Poetry competition CLOSED 23rd March 2013 7:47pm
WINNER
FacePaint (Steven D)
FacePaint (Steven D)
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and Haruhi888
Heartbreak
Have you ever noticed
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
The first time he said it, it was dark, and the sun was setting on more than just the day, he thinks, it's romantic, thinks it's perfect, thinks it's the first time anybody's ever held my hand.
I think it's nothing new, but maybe, if I convince myself, it could be. I try to have his mindset, try to fix the flaws I'm feeling, pretending I feel whole when I stand empty, because I have never fit in anywhere, I have never belonged with anyone at the end of the day, I'm just a girl that writes a good love poem, and I know that.
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
The second time he says it, the room is quiet with the aftermath of warfare, there is almost nothing standing here, but he looks at me and takes my hand, calls me beautiful, and says he is never going to see her again, and that we will build up a city of promise of our own, but I know, here, in this town, our pollution is building, hanging black over us, close, choking, suffocating, raw.
But it is so familiar to me that I build it back up again, I take brick by boring brick, and I let him guide me, I let him take them from my hands and place them where he thinks they belong so that the next time we find ourselves in chaos all he has to say is,
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
And my thoughts are gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my trust is gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my self-esteem is gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my love is gone!
Because I had never noticed that we were made for each other, it never crossed my mind that we belonged together until you said it!
So the 237th time, when I have taken down the city, burned its ashes, and cleared the air of all the promise, and pollution, and the population stands in front of me when I'm staring shockstruck in the mirror, when I'm almost alone and there's nothing to say, when the music blares louder and louder
"THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LET YOUR HEART WIN"
When he looks at me, for the 237th time that year like he knows it's finally over, and says,
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
I give him the only ounce of honesty either of us have had in the past eighteen months and answer,
"No. I really haven't."
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
The first time he said it, it was dark, and the sun was setting on more than just the day, he thinks, it's romantic, thinks it's perfect, thinks it's the first time anybody's ever held my hand.
I think it's nothing new, but maybe, if I convince myself, it could be. I try to have his mindset, try to fix the flaws I'm feeling, pretending I feel whole when I stand empty, because I have never fit in anywhere, I have never belonged with anyone at the end of the day, I'm just a girl that writes a good love poem, and I know that.
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
The second time he says it, the room is quiet with the aftermath of warfare, there is almost nothing standing here, but he looks at me and takes my hand, calls me beautiful, and says he is never going to see her again, and that we will build up a city of promise of our own, but I know, here, in this town, our pollution is building, hanging black over us, close, choking, suffocating, raw.
But it is so familiar to me that I build it back up again, I take brick by boring brick, and I let him guide me, I let him take them from my hands and place them where he thinks they belong so that the next time we find ourselves in chaos all he has to say is,
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
And my thoughts are gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my trust is gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my self-esteem is gone.
"Have you ever noticed" and my love is gone!
Because I had never noticed that we were made for each other, it never crossed my mind that we belonged together until you said it!
So the 237th time, when I have taken down the city, burned its ashes, and cleared the air of all the promise, and pollution, and the population stands in front of me when I'm staring shockstruck in the mirror, when I'm almost alone and there's nothing to say, when the music blares louder and louder
"THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LET YOUR HEART WIN"
When he looks at me, for the 237th time that year like he knows it's finally over, and says,
"Have you ever noticed how our fingers interlock together perfectly?"
I give him the only ounce of honesty either of us have had in the past eighteen months and answer,
"No. I really haven't."
awkward (for girls with bad timing)
It’s always awkward when you overestimate things.
The first time he thinks he loves you
He tells you so.
Says, you are more than anything he has ever known
That there is no one like you anywhere
You take him for granted
Pretend you already know.
The second time he thinks he loves you
He keeps it quiet
But you are still inclined to believe him
You can see it in his eyes
He thinks you are the moon, the sun, the stars and
He is just another awkward teenage boy that does stupid things
Like fall in love with girls who take him for granted
You think you are doing the right thing when you leave him alone.
Years pass
He remembers your birthday, you forget his
He learns your favorite everythings, you never remember any of his.
You convince him he is good enough for other girls
You convince yourself you like to be alone.
The first time you think you love him
It hits you like a bullet
Destroys you
Decimates all pre-conceived notions of love and life and him
And the over-optimistic thoughts and dreams of forevers and always start
And you hate them but they never stop
So you swallow your pride and tell him like the hopeless romantic you have become
So you don’t understand
When he tells you no.
Tells you, he has loved you too many times
You have let him down too many times
You have let him go too many times
It is never going to work out
It is over.
You stand confused.
You have never done anything but run
And the one time he convinces you to stay
He is gone.
And shortly after the pain and the hurt and the wanting come to you
The realization hits you, and you know
This is your fault.
Because he is right as always
He loved you too hard, and you broke him apart
He loved you quietly, and you left him alone
He chose not to love you, and you loved him back too late.
And things do not work like that.
You thought he could love you forever
You thought he would always love you unconditionally
That he would take your rejection in stride
And continue to do a stupid thing like love you
But he cannot.
It is always awkward when you are standing on Cloud Nine
And you are the moon, the sun, and the stars
And he is the boy who would always love you unconditionally.
Until realization brings you both back to earth and you see that
He is just another awkward teenage boy
Who does smart things like let go of girls that take him for granted.
And you are the girl with bad timing
That made him this way.
It’s always awkward when you overestimate things.
The first time he thinks he loves you
He tells you so.
Says, you are more than anything he has ever known
That there is no one like you anywhere
You take him for granted
Pretend you already know.
The second time he thinks he loves you
He keeps it quiet
But you are still inclined to believe him
You can see it in his eyes
He thinks you are the moon, the sun, the stars and
He is just another awkward teenage boy that does stupid things
Like fall in love with girls who take him for granted
You think you are doing the right thing when you leave him alone.
Years pass
He remembers your birthday, you forget his
He learns your favorite everythings, you never remember any of his.
You convince him he is good enough for other girls
You convince yourself you like to be alone.
The first time you think you love him
It hits you like a bullet
Destroys you
Decimates all pre-conceived notions of love and life and him
And the over-optimistic thoughts and dreams of forevers and always start
And you hate them but they never stop
So you swallow your pride and tell him like the hopeless romantic you have become
So you don’t understand
When he tells you no.
Tells you, he has loved you too many times
You have let him down too many times
You have let him go too many times
It is never going to work out
It is over.
You stand confused.
You have never done anything but run
And the one time he convinces you to stay
He is gone.
And shortly after the pain and the hurt and the wanting come to you
The realization hits you, and you know
This is your fault.
Because he is right as always
He loved you too hard, and you broke him apart
He loved you quietly, and you left him alone
He chose not to love you, and you loved him back too late.
And things do not work like that.
You thought he could love you forever
You thought he would always love you unconditionally
That he would take your rejection in stride
And continue to do a stupid thing like love you
But he cannot.
It is always awkward when you are standing on Cloud Nine
And you are the moon, the sun, and the stars
And he is the boy who would always love you unconditionally.
Until realization brings you both back to earth and you see that
He is just another awkward teenage boy
Who does smart things like let go of girls that take him for granted.
And you are the girl with bad timing
That made him this way.
Anonymous
By LerdGoin
Brothers parted
We were once brothers
A stronghold of love
I held us together
As you carried us above
"Semper fidelis"
No marines
But men looking for a cause
You said things would be right
You said things could go wrong
You said we stood for light
But I found you were wrong
I saw our threshold deteriorate
And I saw our decline
Through the eyes of one troubled
I watched you disappear
As I sat in the darkness
Waiting to hear
In a sense, we both died
we became different people
I tried to respect that
But you dug the hole deeper
You were there, you were gone
You taught me solitude
I struggled through pain
I struggled with doubt
I no longer had anyone
To carry me about
Once love turned to hatred
As I saw myself replaced
By another who stood
Of an impudent race
As time started to pass
My soul started to rise
As did yours
In our sudden decline
I recall us meeting
In a dark alley of hope
Where we clashed minds
That once forged our threshold
Burning with fury
Burning with rage
you stood for the light
As I stood there dazed
"Why attack me?
It's like walking on coal
I know if i walk there,
I'm gonna get burned"
But you did not stop
You continued to go
As I had no other choice
But unlock my souls force
I let it all go
Screaming my demons
The darkness now flood
And I was the reason
With passion and vengeance
I let my soul fly
I threw my all at you
To watch it all die
I did not stop
As I continued to burn
My darkness took over
And I never returned
I did not stop
I did not halt
As i let you now see
The pain I was left with
Is now part of me
The look on your face
it was purely priceless
When you found out
I was now the one fighting
Unexpected, i know
It must have hurt
But now you shall feel
How much this aura burns
The heart of my fields
Leave one alone
And then test his strength
You just may find out
He's never the same
We were brothers once
And I'll swallow my pride
I'll now let you learn
What it's like to "survive
We were once brothers
A stronghold of love
I held us together
As you carried us above
"Semper fidelis"
No marines
But men looking for a cause
You said things would be right
You said things could go wrong
You said we stood for light
But I found you were wrong
I saw our threshold deteriorate
And I saw our decline
Through the eyes of one troubled
I watched you disappear
As I sat in the darkness
Waiting to hear
In a sense, we both died
we became different people
I tried to respect that
But you dug the hole deeper
You were there, you were gone
You taught me solitude
I struggled through pain
I struggled with doubt
I no longer had anyone
To carry me about
Once love turned to hatred
As I saw myself replaced
By another who stood
Of an impudent race
As time started to pass
My soul started to rise
As did yours
In our sudden decline
I recall us meeting
In a dark alley of hope
Where we clashed minds
That once forged our threshold
Burning with fury
Burning with rage
you stood for the light
As I stood there dazed
"Why attack me?
It's like walking on coal
I know if i walk there,
I'm gonna get burned"
But you did not stop
You continued to go
As I had no other choice
But unlock my souls force
I let it all go
Screaming my demons
The darkness now flood
And I was the reason
With passion and vengeance
I let my soul fly
I threw my all at you
To watch it all die
I did not stop
As I continued to burn
My darkness took over
And I never returned
I did not stop
I did not halt
As i let you now see
The pain I was left with
Is now part of me
The look on your face
it was purely priceless
When you found out
I was now the one fighting
Unexpected, i know
It must have hurt
But now you shall feel
How much this aura burns
The heart of my fields
Leave one alone
And then test his strength
You just may find out
He's never the same
We were brothers once
And I'll swallow my pride
I'll now let you learn
What it's like to "survive
2-14-13; The truth, the blade. ! extreme content !
I've taken a breath of your wind
I've inhaled smoke
You thought you could hide what was going on
But I found you out
So easily
The only regret I have is not trusting myself
Not trusting my instinct
You stuck a knife so deep into my chest
While I continued to walk towards you
Bleeding
Heaving
Grieving
You push it deeper
I flee from the hurt, to maintain my mind
To maintain my cool
I return to make things right
To make things better
To try again
But I've already been replaced
Another man already in the spot that I lay in next to you
And you force me to sit and watch
You force me to plea with you
So we make and agreement
I want to wipe the slate clean
But as I start to look at the other side
The truth confronts me
From the mouth of a heathen
A man without honor
My replacement
My stomach now turns
Not from hunger
But from anxiety
There's nothing I can do about this
I'm stuck hurting, crying
All I wanted was you
I wanted to capture your embrace
But you push the knife deeper
You watch as it seeps in
And The demon takes control of my eyes
Dark fires uncontrolled
I keep a blade at my side
I want to slice his fucking neck
But it is as they say, it takes two to tango
So you will be next
I've taken a breath of your wind
I've inhaled smoke
You thought you could hide what was going on
But I found you out
So easily
The only regret I have is not trusting myself
Not trusting my instinct
You stuck a knife so deep into my chest
While I continued to walk towards you
Bleeding
Heaving
Grieving
You push it deeper
I flee from the hurt, to maintain my mind
To maintain my cool
I return to make things right
To make things better
To try again
But I've already been replaced
Another man already in the spot that I lay in next to you
And you force me to sit and watch
You force me to plea with you
So we make and agreement
I want to wipe the slate clean
But as I start to look at the other side
The truth confronts me
From the mouth of a heathen
A man without honor
My replacement
My stomach now turns
Not from hunger
But from anxiety
There's nothing I can do about this
I'm stuck hurting, crying
All I wanted was you
I wanted to capture your embrace
But you push the knife deeper
You watch as it seeps in
And The demon takes control of my eyes
Dark fires uncontrolled
I keep a blade at my side
I want to slice his fucking neck
But it is as they say, it takes two to tango
So you will be next
Anonymous
Hey Guy! Don't Be Like That!
My skin cried a million tears for you tonight,
but my eyes shed none.
I did my best to sweat out the very idea of you,
purging you from my body.
This was easy enough, the weakness of the flesh
is easily tamed.
But the deep heat of the sun,
in all of its healing mercy,
was powerless to liberate my heart.
You are there, laying claim to my center,
a torturing occupier.
My spirit will wage an insurgency,
against your attempts to conquer it.
It will rail and boil, and spit rivers of acid,
to burn your eyes from my memory.
Once a source of divine virtue, you abandoned
me, leaving my faith to starve.
Others say you know no better,
that your youth can not return my investment of care.
But it makes your transgressions no less
malignant, I bled out my shame silently,
with no witness, to testify on my behalf.
Fuck you, you stupid clueless bitch.
I hope the drugs fill the hole, where your conscience was.
My skin cried a million tears for you tonight,
but my eyes shed none.
I did my best to sweat out the very idea of you,
purging you from my body.
This was easy enough, the weakness of the flesh
is easily tamed.
But the deep heat of the sun,
in all of its healing mercy,
was powerless to liberate my heart.
You are there, laying claim to my center,
a torturing occupier.
My spirit will wage an insurgency,
against your attempts to conquer it.
It will rail and boil, and spit rivers of acid,
to burn your eyes from my memory.
Once a source of divine virtue, you abandoned
me, leaving my faith to starve.
Others say you know no better,
that your youth can not return my investment of care.
But it makes your transgressions no less
malignant, I bled out my shame silently,
with no witness, to testify on my behalf.
Fuck you, you stupid clueless bitch.
I hope the drugs fill the hole, where your conscience was.
You walked away..
I was hurt the day I saw you walk away
I was in pain, I was tormenting
Until now I am shut, I am slur..
You created this fear inside
You promised an eternal life
FOREVER, you said it was meant for us,
But what happened to the happy memories
what happened to those caring arms?
what happened to your sweet facade?
what happened to your promises?
what happened to you my baby?
I gave you everything,
luxuries, love and everything you needed
I tried to be the perfect girl for you
I showed you how much I really love you..
You broke me and left me alone
You walked away not minding the glum on my face
You walked away with someone I didn't know
You walked away and left me in tears... You walked away....
Even if you choose to walk away
I chased you like I'm running out of life
The day you spoke and went away
I waited but in few days I saw you with someone else
You asked me to stay,
You asked me to not let you go and I did..
Still I waited, I month, 5 months, 10 months passed
You keep me waiting baby.. How long will I wait?
I was longing for the words you used to say
Memories you shattered like grains
How can I pick up myself now that you are gone?
You left me hanging in a dead people's town..
You never cared about the way I feel
You never cared about everything I did
You never cared about the things we shared
You never cared about the promises you feed.
Now tell me should I care if you come back?
Should I care even if I still love you like hell?
Should I still wait even if you cannot let go of the other one
while asking me and telling me you still love me?
I want to move on and find a better life
I want to chase happiness you forbid
I want to be happy with someone else
But baby please if you cannot stay,
Please, just let me walk away...
I was hurt the day I saw you walk away
I was in pain, I was tormenting
Until now I am shut, I am slur..
You created this fear inside
You promised an eternal life
FOREVER, you said it was meant for us,
But what happened to the happy memories
what happened to those caring arms?
what happened to your sweet facade?
what happened to your promises?
what happened to you my baby?
I gave you everything,
luxuries, love and everything you needed
I tried to be the perfect girl for you
I showed you how much I really love you..
You broke me and left me alone
You walked away not minding the glum on my face
You walked away with someone I didn't know
You walked away and left me in tears... You walked away....
Even if you choose to walk away
I chased you like I'm running out of life
The day you spoke and went away
I waited but in few days I saw you with someone else
You asked me to stay,
You asked me to not let you go and I did..
Still I waited, I month, 5 months, 10 months passed
You keep me waiting baby.. How long will I wait?
I was longing for the words you used to say
Memories you shattered like grains
How can I pick up myself now that you are gone?
You left me hanging in a dead people's town..
You never cared about the way I feel
You never cared about everything I did
You never cared about the things we shared
You never cared about the promises you feed.
Now tell me should I care if you come back?
Should I care even if I still love you like hell?
Should I still wait even if you cannot let go of the other one
while asking me and telling me you still love me?
I want to move on and find a better life
I want to chase happiness you forbid
I want to be happy with someone else
But baby please if you cannot stay,
Please, just let me walk away...
We met at a dance both lost in eachother's eyes
I knew it was romance from he way we both smiled
I thought of forever
but morning he left
I questioned about him and thay said he is hard to get
the miracle was that every time I was near to collapsing from poverty or just sheer bad luck
He would show up like a the prince of darkness
and we would fall in love again deeper than just lovers
I decided to go celibate until I saw him again
we were both fighting the same demons in our heads
Although he was happy experimenting
I stayed faithfull and celebate remembering his name (7years celebacy)
The next time I saw him he said "its been seven years "and that I was his gypsy and he was my Prince.
But recently the devil put us through a test
the demons affected a boy who was dead.
My man and I fought for our lives to save the boy's spirit.
And even so the demons linger on my man and i have divorced for God to take hold.
We didn't fail but my sacred little heart the virgin i was, faced evil and my man no longer wants to be my friend any more.
I was just trying to respect the Holy Ghost.
Now after 8 years our innocence has turned in time for Restoration. I wonder if will ever meet again.
i thought he was me and that i was him but he neglects me so hard
i feel lost without feed. If this is the end now that we have won why doesn't he love me he said I was the one.
God will bring us again together to be as one. Even if its just friends.
I hope.
I knew it was romance from he way we both smiled
I thought of forever
but morning he left
I questioned about him and thay said he is hard to get
the miracle was that every time I was near to collapsing from poverty or just sheer bad luck
He would show up like a the prince of darkness
and we would fall in love again deeper than just lovers
I decided to go celibate until I saw him again
we were both fighting the same demons in our heads
Although he was happy experimenting
I stayed faithfull and celebate remembering his name (7years celebacy)
The next time I saw him he said "its been seven years "and that I was his gypsy and he was my Prince.
But recently the devil put us through a test
the demons affected a boy who was dead.
My man and I fought for our lives to save the boy's spirit.
And even so the demons linger on my man and i have divorced for God to take hold.
We didn't fail but my sacred little heart the virgin i was, faced evil and my man no longer wants to be my friend any more.
I was just trying to respect the Holy Ghost.
Now after 8 years our innocence has turned in time for Restoration. I wonder if will ever meet again.
i thought he was me and that i was him but he neglects me so hard
i feel lost without feed. If this is the end now that we have won why doesn't he love me he said I was the one.
God will bring us again together to be as one. Even if its just friends.
I hope.
"Forever and a Day"
I woke up this morning
thinking of you
reached for your warmth
as I always would do.
Your side of the bed
was empty with fold
pillows in place
untouched and cold.
I did not smell coffee
the news was not on
things seem so different
since you are gone.
Your sweet smelling scent
is fading away
so I cling to your memory
in every possible way.
Motivating myself
is a struggle to do
hard to see sunshine
when feeling so blue.
They say it gets better
as time goes by
to look for the good
at least give it a try.
Something happened
at work today
I started to call you
right away.
Sadly remembering
I hung up the phone
you were not there
God took you home.
My heart is hurting
my soul cries with pain
I've got nothing to lose
nothing to gain.
Time is one asset
I have plenty to spare
holding on tight
going nowhere.
I'm looking for good
as I have been told
reaching for warmth
yet, shiver with cold.
Darling, I miss you
in every way
and still loving you
"Forever and a Day."
I woke up this morning
thinking of you
reached for your warmth
as I always would do.
Your side of the bed
was empty with fold
pillows in place
untouched and cold.
I did not smell coffee
the news was not on
things seem so different
since you are gone.
Your sweet smelling scent
is fading away
so I cling to your memory
in every possible way.
Motivating myself
is a struggle to do
hard to see sunshine
when feeling so blue.
They say it gets better
as time goes by
to look for the good
at least give it a try.
Something happened
at work today
I started to call you
right away.
Sadly remembering
I hung up the phone
you were not there
God took you home.
My heart is hurting
my soul cries with pain
I've got nothing to lose
nothing to gain.
Time is one asset
I have plenty to spare
holding on tight
going nowhere.
I'm looking for good
as I have been told
reaching for warmth
yet, shiver with cold.
Darling, I miss you
in every way
and still loving you
"Forever and a Day."
Anonymous
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