Hiding things ..

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Unloyal

Loyalty is an item that comes packaged with love
Fairly delicate
You'd hate to give it up
The most important part
I would need to know you're there when its hard
If you find favor in a person
Why hide things in the dark?
Asking from the start
This is common sense
Not a need to be sneaky
Please keep me close and go legit
You should know
I told you this
All that really matters
Could you stay true?
Not just to me
Your family
And everything that you do
Only then could we really be acquainted
A form of deceit
Dishonesty
I really hate it
Wish I could eradicate it
Think hard
People who do you love?
Now is it worth losing them for five minutes of fun?
And it's done
No looking back
Killed off like a gun
But some are too forgiving and get played more than once

Verrrrrry impressive my friend...i love it..

I hide my real self
I hide my thoughts
I hide my heart
I hide me

why

If you knew the true me
the darkness that sounds
the evil within
The merciless heart
The disdain of oneself

who would love me

You?

I think not

As you are me
Living life as one is told
Hiding the true you
Just to endure life as we know it

One day to the next

Twisted Confusion

Is my fate really sealed
All my secrets now revealed
I have nothing to hide from, no one to shield

My thoughts now flow free
Since DUP has found me
Others can see my inner beauty
And how I am so angry

The choices I have made
I know I shouldn’t trade
To change them now I am very afraid

To trade in my life
Ten years of being his wife
It rips through my heart like a jaded jackknife

My one true love I long to hold
I know it’s not right, myself I do scold
For my heart has been sold
So long I have not controlled

I let my mind and body wander
Now this I must ponder
I can’t control it, my heart just grows fonder

To trade in this life is not only me
To my little boys it would be cruelty
Such a great dad they would not get to see

That is a bond like super glue
One I could not break through
So selfish of me to be so untrue

My days carry on as his wife and their mom
Their daddy will be there when they go to prom
I must remain sane, must remain calm
The fire in my heart burns fierce like napalm

I knew all along this pain would not ease
It is him every day that I yearn to please
I have to stay strong and mend their scraped knees
My secrets locked inside, only DUP holds the keys

One day my twisted confusion will be known
Probably after my babies are grown
I have to remain strong, I am the backbone
Of this life that we share and the one I postpone

Is my fate really sealed
All my secrets now revealed
I have nothing to hide from, no one to shield

Nothing but excellence..
Its like you guys cracked open a bottle of heart and spilled it on the page..
I love it..

I never told her how I felt
for I never knew myself
Was this pain or joy?
would she be my Heaven or Hell?

She just went on with her life
completely oblivious
that someone like me
would exist

It got to the point
that I couldn't look at her
The pain of not knowing
and of my hidden feelings hurts

Then she found someone else
and live her life through
She didn't ever met me
and my feelings she never knew

Mental note..make no eye contact

I can't look her in the eyes
we've both seen the ads on the tv
warning about blood leaking from there
I told her "It'll be grand"
waved it aside like some annoying fly
trying to drink the moisture from my skin

but I know

I dare not show my eyes
because she'll see the fear they hold
what's worse than that though
is the whole thing played out in my head

Jesus. I hope I never wished her dead.

“ExorcisMe Mr. Guilt”
http://www.ascully.com/images/bluray/theexorcist/2.jpg
Despite my light, which
shines brightly sometimes,
a darkened shadow creeps,
resides, hidden deep inside me,
a caged nasty beast,
incessantly screaming
for continual release
to appease its corruption.
In bondage to its desires,
I get burned constantly
when it surfaces
to fulfill my needs.
I love to hate it.
Luckily,
Mr. Guilt,
brother to right,
cousin of
my conscience,
gives me
great strength
to silence it-
my disobedient fiend,
throw away the key to
its comfortable cage,
kill it,
dead
today,
tomorrow
I pray
for him.
http://www.maniacworld.com/exorcist-soundboard.jpg

Thanks!

Wolf In Sheep's Clothing

he shines with light    a sheep they say
they never see him the same way
his children see him everyday

dripping, snarling, heavily
he will not show us empathy

to see a beast so shrewd revealed
layer by layer   each is peeled

sorrows skin for us to see
no one else can   apparently

howling now a sinful tune
he sheds his skin beneath the moon

a wolf they see and not the lamb
all his children are the damned

he has no time to lie in wait
he must move now   the sin is bait

devours their souls  it's far too late
what lies beneath    not heavens gate

sorrow is the skin he's in
sorrow are his children

shed his skin and you will see
one who cannot look beneath

sorry he could never say
would it   could it   take away
he laughs again another day

for philly

Trail of Tears


I was labeled an innocent victim
By virtue of a dispassionate system

There was nowhere left for me to hide
So I barricaded myself deep down inside

I crawled under my own blemished skin
Bid goodbye to my childhood grin

Worked tirelessly to stop my breathing
Hoping that no one noticed my weezing

I had nothing more to say about those
Verbal assaults and menacing blows

I allowed my silence to speak for itself
Even if they questioned my mental health

No one knew that I was on trial
Less and less had I a reason to smile

Declared incompetent by a jury of peers
Made to suffer in a prison of fears

My grades slipped and I stopped caring
It seemed like the whole planet was staring

Conceiding my fate is the only thing to do
The pressure's too great to stand up and face you

So here I am, deciding to take my life
To end it all with one swift slice of the knife

You were right...
I'm too weak to fight...
Thank you for showing me the light...
Now I won't be a blur in your sight...
Getting sleepy, eyelids heavy, goodnight...


*No one should die like this. No one.

"No one has to know"

I hid the postcard
in a book of Carver stories

The lavender
and bracelet
in the bottom of my jewelry box

The poem, I threw away
because it was hand written and
though it meant nothing specific
its effort smelt  
of more than a promise fulfilled
to anyone with sense

Some whispers
I wrote in an old notebook
up the middle binding
to remind me in times of self doubt
that I was wanted once
or twice
or more
and others
are burned regularly
on ego's altar

Love notes don't last long either
I move a lot, clear a lot
mostly on the outside -
It's easier

But I still have messages
under keys and lock
from when our letters
introduced themselves:
from when
I began to take the word "blindsided"
into more serious consideration

So when he stood with me under a half-moon
summoning a past of lush nights
with the classic
"No one has to know"
I smiled a toast to enough secrets
and said
"Thank you"