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Not this time
paranoid
narcissistic
asshole
abuser
you have
tied me
into knots
for too long
I know
blood says
I should
love you
not sure I can
and still stay sane
it's not safe
I've forgiven
the past
many
years ago
we were young
you were
a victim
first
your weakness
becoming strength
over the only one
weaker
But
your present
victimhood
is in your head
not my fault
and I won't let you
make it
my burden
Not this time
narcissistic
asshole
abuser
you have
tied me
into knots
for too long
I know
blood says
I should
love you
not sure I can
and still stay sane
it's not safe
I've forgiven
the past
many
years ago
we were young
you were
a victim
first
your weakness
becoming strength
over the only one
weaker
But
your present
victimhood
is in your head
not my fault
and I won't let you
make it
my burden
Not this time
Published 13th Nov 2023
Author's Note
My heart hurts
Family dynamics suck
Family dynamics suck
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Dear K,
I enjoyed this kick ass, setting boundaries and taking no prisoners write. There was a liberation in this piece I could identify with and while a terrible thought knowing someone else was experiencing a similar situation, I kind of took solace in knowing other families have real tools for relatives and it wasn’t just my weirdo people. I couldn’t agree more, family dynamics can truly suck and absolutely wear the life out of you. Hang in there, on a good day I can help you take these nimrods out…so long as they’re shorter than 5’ snd don’t weigh very much 😘
H🌷
I enjoyed this kick ass, setting boundaries and taking no prisoners write. There was a liberation in this piece I could identify with and while a terrible thought knowing someone else was experiencing a similar situation, I kind of took solace in knowing other families have real tools for relatives and it wasn’t just my weirdo people. I couldn’t agree more, family dynamics can truly suck and absolutely wear the life out of you. Hang in there, on a good day I can help you take these nimrods out…so long as they’re shorter than 5’ snd don’t weigh very much 😘
H🌷
14th Nov 2023 00:54am
Aw, thanks H! Hopefully it won't come to that, but it's good to know you're in my corner.
I've never been great at boundaries... this is like a crash course. I'll be a pro in no time.
❤️k
I've never been great at boundaries... this is like a crash course. I'll be a pro in no time.
❤️k
13th Nov 2023 7:56am
14th Nov 2023 00:55am
Very true comment. I never thought my family was all that difficult before...
Thanks
❤️k
Thanks
❤️k
13th Nov 2023 11:58am
Family dynamics do suck.
You don’t have to love anyone you don’t want to, family or not. I learned to stop shoulding on myself regarding my family and it has allowed me to breathe easier. That and enough emotional distance as I can muster.
And I’ll help Honoria kick their asses with you any day.
You don’t have to love anyone you don’t want to, family or not. I learned to stop shoulding on myself regarding my family and it has allowed me to breathe easier. That and enough emotional distance as I can muster.
And I’ll help Honoria kick their asses with you any day.
14th Nov 2023 00:58am
"Shoulding on yourself".... love that! And yeah, emotional & physical distance is a must. I'll let you know when I need an enforcer!
Thanks!!
❤️k
Thanks!!
❤️k
13th Nov 2023 8:52pm
14th Nov 2023 1:01am
Thank you, it makes me feel more powerful just knowing that other people saw power in this.
Thanks,
❤️k
Thanks,
❤️k
18th Nov 2023 1:27pm
Righteous
Alive
Wicked
Strength
Family
Can
Suck
No
Lie
Cool
Format
Be
The
Last
Woman
Standing
BIG
LIKE
❤
Alive
Wicked
Strength
Family
Can
Suck
No
Lie
Cool
Format
Be
The
Last
Woman
Standing
BIG
LIKE
❤
18th Nov 2023 3:37pm
19th Nov 2023 5:40am
I hear you broken. These bonds hurt even more when it's within that circle.
Hope it got better.
Hope it got better.
19th Nov 2023 10:40pm
