missjem56
Poem Published
30th Dec 2024 3:48pm
30th Dec 2024 3:48pm
For Whom The Eight Bells Toll
Two times two times two
My bell rang, pre dawn
The day after the anniversary
Of my mothers death, i yearly mourn
But not allowed the silence
In the quiet of the early morn
An unappealing pealing
The ringing ceased not
Intentions ill-got
Eight times this bell did ring
Eight times my heart sunk, did not sing
Yet for nigh on three weeks
I had some peace
Now again i'm ill at ease
Hoping to not hear
From the lord of the rings
Hoping, not coping
In this current dystopean existence
Perhaps.........
In a...
My bell rang, pre dawn
The day after the anniversary
Of my mothers death, i yearly mourn
But not allowed the silence
In the quiet of the early morn
An unappealing pealing
The ringing ceased not
Intentions ill-got
Eight times this bell did ring
Eight times my heart sunk, did not sing
Yet for nigh on three weeks
I had some peace
Now again i'm ill at ease
Hoping to not hear
From the lord of the rings
Hoping, not coping
In this current dystopean existence
Perhaps.........
In a...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeAsAWriter #LifeStruggles
#LifeAsAWriter #LifeStruggles
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Kaden_Malis
Kaden Malis
Kaden Malis
Poem Published
29th Dec 2024 4:37am
29th Dec 2024 4:37am
Alone
I wake up alone
Drink my coffee and bourbon
Next to the foggy window
As the cold rain loosens and breaks
Every leaf still left clinging to life
Before they're pushed to the ground
I go out alone
Thinking about the note you left
That day you went away because of
My distance, despair and depression
Saying you needed more to life
Than a series of highs and lows from a
Never ending roller-coaster ride
And the chilling rain continued
I come home alone
Drink my bourbon and coffee
With a little more...
Drink my coffee and bourbon
Next to the foggy window
As the cold rain loosens and breaks
Every leaf still left clinging to life
Before they're pushed to the ground
I go out alone
Thinking about the note you left
That day you went away because of
My distance, despair and depression
Saying you needed more to life
Than a series of highs and lows from a
Never ending roller-coaster ride
And the chilling rain continued
I come home alone
Drink my bourbon and coffee
With a little more...
#addiction
#anxiety
#bipolar
#depression
#MentalHealth
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Cursedvessel
Poem Published
24th Dec 2024 3:39pm
24th Dec 2024 3:39pm
Numb Misery
The drink calls for me
Whispering calming release
The bitter always present
An attempt to hide with sweet
The cravings will not cease
A desire for the turmoil to relent
Her voice, once strong in memory
Fading into my own, holding on
To the honeyed words spoken
Once to be light and feathery
Now to be labored and gone
My spirit feels so broken
Do you know what she would say?
Every holiday when asked
What gift she seeks?
"You" she'd convey
"In that dress" said at last ...
Whispering calming release
The bitter always present
An attempt to hide with sweet
The cravings will not cease
A desire for the turmoil to relent
Her voice, once strong in memory
Fading into my own, holding on
To the honeyed words spoken
Once to be light and feathery
Now to be labored and gone
My spirit feels so broken
Do you know what she would say?
Every holiday when asked
What gift she seeks?
"You" she'd convey
"In that dress" said at last ...
#alcohol
#death
#depression
#grief
#holiday
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AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
21st Dec 2024 7:43am
21st Dec 2024 7:43am
Positivitly Blind Chasing Ghosts
there’s no
finishing line
up ahead
The road
is never ending
with teeth bared
the hounds are chasing
In the distance
there’s a storm
and a burning bridge
just another obstacle
i find in my way
how do I say
goodbye
to the doubts
hhey have become
old friends
each whisper
has me second guessing
every step
i make towards
a happy ending
so my actions
end up being
worthless
who’s gonna
catch my fall
who thinks
I’m worthy...
finishing line
up ahead
The road
is never ending
with teeth bared
the hounds are chasing
In the distance
there’s a storm
and a burning bridge
just another obstacle
i find in my way
how do I say
goodbye
to the doubts
hhey have become
old friends
each whisper
has me second guessing
every step
i make towards
a happy ending
so my actions
end up being
worthless
who’s gonna
catch my fall
who thinks
I’m worthy...
#apathy
#depression
#emptiness
#MentalHealth
#SelfWorth
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2 Comments
tell_me_wy
Poem Published
19th Dec 2024 6:03am
19th Dec 2024 6:03am
Question 10w
There is
Little question,
That my
Own demon
Is depression
Little question,
That my
Own demon
Is depression
#depression
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DevilsChild
Poem Published
18th Dec 2024 9:40am
18th Dec 2024 9:40am
Not Alone
you haven't slept in weeks
everyone speaks
but no one hears you talking
and you cried
when I
showed you a bit of kindness
you said you'll kill yourself
you'll kill yourself
you'll hurt yourself tonight
feeling shunned away
fom stupid things said
but you are more than your mistakes
you say you hate yourself
you hate yourself
you can't stand the pain
I know it's hard to believe
but there is better days
and there are people who care
the divide gets sickening
we all feel secluded
but...
everyone speaks
but no one hears you talking
and you cried
when I
showed you a bit of kindness
you said you'll kill yourself
you'll kill yourself
you'll hurt yourself tonight
feeling shunned away
fom stupid things said
but you are more than your mistakes
you say you hate yourself
you hate yourself
you can't stand the pain
I know it's hard to believe
but there is better days
and there are people who care
the divide gets sickening
we all feel secluded
but...
#depression
#suicide
#support
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AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
18th Dec 2024 4:29am
18th Dec 2024 4:29am
Click...
the chamber spins
a morbid waltz
a bullet's kiss
a final pulse
no chance
no luck
just shadowed fate
a life-sized gamble
sealed by a trigger
high stakes
they say
a world to win
or lose
all it takes
is letting monsters
pull back the hammer
cold hard grime
a deafening silence
life's last breath
tension coils
a frantic heart
a hollow beat
reality's cruel
fleeting thought
held firm
the gun
a weight
a chilling touch
tomorrow's dreams ...
a morbid waltz
a bullet's kiss
a final pulse
no chance
no luck
just shadowed fate
a life-sized gamble
sealed by a trigger
high stakes
they say
a world to win
or lose
all it takes
is letting monsters
pull back the hammer
cold hard grime
a deafening silence
life's last breath
tension coils
a frantic heart
a hollow beat
reality's cruel
fleeting thought
held firm
the gun
a weight
a chilling touch
tomorrow's dreams ...
#apathy
#depression
#emptiness #MentalHealth
#emptiness #MentalHealth
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3 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
16th Dec 2024 6:48pm
16th Dec 2024 6:48pm
Stubborn Goat
its never
black or white
unless triggers
are pulled
time is gonna come
when bullets fly
then there
will be no doubts
joke's on me
if i'm hit
by an
unplanned ricochet
dont reserve that
grave just yet
this stubborn goat
must love pain
inviting suffering
with open arms
crazy fighter contradicts
suicide attempts
same mistakes
always repeated
sanity betrays
grim reaper every time
black or white
unless triggers
are pulled
time is gonna come
when bullets fly
then there
will be no doubts
joke's on me
if i'm hit
by an
unplanned ricochet
dont reserve that
grave just yet
this stubborn goat
must love pain
inviting suffering
with open arms
crazy fighter contradicts
suicide attempts
same mistakes
always repeated
sanity betrays
grim reaper every time
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
124 reads
5 Comments
Poetryman
Poem Published
16th Dec 2024 8:02am
16th Dec 2024 8:02am
May as Well be Dead
I can't remember how to smile
So many years of sadness
Piled upon loneliness
I think, a long time ago, some held me in warm arms
But I think it might just have been a fantasy
I hurt inside so hard I can't tell what is in pain
I think it might be my heart but I don't know
I don't remember what my heart felt like
Some distant echoes, a noise like a drum
But it has faded away beneath a sheet of white noise
The pain only goes away when I fall asleep
When i dream of shadows that surround me in screams
Life is only a gift when it feels...
So many years of sadness
Piled upon loneliness
I think, a long time ago, some held me in warm arms
But I think it might just have been a fantasy
I hurt inside so hard I can't tell what is in pain
I think it might be my heart but I don't know
I don't remember what my heart felt like
Some distant echoes, a noise like a drum
But it has faded away beneath a sheet of white noise
The pain only goes away when I fall asleep
When i dream of shadows that surround me in screams
Life is only a gift when it feels...
#anxiety
#dark
#death #depression
#death #depression
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3 Comments
Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
15th Dec 2024 00:34am
15th Dec 2024 00:34am
a lucid haze
My bedsheets smell of
lavender and indica
silk pillowcase a cushioned ocean
for my restless mind
that floats through the dark
unseeing and unsleeping
I'm nowhere in particular
if I wait for the dawn I might see it
lavender and indica
silk pillowcase a cushioned ocean
for my restless mind
that floats through the dark
unseeing and unsleeping
I'm nowhere in particular
if I wait for the dawn I might see it
#depression
#drugs
#insomnia #marijuana
#insomnia #marijuana
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AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
12th Dec 2024 8:34pm
12th Dec 2024 8:34pm
Pretend There's A Cure
Welcome !!
said the big fat slug
slimy ugly bitch
her trail along
corridor walls and floor
be well....
watch ice cream tubs
bouncing on trampiline covers
a medicated dance
for all to witness
never say
about the voice
or those invisible poems
writings in eyelids
avoid prying eyes
conform worm
wriggle on bait hooks
iet us enjoy the show
we love a struggle
it appeals to our sense of care
said the big fat slug
slimy ugly bitch
her trail along
corridor walls and floor
be well....
watch ice cream tubs
bouncing on trampiline covers
a medicated dance
for all to witness
never say
about the voice
or those invisible poems
writings in eyelids
avoid prying eyes
conform worm
wriggle on bait hooks
iet us enjoy the show
we love a struggle
it appeals to our sense of care
#depression
#MentalHealth
117 reads
10 Comments
missjem56
Poem Published
12th Dec 2024 3:57pm
12th Dec 2024 3:57pm
Waterfalls
Just one tiny drop
No bigger
Than a dew drop
Upon a spiders web
Formed in the corner
Of my right eye
It was the birth
Of a tear
More filmy tears followed
Then grew
And grew
And grew
Eventually
Forming into a deluge
Of unstoppable misery
I drowned
by Jemia
No bigger
Than a dew drop
Upon a spiders web
Formed in the corner
Of my right eye
It was the birth
Of a tear
More filmy tears followed
Then grew
And grew
And grew
Eventually
Forming into a deluge
Of unstoppable misery
I drowned
by Jemia
#depression
#LifeAsAWriter
#LifeStruggles
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