"The Impact"

Rules
- there are no rules let your hands roam free just as your mind shall.


Expectations

- I want to be torn,shattered, and moved i want to feel what you felt when your entire life was turned upside down or maybe even when your life took a step forward.

-Tell me your story... good or bad when did reality crash your fantasy ,when did it build it?

- what made you , YOU ?

- When did that one "Impact" take place

http://wordbiscuit.com/images/firsttime.jpg

                     < bam! >
           
              i heard your voice first
              from another room and
              i left in the middle of a conversation
              and i left and
              it must have been some word you
              spoke into the air
             
              your mouth
             
              my ear
             
              and i just got up and walked
             
              into the next room
              the room where you were
              the room where your word came from
             
              and
              there
              you
              were
             
              speaking that word
              speaking that word and i listened
             
              a
              little
              to
              your
              right
             
              a
              little
              behind
              you
             
              and i was listening
              just standing there listening
              just standing there
             
              when you turned
             
                   - - -
           

incredible i love it .the simplicity adds to the write.

THE IMPACT

I married a man to get away from my parents

He married me to stay in the closet

The first three years were wonderful

It was if we were made for each other


In the sixth year I came home to find

Him in bed with a "friend" of ours

Except the "friend" was not a she

My ex-husband was hiding his homosexuality


This blew my world to hell

I felt like an idiot that I could not tell

A straight man from a gay man

How could I have been this stupid?


Worse was the fear that I had HIV

Nobody wanted to date me

Although I was tested negative

Men still avoided me as if I had leprosy


Finally, he got all the sentiment

Poor guy, it must have been so hard for him

Not one person thought of me

Used to see, if he could be, normality


I questioned my life, I questioned my judgment

I had a whole world of expectations

Children, a family, all lost to me

By a single act of ignominy


Downward I went, as women do

When no longer married to who's who

Fortunately I bounced back

Make a stunning career - but that did not last


For my system was not built for strength

The impact of the first IED caused the second

Compromised immune system and ME

Did me in finally


I am still dumbstruck by the stupidity

Of a society who will not let gays be

For it they had, I could have married another

I am now for EQUAL GAY RIGHTS


I am also now an activist for this disease: Chronic Fatigue

They told me it was all in my head

The shitty stigma Doctors say

When they have no clue about what made you that way


They finally made marriage legal between gays

They are starting to find a cause for CFS/FM/ME

These earth shaking impacts had an effect on me

I am an activist who wants to help people be free.

The most life-altering moment that really changed me was this one:

http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/29341-amongst-the-dead/

(Too big to post it all here, so I had to post this link to it!)

There were certainly other moments, but that one really had the biggest impact on my faith, soul, and spirit forever afterwards.

My brother was a Hells Angel, I used to sit in the middle of them all when they were at my home all of the time, my brother never told me to get lost, I was his little sis and he looked out for me. My boyfriend was my first love. My heart was ripped to shreds twice. Nothing could hurt my heart again the way losing them did. I hurt deeply many times, but never broken.



How It Was And How It Is



Customized Choppers were his thing
he built and created his art would sing
skulls and snakes would cover his tank
vibrant and beautiful never left blank

On two wheels he rode into the day
never saw him again his life snatched away
my Brother Eddy eighteen when he died
stationary when he was thrown from his ride

Forks snapped free he was launched through the air
under the bus that was passing there
young as I was fourteen I recall
I just ran away far from it all


Two years slipped by then I met a guy
my very first Love with no push and shove
he treated me right he made my life bright

Twelve months together then in the bad weather
the car went off track no bringing him back
With his Coffin everyday don't take him away

I kissed him goodbye started to cry
the flames licked and stole my bleeding soul
I crumpled and bent off the rails I went

Wreckless and throwing the pain that was flowing
my life carried on each day made me strong
harder I became through each tragic maim

Life is the bitch that I like to itch
a one finger wave it will never make me cave
Keep bringing it on until I am gone




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Somelikeithot- nice write i loved the honesty i also like how it shows a change from emotions to your own inner strength :)

Symmetry

A crash, and the sky staggers, astonished
As would I, in exchanging webs of lightning
Do I find myself in symmetry with the other
He wears my face, my skin, he cheated my eyes
Those grey, sleepless eyes of mine, he has
He feigns my plea, I am conveying, of course, to me
But he is not of me, for surely I am me, no?
His smile is distasteful, unsettling more so
Clamorous and indignant, the clouds part ways
Soaking us each to my face, my skin, our eyes
And so wiping his guise clean of a baneful sneer
Rendering away what so fittingly is mine
Puddling with the slope down for the drain
Reaching to the sun, warming to me

Darkness Siphoned
***
The impact was painful
My breathing slowed and stopped
My heart was crushed
The fall took my breath away

It was your words, that lifted me from the dark depths of my hell

Your wings covered me from the fire storm
I don't know what I expected
Maybe I secretly hoped, while pushing you away
Led you on as you did me
Sorry we couldn't last as friends
Hope had fallen before the throne
As his shout echoed
"Off with their heads!"
I wished I was better somehow
Maybe you would have listened
When I said...
"Stay Away"
But here we lay in a puddle of blood
Drowning in our selflessness

You wonder why I sit here all day
No smile,no friend,no love
Just me,the pack of cigarette and a bottle of vodka
So aggressive and somewhat vulgar
I wasn't always like this
I was that nice guy every lady wanted to hug and kiss
Plus a sense of humour
And a true understanding of the word "honor"
Until I met Jezebel
She was truly an epitome of beauty
Full of sweet promises
I know nothing about love
But then I could say I was in love
A young brother in this wild life
Innocent mind of a juvenile still living child like
Thinking I'd found love but now I'm lost
She made me a believer
With her sweet lies she qualifies for a true deciever
She was a wolf in a sheep's clothing
I kept falling without noting
How dangerous the reverse could be
To cut the long story short
On that fateful day I woke up without her by my side
Only a note containing so many things I hate to remember
In all she concluded,she'll be gone till december
The only girl I'd ever loved
Leaving my life so unceremoniously
No hug,no kiss,no goodbye
For the rest of that period
Pain became my sweetest lullaby
My heart was shattered
My soul grew dark
My dreams were scattered
I was left with this mark
I became a mysoginist
With no feelings for them ladies
I've grown old and cold
So I'll remain
Until I see hades

Dustyjjewls- nice flow
i also liked : "i kept falling without noting, how dangerous the reverse could be".

Danii- loved it especially the last line. "drowning in our own selflessness." good description

Druid said:Symmetry

A crash, and the sky staggers, astonished
As would I, in exchanging webs of lightning
Do I find myself in symmetry with the other
He wears my face, my skin, he cheated my eyes
Those grey, sleepless eyes of mine, he has
He feigns my plea, I am conveying, of course, to me
But he is not of me, for surely I am me, no?
His smile is distasteful, unsettling more so
Clamorous and indignant, the clouds part ways
Soaking us each to my face, my skin, our eyes
And so wiping his guise clean of a baneful sneer
Rendering away what so fittingly is mine
Puddling with the slope down for the drain
Reaching to the sun, warming to me


painted a picture in my mind.