Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
22nd Jun 2022 00:05am
22nd Jun 2022 00:05am
this is what my depression looks like
I showered today
for the first time
in a week
because I was tired
of my own body odor
and looking like an
oversized scarecrow
with birds nest hair
It took five minutes
and some swearing
to brush the
baby dreadlocks out
I washed the dishes
vacuumed the floor
and binged watched
at least 3 TV shows
before I was able
to get off the couch
to do even the bare
minimum of self care
and house work
But I also reasoned
it's not your job
to look out for me ...
for the first time
in a week
because I was tired
of my own body odor
and looking like an
oversized scarecrow
with birds nest hair
It took five minutes
and some swearing
to brush the
baby dreadlocks out
I washed the dishes
vacuumed the floor
and binged watched
at least 3 TV shows
before I was able
to get off the couch
to do even the bare
minimum of self care
and house work
But I also reasoned
it's not your job
to look out for me ...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#illness
#MentalHealth
#apathy
113 reads
13 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
13th Jun 2022 4:24pm
13th Jun 2022 4:24pm
Slipping Through My Cracks
clawing at
the plastic bag
over my face
in way
over my
depth
watching
the cracks
appear slowly
gain a foot hold
inside
my mind
bouncing
off walls
like a maniac
straighjacket
is the fashion
of the day
lego bricks
tumble
down
like paper houses
hit by a
hurricane
dreams used
to hold back
the tide of reality
now they
just underline
a living nightmare
the plastic bag
over my face
in way
over my
depth
watching
the cracks
appear slowly
gain a foot hold
inside
my mind
bouncing
off walls
like a maniac
straighjacket
is the fashion
of the day
lego bricks
tumble
down
like paper houses
hit by a
hurricane
dreams used
to hold back
the tide of reality
now they
just underline
a living nightmare
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#apathy
136 reads
5 Comments
brokentitanium
k.
k.
Poem Published
8th Jun 2022 2:03pm
8th Jun 2022 2:03pm
Just Wait
hollow effort
ticking in vain
time moves forward
nothing remains
success or failure
wrong or right
all of it fades
in dark of night
this will pass
just wait
none of it matters
just wait
days are hours
hours are breaths
boxes of dust
striving for death
triumphs worthless
anguish too
all that lingers
is how I touch you
this will pass
just wait
none of it matters
just wait
ticking in vain
time moves forward
nothing remains
success or failure
wrong or right
all of it fades
in dark of night
this will pass
just wait
none of it matters
just wait
days are hours
hours are breaths
boxes of dust
striving for death
triumphs worthless
anguish too
all that lingers
is how I touch you
this will pass
just wait
none of it matters
just wait
#depression
#death
#TimeHeals #apathy
#TimeHeals #apathy
104 reads
11 Comments
Her
Poem Published
27th Jun 2022 2:16am
27th Jun 2022 2:16am
Sometimes
Sometimes it's difficult to imagine
A world where I can be
Confident
That I won't forget
Something
Sometimes it's difficult to express
Feelings
Without fear
Sometimes I cry
Because I'm frustrated
That my mind doesn't
Function
Like it should
And sometimes all I want is a hug
But there is nobody
Because my brain
Is not something that anyone
Wants to deal with
A world where I can be
Confident
That I won't forget
Something
Sometimes it's difficult to express
Feelings
Without fear
Sometimes I cry
Because I'm frustrated
That my mind doesn't
Function
Like it should
And sometimes all I want is a hug
But there is nobody
Because my brain
Is not something that anyone
Wants to deal with
#depression
#bipolar
#memories
#MentalHealth
#frustration
74 reads
DevilsChild
Poem Published
10th Jun 2022 7:50am
10th Jun 2022 7:50am
Give Me a Reason to Care
maybe I should call it quits
really I just don't have it in me
to fight on and on
yet, I do
guess that makes me the ignorant
been let down time and time again
had my heart ripped out and torn
so when I see these fake smiles come around
I know how to shoot some back
and when they need a helping hand
I let those fuckers fall
yeah bitch fall!
but you'll never see my demise
I've learned how to survive
through the burns and through the frost
just don't look at me as if I'm the cold
it's your judgment...
really I just don't have it in me
to fight on and on
yet, I do
guess that makes me the ignorant
been let down time and time again
had my heart ripped out and torn
so when I see these fake smiles come around
I know how to shoot some back
and when they need a helping hand
I let those fuckers fall
yeah bitch fall!
but you'll never see my demise
I've learned how to survive
through the burns and through the frost
just don't look at me as if I'm the cold
it's your judgment...
#depression
#disappointment
164 reads
13 Comments
MissPoppet
Poem Published
7th Jun 2022 2:59pm
7th Jun 2022 2:59pm
A Cage is a Cage, No Matter How Pretty
He told me once,
in a drunken lean over the bar,
that they were the milling rabble,
the raucous men with work-hardened flesh
that come to this bar to laugh
in the face of their own demise.
He said it like he was beneath me.
Like the stage I graced each night
was a pedestal and I
was worthy of adoration.
I didn’t have the heart to tell him
that we were the same.
My skin might be soft
and my curves might be sharp,
but this singing every night is killing me.
My hardened flesh is my heart,...
in a drunken lean over the bar,
that they were the milling rabble,
the raucous men with work-hardened flesh
that come to this bar to laugh
in the face of their own demise.
He said it like he was beneath me.
Like the stage I graced each night
was a pedestal and I
was worthy of adoration.
I didn’t have the heart to tell him
that we were the same.
My skin might be soft
and my curves might be sharp,
but this singing every night is killing me.
My hardened flesh is my heart,...
#depression
#alcohol
#emotions
141 reads
12 Comments
TrueLover
Meganne
Meganne
Poem Published
25th Jun 2022 6:49pm
25th Jun 2022 6:49pm
The deathly hallow
Day by day my lonely heart begins to wallow.
The loss of the future I planned is hard to swallow.
Destined to die, depression is a deathly hallow.
The loss of the future I planned is hard to swallow.
Destined to die, depression is a deathly hallow.
#depression
#loneliness
#emotions
85 reads
4 Comments
Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
20th Jun 2022 2:28am
20th Jun 2022 2:28am
one moment at a time
I live my life
one hour at a time
I can't see beyond that
I lost hope a while back
trapped myself in the labyrinth
in my mind
and I'm still wandering around
trailing blood along the walls
looking for a light
with an exit sign
that says
"Better here is"
Because I want more
than living moment to moment
jumping at the shadow ghosts
that hover in my peripheral vision
but aren't really there
I lived a life beyond
imaginary fears
not that many yesterday's ago
and I'd...
one hour at a time
I can't see beyond that
I lost hope a while back
trapped myself in the labyrinth
in my mind
and I'm still wandering around
trailing blood along the walls
looking for a light
with an exit sign
that says
"Better here is"
Because I want more
than living moment to moment
jumping at the shadow ghosts
that hover in my peripheral vision
but aren't really there
I lived a life beyond
imaginary fears
not that many yesterday's ago
and I'd...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles #drugs
#LifeStruggles #drugs
113 reads
5 Comments
Her
Poem Published
20th Jun 2022 1:58am
20th Jun 2022 1:58am
He Who Would Have Nothing To Do With Thorns
Live without the barb
To never gather roses
A nightmare indeed
To never gather roses
A nightmare indeed
#depression
#dark
#haiku
65 reads
DevilsChild
Poem Published
6th Jun 2022 7:53am
6th Jun 2022 7:53am
Half My Problems
#depression
#illness
#myself #hurt
#myself #hurt
62 reads
9 Comments
Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
Yesterday 11:06pm
Yesterday 11:06pm
Rain
My mood betrays me
sometimes I need
blue skies to smile
I'm tired of the cold
hands pressed against frigid glass
praying for a break in the grey
But the grey doesn't move
it settles in its blinding grim existence
and refuses to cease its tears
that drown out everything else
until nothing is left
but sadness in my hands
and a chill in my soul
that craves sunshine and blue skies
My mood betrays me
© Indie Adams 2022
sometimes I need
blue skies to smile
I'm tired of the cold
hands pressed against frigid glass
praying for a break in the grey
But the grey doesn't move
it settles in its blinding grim existence
and refuses to cease its tears
that drown out everything else
until nothing is left
but sadness in my hands
and a chill in my soul
that craves sunshine and blue skies
My mood betrays me
© Indie Adams 2022
#depression
#rain
#MentalHealth #despair
#MentalHealth #despair
47 reads
3 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
15th Jun 2022 1:54pm
15th Jun 2022 1:54pm
30 (will it be enough)
those
little
pills
eyes laid
out
on the table
each
one
of them
staring
straight
into my soul
viewing
my weeping
sores
that
ooze
madness
winking
at
me
they promise
everlasting
peace
little
pills
eyes laid
out
on the table
each
one
of them
staring
straight
into my soul
viewing
my weeping
sores
that
ooze
madness
winking
at
me
they promise
everlasting
peace
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#suicide #apathy
#suicide #apathy
191 reads
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