Betreyals

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Her
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over reacted.. over reacted...or was it all just me
helping myself in overplaying myself... or was it a call for help?
how about me versus him; that
smiling jinn…turning around and making him my friend
the one that sits in the mirror...whispering his inaccuracies
capturing me while staring me down...smirking at me
going against all that’s good & my greater sense
becoming my own worst menace; my own vicious villain
approaching relationships half cocked
in a storyline wherein cupid’s arrows are continuously blocked
a call goes unanswered to my mind & friend

- is it the truth we bend?




2.

I’m into the blocking of any mutual & happy end
shaping it; placing it in disarray.. then its onto the straightaway
straight through to a bridge that constricts
at the same time expands too far apart
yet I continue crossing over; chancing its peril
traversing to and out of nowhere...to nowhere
and this I did too often with flair...crooked
my slow plummet into my own personal hell
a drop that plunges beyond being a dipstick
I’ve become a stickman with facts that don’t stick
made slippery by lies that only sounded wise
selected & given at any cost…rushing out for my own loss
winding back...only to start again

- to my evil…again eye lend?





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I’m a willing and able partner...a full-fledged slave
I’m here asking the mirror...why can’t I behave?
lessening the burden that I bear
is it really that I don’t care?
reluctant to come to terms with my own mounting misdeeds
following that devious whisperer; he again misleads...and
can’t believe I’ve surrendered
no hope; I’m an unrepentant offender
offensive to my own once bright memory
now lost in the sensory...feelings
gathered in the dark where dogs don’t bark...and
cats don’t purr... this can’t be all my fault

- so...can we blame some of this on her?






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Who - What - When
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picture perfect with progress purring

watching this…it nearly killed me…hell
bound.. then again
the way it thrilled me.

heavenly; it was all that…

it was awe inspiring mixed-in with my jealousy
no time given over to complacency; the conspiracy
this dawning of this non recoverable secrecy
the scene; your twin heads-quartered

the loveliest of limbs blending into a 4-part harmony
the larceny swinging so freely, reaching, grabbing
feeling their way around
outside of their very own secret closet

a deposit; 2 close…so close

me wanting to close it to only open it
one could only assume who else really knows it
my desire that fire; wanting to expose it
how it was the filling up with you and her
and

you...and who?
how many times?
how many different times?
how many times different?
and
how was it?







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how was it that you two so secretly; both
so discreetly placed your feelings
having in them no fear of exposure
that exposing of your alternative life style; your
favored wifey style

you as two lovers with true-false & tempered tongues
the wheeling; the dealing; convinced
knowing I wouldn't understand
no not me; I’m just a man
here at a loss  
was it me…or was it her?
the cost.

her being so superlative?
skilled in her angling
the thievery; her taking you from me

or was it just me destined to be...no
already that was me
I was now that solitary person of "no" interest
who can no-longer…can not cum to grips with this
just here being straight; knocked
right out the box.

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Betrayal

I am mortified,
destroyed
In anguish.
I trusted you with
each
letter
of each
word.
Each
punctuation
mark,
comma
and
question.

Today
it has blown up
and turned
into temper.
Goodbye
trust
loyalty
and

honour .

You say

you said you'd come with season
but you came with metal and steel
i don't want another reason
as you don't care for what i feel
when light went out
still the fragments shout

something tells me i want you more
but i know your rules of every game
you lost what you adored
i lose nothing but your shame
the blood is on your hands
i want no blame , can't you understand?

When 666 grabs the gun
If it was a game
then why couldn't i play?
if i am the abandoner
then why do i still remain?

if i am so heartless
then why do i bleed?
is it because I'm not the little girl
i used to be?

how can i act innocent?
when you took it from me?
if you are the winner
then why do i run free?

i know you to well
your so easy to read
i know you through and through
but the book is boring me

yes, i've chosen my weapon
and the six's have come through
and now you hit the floor
so i stand taller than you

i've turned your three sevens
into three six's again...

With a smoke screen blinding your every move at times,
You obsess and possess some hatred inside,
An amorphous web of lies and deceit unfold,
Through avoidance of truth only fiction was told,
In recalcitrant status your emotions you hold back,
To prevent my suspicions and confrontational attack,
If only to my face you beheld some true words,
It's all of this egregious action that hurts.

[font=Georgia]Judas

Silently imploding
My soul's corroding  
Secretly divulging
Treachery unfolding
You’re no angel  
And I’m no saint

A game is playing
And I’m betraying  
My souls decaying  
I’ll soon be paying

Trustworthy earnings
The tide is turning  
You’re still not learning  
While some ones yearning

The bottle’s exploding
My conscience overloading
What is this I’m sewing?
When you’re so unknowing
I’m no angel  
And you’re no saint  

Inside I’m screaming  
Glass eyes gleaming  
Your life I’m streaming  
Behind the lies I’m weaving  

I can’t believe I’m lying  
When you’re still trying  
I never want to see you crying  
For redemption, I’m not vying  

Tidal waves crashing  
Promises I’m slashing  
As the cigarette’s ashing  
I’ll take that lashing
No, you’re no angel  
And I’m no saint  

I will be remembering  
The end of this dismembering  
It wasn’t just myself I was disassembling  
Yeah... I’ll be remembering  
That I’m no angel  
And you’re so saint  

Whatever happened to this competition?

No. Another one?

Bad, too bad.

Whatever happened to this competition?

Interesting question: Yes? What happened?