Submissions by BandGeekClarinet

When I look into the mirror, I don't see a beautiful girl, sure, I'm skinny, with blonde hair, blue eyes, tall, long legs, a figure my boyfriend says girls literally starve themselves for, but I don't see any of that. I never can, all I can see are my flaws, I'm awkward, I have big feet, my teeth aren't the whitest. I fuck up quite a lot, or I feel like I do. When I look in the mirror, I seem to be mocking myself, I can already hear the voices tell me that I'm ugly. That I'm not wanted, cause who would want me? A girl who can't even stand out in school, a girl who isn't exceptional in any...

I covered my heart, scared, I closed all my doors. Swearing to never let them open again. I couldn't bear it. The fear in my heart, I felt, the numb feeling finally wore me down. I began to think this is what feeling 'okay' is like. Then it happened, I realized more and more, I was thinking about how I could end it all. How it would only take certain things, I felt like a cancerous being. Everything that I had worked for was nothing, it didn't matter to me. I had gotten use to the cold numbness that had now consumed me. When it was lifting and I could start feeling again, I realized how raw I...

Being alone,
Is her only fear.
Well, not her only..
But it's one of the most
Feared ones she has.
She has been abandoned,
Left, like she was nothing.
Scared to let people in.
For, she has been left alone.
To herself.
No one, to love her.
She is scared of being alone.
Without anyone.
She doesn't think people will
Miss her, she thinks that she is
The only one like that.
But she is not, she held herself closed.
Like a door that wouldn't budge,
No matter what kind of key you had.
She hates the...

Silence
Is it really silent at all?
Do you think that silence is actually silent?
Is unspoken words all that quiet?
Or do you think that silence is saying more than others are hearing?
If you do,
Then you are like me.
You can hear the silence whispering in your ear.
Can't you?
I can.
Unspoken words are not that silent or quiet.
In fact,
They're very noisy.
They are shrieking.
They are screaming.
The silence isn't true.
It's shouting in your ears.
But you're deaf to the silent screaming words aren't you? ...

It was just a whisper, but I could hear it all around me, in my head, even when I closed my eyes. I was never alone. Not even in my head, all the voices yelling at me panicking. I cried out for the longest time and no one heard. Finally, I gave up.. I let it consume me. I shut my eyes trying to hold the pieces of me that are falling apart on the inside. Trying to keep my insides where they belong, putting that fake smile on my face. Then you came and I opened my eyes again, they were shut the whole time, when you spoke to me, the voices went quiet in my head. Everything stopped, everything in...