Submissions by A_Conduit (Behappy - Bhairava)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Truth, without your copes and cushions, A kind and compassionate cruelty. I'm not here to converse. Almost all writing is adapted from spontaneous vocal recordings
DARK POEM
Published
26th Jun 2019 1:34pm
26th Jun 2019 1:34pm
To feel clean
Fucking blood everywhere
A little laugh, a little panic
But that's alright
It's not mine after all
Kiss and make up?
Another laugh but no reply
Well I think, I suppose it's difficult
To pale into rigor-mortis
Pockets emptied
Contents barren
Content, barren..
Little kick, little reaction
No bruising at least
That's something god, isn't it?
A natural cycle really.
Well I think, best clean up
Boring process
Wonderful banal yet carnal
Wipe here
Wipe there
Bag up cloths and clothes
Dig a hole ...
A little laugh, a little panic
But that's alright
It's not mine after all
Kiss and make up?
Another laugh but no reply
Well I think, I suppose it's difficult
To pale into rigor-mortis
Pockets emptied
Contents barren
Content, barren..
Little kick, little reaction
No bruising at least
That's something god, isn't it?
A natural cycle really.
Well I think, best clean up
Boring process
Wonderful banal yet carnal
Wipe here
Wipe there
Bag up cloths and clothes
Dig a hole ...
#murder
#freedom
#acceptance
#apathy
#SelfWorth
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Jun 2019 1:29pm
26th Jun 2019 1:29pm
Man is but a god in ruins
I've got your whole world in my hands
I've got your whole wide world in my hands
I've got your whole world in my hands
Your whole world's in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
Your whole world's in my hands
See
There's no such thing as hell
Heaven? Paradise?
It's just the here and now
Here today, gone today
Be grateful for what you had
And let us sing
I've got your whole world in my hands
I've got everything you...
I've got your whole wide world in my hands
I've got your whole world in my hands
Your whole world's in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
I've got everything you fear, in my hands
Your whole world's in my hands
See
There's no such thing as hell
Heaven? Paradise?
It's just the here and now
Here today, gone today
Be grateful for what you had
And let us sing
I've got your whole world in my hands
I've got everything you...
#murder
#fate
#freedom
#redemption
#sacrifice
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
26th Jun 2019 00:56am
26th Jun 2019 00:56am
Apathy asked but little, aquired everything
A mute child
A mother too afraid to talk
A demented father struggling to hold on
A boy with a collapsed family for support
And here I am as confidante
A laughing dead mockingbird
Absolutely flightless
Abusing the breakdown of relations
Astutely mimicking desire
A counselor who listens well
Absorbing all the failings
Attempting little accusations
Analysing admissions
Affectionately attired
As armour for the broken
Acknowledging the denials
Abruptly interrupting
Always taking it in
And eventually ...
A mother too afraid to talk
A demented father struggling to hold on
A boy with a collapsed family for support
And here I am as confidante
A laughing dead mockingbird
Absolutely flightless
Abusing the breakdown of relations
Astutely mimicking desire
A counselor who listens well
Absorbing all the failings
Attempting little accusations
Analysing admissions
Affectionately attired
As armour for the broken
Acknowledging the denials
Abruptly interrupting
Always taking it in
And eventually ...
#secrets
#lies
#betrayal
#corruption
#apathy
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DRUGS POEM
Published
25th Jun 2019 9:38pm
25th Jun 2019 9:38pm
Authorities saintly secret
A contributer of contraband to the confused and common man
Withstands the investigations of those enablers of the peddle
Through mere complicity the tarnished are erased
The degraded further degrade
Selling people to drugs
And bringing down their standards
With the standard
You know, the standard?
Bearing what little bars are bending
Bent over a crooked counter
Pinching pennies with bored precision
Pick up your face
There's pills to swallow
Sleep filth with empty pockets
Engrained sense of self loathing
Lost to me the...
Withstands the investigations of those enablers of the peddle
Through mere complicity the tarnished are erased
The degraded further degrade
Selling people to drugs
And bringing down their standards
With the standard
You know, the standard?
Bearing what little bars are bending
Bent over a crooked counter
Pinching pennies with bored precision
Pick up your face
There's pills to swallow
Sleep filth with empty pockets
Engrained sense of self loathing
Lost to me the...
#abuse
#peace
#drugs
#confessional
#addiction
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Jun 2019 12:25pm
25th Jun 2019 12:25pm
The sandman's mockery
Paranoid and sleep deprived
On the verge of collapse I hear it
That tormentor of broken consciousness
Just as the silence grows strongest
And the darkness becomes material
A sudden creak, squeak or clanging.
The sandman watches my breaths
Till once steadied
He turns the handle of my door
Erratic I respond
With pin prick eyes aglow
A furnace of rage within my chest
I stare with violent expectation
Towards the non-event of imagination
The repetition is tedium itself.
Once again I slink under my sheets
Head encased...
On the verge of collapse I hear it
That tormentor of broken consciousness
Just as the silence grows strongest
And the darkness becomes material
A sudden creak, squeak or clanging.
The sandman watches my breaths
Till once steadied
He turns the handle of my door
Erratic I respond
With pin prick eyes aglow
A furnace of rage within my chest
I stare with violent expectation
Towards the non-event of imagination
The repetition is tedium itself.
Once again I slink under my sheets
Head encased...
#anger
#violence
#insomnia
#MentalHealth
#FeelingTrapped
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DARK POEM
Published
25th Jun 2019 00:19am
25th Jun 2019 00:19am
With a stray acquaintance, I call love
Lying perpetually
A way to keep up appearances
This joyous smile
So false it's spiteful
Cursing in silence this mirage
Which I meander as
One of many personas
Perfected, but far from perfect
Honesty is the bogeyman
Under which I should be caught
Could a simple slip of intention
From being alone
In a quiet dark place
With someone no one knew
Be all it took?
Being stranded through opportunity
With a stray acquaintance
Who knew only what she'd been taught
Of me? Not much to share
So easily could it...
A way to keep up appearances
This joyous smile
So false it's spiteful
Cursing in silence this mirage
Which I meander as
One of many personas
Perfected, but far from perfect
Honesty is the bogeyman
Under which I should be caught
Could a simple slip of intention
From being alone
In a quiet dark place
With someone no one knew
Be all it took?
Being stranded through opportunity
With a stray acquaintance
Who knew only what she'd been taught
Of me? Not much to share
So easily could it...
#lust
#dark
#lies
#betrayal
#murder
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DARK POEM
Published
25th Jun 2019 00:06am
25th Jun 2019 00:06am
It stiffens, then flops
Arousal from atrocity?
Clean, shaven raw, plucked perhaps
Another burrow too, clammy
Fetid fluids loosening the wound
It glistens then thickens
Coagulants to stiffen me
And they stiffen
Then flop
It's poetical
Maybe the way a rabbit cries,
Incites the fatherly lust
Of smothering protection,
Caressed to sleep,
Dear baby, don't wake up
My cold comfort.
The steadiest chest doesn't move
Covered until the breaths lose rhythm,
And chime singularly;
That golden silence of everlasting peace.
It's the way...
Clean, shaven raw, plucked perhaps
Another burrow too, clammy
Fetid fluids loosening the wound
It glistens then thickens
Coagulants to stiffen me
And they stiffen
Then flop
It's poetical
Maybe the way a rabbit cries,
Incites the fatherly lust
Of smothering protection,
Caressed to sleep,
Dear baby, don't wake up
My cold comfort.
The steadiest chest doesn't move
Covered until the breaths lose rhythm,
And chime singularly;
That golden silence of everlasting peace.
It's the way...
#lust
#dark
#death
#animals
#suffering
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
12th Apr 2019 9:25pm
12th Apr 2019 9:25pm
To care with nothing
Five tongues, no food
And too many teeth, one voice
No one listens to.
It's a chore if nothing else
And if nothing else, just a shame.
Routinely, possibly just mundane,
That life long listing of priorities
Unquestionably prescribed.
I could find the reasons
But not the meaning.
The overlooked being all that's noticed
With nothing below,
And everything out of reach.
The times before times ahead
Always permeate the feeling of acceptance
Just a niggling doubt
That soon it could get better
But maybe it won't ...
And too many teeth, one voice
No one listens to.
It's a chore if nothing else
And if nothing else, just a shame.
Routinely, possibly just mundane,
That life long listing of priorities
Unquestionably prescribed.
I could find the reasons
But not the meaning.
The overlooked being all that's noticed
With nothing below,
And everything out of reach.
The times before times ahead
Always permeate the feeling of acceptance
Just a niggling doubt
That soon it could get better
But maybe it won't ...
#parent
#motherhood
#childhood
#poverty
#responsibility
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EROTIC POEM
Published
6th Apr 2019 10:03pm
6th Apr 2019 10:03pm
Is it really taking advantage
#lust
#gay
#sex
#MentalHealth
#dirty
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DARK POEM
Published
4th Apr 2019 11:20pm
4th Apr 2019 11:20pm
No being
Ain't much point, no being
Unreasonable, reasonless
Worthwhile
Something maybe somewhere perhaps
Maybe this, maybe that, maybe theirs, maybe yours, maybe there, maybe
I don't see it, it's fine
I'll mutter, choking,
Cigarette smoke, foul,
Ashen fingers.
Pockets full, of dregs
Keep looking. up
Painful squinting absolution
Blinded, to make out little meanings,
Peripheral, clues
Senselessly careful.
No, twists and shocks
Savoured, idleness.
Sweated chemical, ingestion
Turnover of the day.
I'd live to...
Unreasonable, reasonless
Worthwhile
Something maybe somewhere perhaps
Maybe this, maybe that, maybe theirs, maybe yours, maybe there, maybe
I don't see it, it's fine
I'll mutter, choking,
Cigarette smoke, foul,
Ashen fingers.
Pockets full, of dregs
Keep looking. up
Painful squinting absolution
Blinded, to make out little meanings,
Peripheral, clues
Senselessly careful.
No, twists and shocks
Savoured, idleness.
Sweated chemical, ingestion
Turnover of the day.
I'd live to...
#grief
#dark
#secrets
#murder
#MentalHealth
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DARK POEM
Published
4th Apr 2019 10:30pm
4th Apr 2019 10:30pm
Ivy throughout
It isn't quite
Never was,
Never is...
Never will be.
It's no substitute
Even, reserve to will.
Somehow it seems
Less than more,
The same, as it was
Tried untested.
Guiltless, repression
Binded freedoms
Silver stare.
Soiled towards perfection
Mercifully, ruined,
Erected facile.
Fades under, lucidity
Tailor made, distress
Match impaired
Anemic, longing.
Plowed beneath, rot
Nurtured, damp
Leather, strips,
Ivy throughout.
It isn't quite,
Rebirth, never is
Never was...
Never was,
Never is...
Never will be.
It's no substitute
Even, reserve to will.
Somehow it seems
Less than more,
The same, as it was
Tried untested.
Guiltless, repression
Binded freedoms
Silver stare.
Soiled towards perfection
Mercifully, ruined,
Erected facile.
Fades under, lucidity
Tailor made, distress
Match impaired
Anemic, longing.
Plowed beneath, rot
Nurtured, damp
Leather, strips,
Ivy throughout.
It isn't quite,
Rebirth, never is
Never was...
#dark
#murder
#nature
#MentalHealth
#LifeCycle
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2018 2:12am
3rd Nov 2018 2:12am
Collared is the dog of goya
I can hear the echo of my souls scream
When the light of revelation voided
Like tinnitus swarms
The sand dunes hum a mystics dirge
As belief wains in candle light
Falter not in your faithful mantra
While Dante's hell breathes down your neck
A gift of wishes granted no longer native
Goya's dog now a fitting memory
Beautifully designated symbolism
Misunderstood pre-tense
Shabby in robes drying
David's star tilts
Spot the wide eyed idolatrous
With laser sighted insurgence
Indulging piety
Pity to the all which...
When the light of revelation voided
Like tinnitus swarms
The sand dunes hum a mystics dirge
As belief wains in candle light
Falter not in your faithful mantra
While Dante's hell breathes down your neck
A gift of wishes granted no longer native
Goya's dog now a fitting memory
Beautifully designated symbolism
Misunderstood pre-tense
Shabby in robes drying
David's star tilts
Spot the wide eyed idolatrous
With laser sighted insurgence
Indulging piety
Pity to the all which...
#secrets
#murder
#astrology
#spiritual
#nightmares
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