Addiction
tmoj
Forum Posts: 57
Twisted Dreamer
1
Joined 2nd Nov 2016Forum Posts: 57
Poetry Contest Description
Write a poem about trying to defeat an addiction
eswaller
Forum Posts: 763
Dangerous Mind
31
Joined 22nd Dec 2015Forum Posts: 763
Letting Go of Addiction
Maybe it is your eyes that drew me in and got me hooked,
But there is something about you that is like a piece of art.
You know how to fuel my addiction like adding wood to
The burning fire. Every time that you glanced and looked
My way it is like my soul had a mind of its own. My heart
And essence is what you took. Some part of me just knew
That I did not want any of it back. I just knew that it was
Going to be coming back to me bloody and blue. It is like
You squeezed the life out of something I used to think
Was so beautiful and chaotic. You sunk your sharp claws
Deeply into me, trying to keep me in place like a shrike
Looking for its next prey. It is when I got to the brink
And edge of destruction that I finally thought I needed
To break this endless cycle. I could not keep going back
To something that would leave me with nothing that I
Could mend, fix, rebuild or begin anew. It is as if I weeded
Out all the bad toxins. My life had to get on the right track
Again. I had to push aside all the tears I knew I would cry
When I was missing you and during the detoxification
Process. That is when I begin to heal and rise up from
The ashes like a phoenix. That is when I knew I had
To stop the addiction. I depart from a new station
And a new place, going towards the light. With some
New and old memories along the way. Being clad
In armor, but not being afraid to let new things
And experiences come in. Once again I find my wings.
But there is something about you that is like a piece of art.
You know how to fuel my addiction like adding wood to
The burning fire. Every time that you glanced and looked
My way it is like my soul had a mind of its own. My heart
And essence is what you took. Some part of me just knew
That I did not want any of it back. I just knew that it was
Going to be coming back to me bloody and blue. It is like
You squeezed the life out of something I used to think
Was so beautiful and chaotic. You sunk your sharp claws
Deeply into me, trying to keep me in place like a shrike
Looking for its next prey. It is when I got to the brink
And edge of destruction that I finally thought I needed
To break this endless cycle. I could not keep going back
To something that would leave me with nothing that I
Could mend, fix, rebuild or begin anew. It is as if I weeded
Out all the bad toxins. My life had to get on the right track
Again. I had to push aside all the tears I knew I would cry
When I was missing you and during the detoxification
Process. That is when I begin to heal and rise up from
The ashes like a phoenix. That is when I knew I had
To stop the addiction. I depart from a new station
And a new place, going towards the light. With some
New and old memories along the way. Being clad
In armor, but not being afraid to let new things
And experiences come in. Once again I find my wings.
Written by eswaller
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CONSUMING LOVE
Dearest Love,
Our love affair, to me, is a great source of consolation. Whenever troubled, bored or desperate for companionship you are at my side offering unconditional comfort and diversion. The habits that we have developed are now an integral part of my daily routine. The evidence of our love is more and more apparent to myself and others as my stomach festoons more and more over my belt and it becomes increasingly harder to move. As enjoyable as it is to make love our interludes will, in the end, be the death of me. Although the idea of our relationship changing is, for me, a great source of anxiety, change it must.
Without you I would die. Because you are so delicious and alluring I find it hard to not overindulge in your finer forms.. My obsession with making love with you long into the night is unhealthy and unnecessary to sustain my life. Far too often I indulge in your bad side, those elements of you created by man. Better that our love be more pure and based on those divinely created beneficial parts of your being so that my love for you can continue for many years to come.
Our love needs moderation to grow. I need to get to know you better so that I can decide in how much of your love I can indulge. None of this is anyone’s fault. We’ve had a good time together and our love will progress ever better and stronger.
With Love Always,
Bob
Written by Gahddess_Worship
(Osomajestuoso)
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Heart_symphony
Forum Posts: 60
Twisted Dreamer
3
Joined 17th Jan 2018Forum Posts: 60
Left for Love
Hazy memories of sweetness
Interwound with curiosity
Drew me to you
But you left me crying from taunts
And with crimson wounds from torment
Injuries so deep
Scars inside and out
Calling that love is not right
Compulsive thoughts
Left no room for anything else
Gentle pleasures
Twisted
Until sweet turned sour
The romantic lines you would recite
Left me breathless
Filling my ears
Your words intoxicated me
And hit me like a shot of vodka
Cravings like claws ripping at my skin
Begging for me to give in
You say you left for love
As you begged me to stay away
But I can’t, despite distance being right
I pleaded “don’t leave the pain will cripple me,”
But you did what was right for you and left
You are my addiction
My heart
Without you I can’t move
So I’ll consume my last breath
Because I have nothing left
Interwound with curiosity
Drew me to you
But you left me crying from taunts
And with crimson wounds from torment
Injuries so deep
Scars inside and out
Calling that love is not right
Compulsive thoughts
Left no room for anything else
Gentle pleasures
Twisted
Until sweet turned sour
The romantic lines you would recite
Left me breathless
Filling my ears
Your words intoxicated me
And hit me like a shot of vodka
Cravings like claws ripping at my skin
Begging for me to give in
You say you left for love
As you begged me to stay away
But I can’t, despite distance being right
I pleaded “don’t leave the pain will cripple me,”
But you did what was right for you and left
You are my addiction
My heart
Without you I can’t move
So I’ll consume my last breath
Because I have nothing left
Written by Heart_symphony
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rainy_day13
william swann
Joined 19th Jan 2015
Forum Posts: 22
william swann
Thought Provoker
Forum Posts: 22
Shooting Stars
When we met, you wore black on black and
Strolled through the smoke like a femme fatal.
You tried to hide the veins with tracks but
I knew your past was something major.
Those holes in your arms didn't laugh and
I felt like they'd be back sooner or later.
Our love was sure to be tragic but
We were willing to fade away together.
Coke became our habit and
Cut into us like a thousand razors.
Every night was like a strange magic but
By sunrise, we were lost in the dark forever.
We hoped to be lovers not just addicts and
Told ourselves that we would get better.
That first gaze you gave had me trapt but
All along I knew I wouldn't be your savior.
We were shooting stars stuck in an attic and
Never stopped believing in happily ever after.
Strolled through the smoke like a femme fatal.
You tried to hide the veins with tracks but
I knew your past was something major.
Those holes in your arms didn't laugh and
I felt like they'd be back sooner or later.
Our love was sure to be tragic but
We were willing to fade away together.
Coke became our habit and
Cut into us like a thousand razors.
Every night was like a strange magic but
By sunrise, we were lost in the dark forever.
We hoped to be lovers not just addicts and
Told ourselves that we would get better.
That first gaze you gave had me trapt but
All along I knew I wouldn't be your savior.
We were shooting stars stuck in an attic and
Never stopped believing in happily ever after.
Written by rainy_day13
(william swann)
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Northern1
Joined 15th Apr 2016
Forum Posts: 235
Fire of Insight
Forum Posts: 235
Love Hate Relationship
It's been three months now without you
i go days without thinking about you
But some days i find that i'm losing my mind
And i yearn and i miss and i shout you
For decades we roamed clouds together
And didn't mind where how or whether
Hell or heaven sent i still catch your scent
We were bonded by a smoky tether
No i don't miss you at all yes i do
i thought you were love but we're through
Hear you calling my name but if it's all the same
No i want you i need you i hate you
You helped me forget who i was
But you were my downfall because
i just couldn't cope with being this dope
And so now i am taking this pause
i hid your utensils from my wife
In case you return to my life
And i'm full to the hilt of this awful guilt
You've given me nothing but strife
The worst thing though is this grief
And knowing that i can't get relief
There is no desire that replaces your fire
You've damned me is my belief
There's no way that i can employ ya
And if only i could i would destroy ya
No one has to guess why i am such a mess
And you infected me with paranoia
And even though i won't be the same
i'm telling you to fuck off Mary Jane
But still stay close if i should need your dose
No damn it you're not worth the pain
i go days without thinking about you
But some days i find that i'm losing my mind
And i yearn and i miss and i shout you
For decades we roamed clouds together
And didn't mind where how or whether
Hell or heaven sent i still catch your scent
We were bonded by a smoky tether
No i don't miss you at all yes i do
i thought you were love but we're through
Hear you calling my name but if it's all the same
No i want you i need you i hate you
You helped me forget who i was
But you were my downfall because
i just couldn't cope with being this dope
And so now i am taking this pause
i hid your utensils from my wife
In case you return to my life
And i'm full to the hilt of this awful guilt
You've given me nothing but strife
The worst thing though is this grief
And knowing that i can't get relief
There is no desire that replaces your fire
You've damned me is my belief
There's no way that i can employ ya
And if only i could i would destroy ya
No one has to guess why i am such a mess
And you infected me with paranoia
And even though i won't be the same
i'm telling you to fuck off Mary Jane
But still stay close if i should need your dose
No damn it you're not worth the pain
Written by Northern1
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slipalong
Forum Posts: 855
Dangerous Mind
43
Joined 1st Jan 2018Forum Posts: 855
Sugar plantation
White slaves to the sweetest recipes
a tacky legacy of devoured calories
savory tooth snack always refused
bad day choccy bites selfishly consumed
puddings always so well deserved
nightmare kitchen walks observed
the diabetic needle and the pill awaits
the struggles to loose that weight
feet stuck in the syrup of bad taste
so shacked to the cane and beet
the Kcal warnings never bleep
tread the mine field of carefree obesity
the hidden you that you will never see
the explosion of good intentions fled
the weighing scales that always lied
a sweet moment on the lips
your life that the condition strips
a managed chaos, blind eclipse
dentures smiling from the glass
mountainous sugar like Everest
to eat it all is that your quest
is your empathy with me and sympathy less
those grains refined and us enslave
to spoon to soon us to our graves
a tacky legacy of devoured calories
savory tooth snack always refused
bad day choccy bites selfishly consumed
puddings always so well deserved
nightmare kitchen walks observed
the diabetic needle and the pill awaits
the struggles to loose that weight
feet stuck in the syrup of bad taste
so shacked to the cane and beet
the Kcal warnings never bleep
tread the mine field of carefree obesity
the hidden you that you will never see
the explosion of good intentions fled
the weighing scales that always lied
a sweet moment on the lips
your life that the condition strips
a managed chaos, blind eclipse
dentures smiling from the glass
mountainous sugar like Everest
to eat it all is that your quest
is your empathy with me and sympathy less
those grains refined and us enslave
to spoon to soon us to our graves
Written by slipalong
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Alyssabarletta
Joined 12th Feb 2018
Forum Posts: 4
Lost Thinker
Forum Posts: 4
Teeth stained red
Unable to picture a life without relief
Growing exhausted in attempt to hide grief
Today nobody will know what’s behind
My eyes learning to properly mask an ill mind
Smiling at the wall practicing a laugh
To give off the appearance I am still intact
Forcing food to go down when my mouth remains dry at the thought of my teeth in stains
Darkened with red drops of blood
Freshly coughed as more flood
Disappearing into itself my body is aching
Thoughts constantly back to the pills keep me shaking
Meditate more close that fucking drawer
Today I won’t take anything for sure
Sleep hide the phone
Forget that you’re utterly alone
Fight through the minute onto an hour
Increase after that attain power
The longer I last will impact self control
But im losing myself deeper down the hole
Frustrated at my lack of willpower relapsing faster
Than i could’ve ever meant with my days in disaster
Growing exhausted in attempt to hide grief
Today nobody will know what’s behind
My eyes learning to properly mask an ill mind
Smiling at the wall practicing a laugh
To give off the appearance I am still intact
Forcing food to go down when my mouth remains dry at the thought of my teeth in stains
Darkened with red drops of blood
Freshly coughed as more flood
Disappearing into itself my body is aching
Thoughts constantly back to the pills keep me shaking
Meditate more close that fucking drawer
Today I won’t take anything for sure
Sleep hide the phone
Forget that you’re utterly alone
Fight through the minute onto an hour
Increase after that attain power
The longer I last will impact self control
But im losing myself deeper down the hole
Frustrated at my lack of willpower relapsing faster
Than i could’ve ever meant with my days in disaster
Written by Alyssabarletta
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Lyrically_Inclined
Forum Posts: 48
Fire of Insight
4
Joined 4th Apr 2018Forum Posts: 48
Love Addict
I’m a love addict!
And it always lets me down,
but I love the adrenaline rush
even though I know that the crash is coming!
Then the withdrawal,
but when I get that hit,
I go full on binge and I’m right back in.
Full bore,
Like a fiend
Ready to OD
On a love that’ll last a lifetime
And then
Back to rehab
After another failed
Love affair
And it always lets me down,
but I love the adrenaline rush
even though I know that the crash is coming!
Then the withdrawal,
but when I get that hit,
I go full on binge and I’m right back in.
Full bore,
Like a fiend
Ready to OD
On a love that’ll last a lifetime
And then
Back to rehab
After another failed
Love affair
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drone
Forum Posts: 2275
Tyrant of Words
10
Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2275
Would you
let yourself
discover
how you got
lost
along the way
to a place
you could recover
from the pain
you feel today
let yourself
discover
how you got
lost
along the way
to a place
you could recover
from the pain
you feel today
drone
Forum Posts: 2275
Tyrant of Words
10
Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2275
Controling Your Personalitys
There are
different layers
different levels
Like
a multi story car park
within your mind
and every car
that you see
is but just
a different aspect
of thee
different layers
different levels
Like
a multi story car park
within your mind
and every car
that you see
is but just
a different aspect
of thee
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drone
Forum Posts: 2275
Tyrant of Words
10
Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2275
Crippled
One has to become
ones own
personal doctor
to listen
to those thoughts
to understand
the life
you have Crippled
ones own
personal doctor
to listen
to those thoughts
to understand
the life
you have Crippled
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drone
Forum Posts: 2275
Tyrant of Words
10
Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2275
Liquid Dreams
All those bottles
that you see
behind
the bar
where you sit
Holds all your
Dreams
on what you think
All your
hidden fantasy's
that will begin
when you drink
Immersed
in an alcoholic haze
believing
you have come of age
of your destiny
Tonight
Untill the morning
when the pain
Arrives
to remind you
you have to drink
to keep your dream
on what your broken
thinking
Thinks
that you see
behind
the bar
where you sit
Holds all your
Dreams
on what you think
All your
hidden fantasy's
that will begin
when you drink
Immersed
in an alcoholic haze
believing
you have come of age
of your destiny
Tonight
Untill the morning
when the pain
Arrives
to remind you
you have to drink
to keep your dream
on what your broken
thinking
Thinks
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JuliusBaxter
Joined 14th July 2018
Forum Posts: 3
Strange Creature
Forum Posts: 3
Superbly super