Submissions by Anxiety
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Poet Introduction
I just let my feelings spill out when I write, I’m not sure what i write anymore, please feel free to give me your honest opinions. I also reply to messages if anyone needs anything at all💕
SELF POEM
Published
7th Mar 2019 5:37am
7th Mar 2019 5:37am
Home
I keep saying I want to go home
Even when in my own bedroom
When I'm content,
I just dont know where home would be
I've been in search of the feeling for 4 years,
You know he bought me flowers on valentines day
And he brought them to me at work
I cried but let's be honest I wanted those flowers to die as soon as I touched them
That's why I left them for my grandmother
Shell be able to keep them alive much better than I could
Even when in my own bedroom
When I'm content,
I just dont know where home would be
I've been in search of the feeling for 4 years,
You know he bought me flowers on valentines day
And he brought them to me at work
I cried but let's be honest I wanted those flowers to die as soon as I touched them
That's why I left them for my grandmother
Shell be able to keep them alive much better than I could
#confusion
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jan 2019 6:15pm
18th Jan 2019 6:15pm
I dont have a name for this poem.
To stop loving you
Would be me mending my heart
Ive never been good at sewing
The end result looks worse
So ill continue to love you
Continue to tell myself this hurt is a magic trick and i need to learn how to play the cards
Yet this is just me procrastinating
Ive been told a variety of times of how long healing takes
Time limits all of my opitions
I saw a man that looked like you, at my step fathers mothers house and instantly told my mum i wanted to go home
That i missed my cat
It was the only thing i could...
Would be me mending my heart
Ive never been good at sewing
The end result looks worse
So ill continue to love you
Continue to tell myself this hurt is a magic trick and i need to learn how to play the cards
Yet this is just me procrastinating
Ive been told a variety of times of how long healing takes
Time limits all of my opitions
I saw a man that looked like you, at my step fathers mothers house and instantly told my mum i wanted to go home
That i missed my cat
It was the only thing i could...
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Jan 2019 11:47pm
15th Jan 2019 11:47pm
.
I'm so empty
I think its murdering me
All I can imagine is murdering myself
And it wouldnt be suicide theres to much self resentment for it to be suicide
I cant express the resentment I have for myself
And I cant express how happy I am you let go
I want say that I'm mad at you
That I hate you, I dont. I couldn't hold such harsh feelings towards you for telling me the truth
I wish it was easier to breathe
It feels like I'm going to lock myself away again
Most likely because I am doing so as I write this
I wanted so much for my gut...
I think its murdering me
All I can imagine is murdering myself
And it wouldnt be suicide theres to much self resentment for it to be suicide
I cant express the resentment I have for myself
And I cant express how happy I am you let go
I want say that I'm mad at you
That I hate you, I dont. I couldn't hold such harsh feelings towards you for telling me the truth
I wish it was easier to breathe
It feels like I'm going to lock myself away again
Most likely because I am doing so as I write this
I wanted so much for my gut...
#disappointment
520 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
15th Jan 2019 11:35pm
15th Jan 2019 11:35pm
.
I think I ran to you
Because you were home
For so long
And I'm toxic
So I dont know the difference between old and new
I was toxic
I don't think i am anymore
And I'm sorry to everyone i hurt
I cant take everything back
I cant show you my sorrow
You wont understand it,
I don't think I should even explain it
I dont think it matters anymore to anyone but me and I cant explain why I hold so tightly to the past
Maybe it has to do with how things seem to move to fast for me
And I cant ever hold onto them the way I want to ...
Because you were home
For so long
And I'm toxic
So I dont know the difference between old and new
I was toxic
I don't think i am anymore
And I'm sorry to everyone i hurt
I cant take everything back
I cant show you my sorrow
You wont understand it,
I don't think I should even explain it
I dont think it matters anymore to anyone but me and I cant explain why I hold so tightly to the past
Maybe it has to do with how things seem to move to fast for me
And I cant ever hold onto them the way I want to ...
#emptiness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
11th Dec 2018 4:14am
11th Dec 2018 4:14am
Take an L
I like that I want to tell you I love you
I dont think I can
But I'll say it silently until the time is right
I love that smile
Your giggle and laugh and all the faces you make
I think my feelings are hitting me a bit too hard
if I'm honest
I never thought I'd be able to get over my past
I didnt think I could allow myself to have feelings again
Over the last year I kept them all so tamely contained
You just kind of popped my bubble
I couldnt believe the relief that washed over me when I told you.
It felt like I had been holding my...
I dont think I can
But I'll say it silently until the time is right
I love that smile
Your giggle and laugh and all the faces you make
I think my feelings are hitting me a bit too hard
if I'm honest
I never thought I'd be able to get over my past
I didnt think I could allow myself to have feelings again
Over the last year I kept them all so tamely contained
You just kind of popped my bubble
I couldnt believe the relief that washed over me when I told you.
It felt like I had been holding my...
#hope
#gratitude
#admiration
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
11th Dec 2018 4:13am
11th Dec 2018 4:13am
Disastrous house of cards
I dont want to be here
This overwhelming feeling of sadness
Is so consuming
It's like putting up black out sheets in my room
I cant see anything anymore
If I step foot in that house
Even on the property
I'm not even inside the house yet
Black hole sadness
Massive heart ache
I cant really think of anywhere else I'd rather be but I dont want to be here
I dont think I want to be anywhere
I just know I dont want to be here
Everyones eyes are filled with translucent tears
They're all crying on the inside
They have...
This overwhelming feeling of sadness
Is so consuming
It's like putting up black out sheets in my room
I cant see anything anymore
If I step foot in that house
Even on the property
I'm not even inside the house yet
Black hole sadness
Massive heart ache
I cant really think of anywhere else I'd rather be but I dont want to be here
I dont think I want to be anywhere
I just know I dont want to be here
Everyones eyes are filled with translucent tears
They're all crying on the inside
They have...
#dark
#honesty
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2018 11:25pm
2nd Dec 2018 11:25pm
Holly
You took my childhood
You took my world and flipped it
Then just watched me spiral
Like it was funny
Like it was a movie
You ate popcorn and watched me snort every pill i could get my hands on
You watched me drink until i couldnt feel anything
Because i always felt too much.
You disciplined me by kicking me out of your house because i wanted to kill myself
You did the same thing to my brother
You let a man abuse me, yourself and your son
For 12 whole years
And then chose him over me every time i asked...
You took my world and flipped it
Then just watched me spiral
Like it was funny
Like it was a movie
You ate popcorn and watched me snort every pill i could get my hands on
You watched me drink until i couldnt feel anything
Because i always felt too much.
You disciplined me by kicking me out of your house because i wanted to kill myself
You did the same thing to my brother
You let a man abuse me, yourself and your son
For 12 whole years
And then chose him over me every time i asked...
#mother
#parent
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2018 9:16pm
22nd Oct 2018 9:16pm
I dont have a name for this poem.
Im cold
Stone bold
There is no helping this
I am unforgivable for the acts i have committed
My failures play like a movie in my front yard
Displayed for everyone to see
Including you
Especially you
I think i just cant give myself the happiness i know i deserve
Most likely because i have heavy hands
I cannot hold gently
Its either my all or nothing
sometimes thats scary
This life is not meant for me
Not meant for my heavy hands and
My
Heavy
Heavy heart
I...
Stone bold
There is no helping this
I am unforgivable for the acts i have committed
My failures play like a movie in my front yard
Displayed for everyone to see
Including you
Especially you
I think i just cant give myself the happiness i know i deserve
Most likely because i have heavy hands
I cannot hold gently
Its either my all or nothing
sometimes thats scary
This life is not meant for me
Not meant for my heavy hands and
My
Heavy
Heavy heart
I...
#frustration
#emptiness
561 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2018 9:14pm
22nd Oct 2018 9:14pm
It's been so long and I'm still so sad
I don't want to eat
But I need to, right?
I dont want to cry
But they keep falling
I dont even love you anymore
But you still make me sad
I dont think i love you anymore
I hope i dont
You're disgustingly monstrous
You pulled everything good out of me
Even when I was empty
You kept tugging
And I screamed and screamed and screamed
And you just laughed.
I hope I dont love you anymore
You fucked me while talking to her
And then begged me not to say anything
I hope I dont love you...
But I need to, right?
I dont want to cry
But they keep falling
I dont even love you anymore
But you still make me sad
I dont think i love you anymore
I hope i dont
You're disgustingly monstrous
You pulled everything good out of me
Even when I was empty
You kept tugging
And I screamed and screamed and screamed
And you just laughed.
I hope I dont love you anymore
You fucked me while talking to her
And then begged me not to say anything
I hope I dont love you...
#disappointment
555 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
11th Oct 2018 11:37pm
11th Oct 2018 11:37pm
Weak
I just really wish i never met you
Youre worse than me
You know the hurt
How could you come out of the situation this way.
And i still care
And i still love you
And i still think of your damn smile
But now its bloody teeth behind those lips
Youre out for blood
And i hope you get shot.
I gave you everything
I gave you everything i could even after you expressed your disgust for me
And i still would even after knowing the things you did
I still would even after knowing the things that left your lips about me
Youre worse than me
You know the hurt
How could you come out of the situation this way.
And i still care
And i still love you
And i still think of your damn smile
But now its bloody teeth behind those lips
Youre out for blood
And i hope you get shot.
I gave you everything
I gave you everything i could even after you expressed your disgust for me
And i still would even after knowing the things you did
I still would even after knowing the things that left your lips about me
#depression
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SELF POEM
Published
28th Aug 2018 3:18am
28th Aug 2018 3:18am
Sadness
I want it to be rainy
I want it to be rainy
And sad
I want it to be rainy and sad
And fucking sad
And i think im addicted to being sad
I think its the only feeling im comfortable feeling
I want it to be rainy
And sad
I want it to be rainy and sad
And fucking sad
And i think im addicted to being sad
I think its the only feeling im comfortable feeling
#sadness
#anger
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SELF POEM
Published
14th Jul 2018 00:32am
14th Jul 2018 00:32am
My anxiety
My anxiety is like a heavy comforter
To me uncomfortable
Its like a duvet, being inside a duvet i cant breathe
This air has already been in my lungs i need fresh air
But my hands wont stop shaking
My whole body is trembling and im hoping they dont notice
Im screaming inside my head
Im telling my brain to move my lips
Yet nothing is happening
Im trapped inside this flesh that i cant control
"Itll pass" i whisper to myself
"This feeling isnt forever" yet it lingers
My hands are trembling, shaking its like theres an earth...
To me uncomfortable
Its like a duvet, being inside a duvet i cant breathe
This air has already been in my lungs i need fresh air
But my hands wont stop shaking
My whole body is trembling and im hoping they dont notice
Im screaming inside my head
Im telling my brain to move my lips
Yet nothing is happening
Im trapped inside this flesh that i cant control
"Itll pass" i whisper to myself
"This feeling isnt forever" yet it lingers
My hands are trembling, shaking its like theres an earth...
#anxiety
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