kill myself
There are days when I look in the mirror
And see nothing but ugly
I compare myself to the Victoria Secret Model's a lot
I beat myself up and hate myself because I want to look just like them
But I don't
So I don't eat
Other days I think I'm the most...
2300 reads
8 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Apr 2013 6:21am
2nd Apr 2013 6:21am
Her Tongue Was Tattooed On the Back of Her Teeth
And every moment I lose without you, fighting interference between my mind and the tip of my tongue, I am lost. Tripping over my words, over insanity, racking my every thought, drowning this conviction behind an apathetic mask. A numberless cigarette lit twixt my fingers, burning like the fire that beauty held in your eyes, piercing me like a conscience, shattering the glass of memory reflecting my imperfections, smoldering bridges sinking behind me in hopes for a second chance. So embrace me, dreams, for you are mine; awake to a whirlwind staying swift through my fingers, my dream of you was...
651 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Feb 2013 10:58pm
12th Feb 2013 10:58pm
This Isnt A Poem I Just Thought This Was Cute :p
Boy: Will You Marry Me?
Girl: Virtually marry you?
Boy: No, physically marry me....
Like actually marry me..
Girl: Wait..what?
Boy: Will You Marry Me?
Girl: Are you serious?
Boy: YES.
Girl: Really?
Boy: YES baby. I want you forever.
Girl: Even if I try and break the record of Worlds Biggest Woman?
Boy: YES baby, I DON'T Care how you look. I just love you, and I want you to be mine forever and ever....
Girl: Virtually marry you?
Boy: No, physically marry me....
Like actually marry me..
Girl: Wait..what?
Boy: Will You Marry Me?
Girl: Are you serious?
Boy: YES.
Girl: Really?
Boy: YES baby. I want you forever.
Girl: Even if I try and break the record of Worlds Biggest Woman?
Boy: YES baby, I DON'T Care how you look. I just love you, and I want you to be mine forever and ever....
743 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Feb 2013 4:43am
12th Feb 2013 4:43am
Love Can Lead To Suicide
Since the day you left
Ive been lost and lonely
Trying to be happy
But they're are tears in my eyes
Silent and weak
My heart is broken
I get back up
But then I fall again
Fake laughter and smiles
I'm so sick of it
Pictures of you
I need to get rid of them
Drunk and stoned
Just trying to get you out of my mind
But in the end
Love can lead to suicide
Ive been lost and lonely
Trying to be happy
But they're are tears in my eyes
Silent and weak
My heart is broken
I get back up
But then I fall again
Fake laughter and smiles
I'm so sick of it
Pictures of you
I need to get rid of them
Drunk and stoned
Just trying to get you out of my mind
But in the end
Love can lead to suicide
1165 reads
6 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
24th Jan 2013 4:17am
24th Jan 2013 4:17am
Maybe One Day I'll Be Okay Again
You made my world hell with words that made me cry
Words that were more painful than you thought
Words that would hurt in the me end
Flashbacks and Bad Memories come to mind
Physically, Mentally,and Emotionally abused
I sit there with a punch blade knife in my hand
Asking myself "What do I do?"
I'm tired of not being good enough for you
Or for anyone in that matter
Haven't you learned No Ones Perfect?
I might not be pretty,smart, or popular like you
But at least I have a heart
...
Words that were more painful than you thought
Words that would hurt in the me end
Flashbacks and Bad Memories come to mind
Physically, Mentally,and Emotionally abused
I sit there with a punch blade knife in my hand
Asking myself "What do I do?"
I'm tired of not being good enough for you
Or for anyone in that matter
Haven't you learned No Ones Perfect?
I might not be pretty,smart, or popular like you
But at least I have a heart
...
1178 reads
4 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Jan 2013 3:29pm
20th Jan 2013 3:29pm
Why did you leave?
What happened Daddy?
Why did you leave?
One second it was perfect
Now your running out the door
Ive been crying all day and night for you
I don't understand
If I made you mad, I'm sorry
Just please come home
Me and Momma need you
We cant make it without you
Ive given up hope for you coming back
It's been 5 years no calls no letters
I just found you on Facebook
with pictures of your new family
Why did you do this dad?
Was I mistake?
I guess I don't matter to you anymore
Why did you leave?
One second it was perfect
Now your running out the door
Ive been crying all day and night for you
I don't understand
If I made you mad, I'm sorry
Just please come home
Me and Momma need you
We cant make it without you
Ive given up hope for you coming back
It's been 5 years no calls no letters
I just found you on Facebook
with pictures of your new family
Why did you do this dad?
Was I mistake?
I guess I don't matter to you anymore
1049 reads
7 Comments
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