thinlane
Poem Published
16th Nov 2024 11:01pm
16th Nov 2024 11:01pm
The Precipice
I've never been closer than this before
So don't push me
Oh please don't push
And I've never seen my own mortality so up close
So don't make the mistake of not believing
A little push is all it would take
So don't push me
Oh please God don't
There's nothing but silence
On the line
I can't even speak
I can't even cry out for help
So don't push me over the edge
There's got to be a way
To make it all clear
In my head
I need a goddamned reset
I can't push back
From the precipice
So don't push me
Oh please don't push
And I've never seen my own mortality so up close
So don't make the mistake of not believing
A little push is all it would take
So don't push me
Oh please God don't
There's nothing but silence
On the line
I can't even speak
I can't even cry out for help
So don't push me over the edge
There's got to be a way
To make it all clear
In my head
I need a goddamned reset
I can't push back
From the precipice
#anxiety
#depression
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Indie
Miss Indie
Miss Indie
Poem Published
11th Nov 2024 3:37am
11th Nov 2024 3:37am
decision fatigue
Decision fatigue:
it feels like a permanent brain freeze after trying
to inhale too much icecream. Decision making literally hurts, particularly anything open ended.
Small decisions are exhausting but doable.
Hard decisions are panic attack inducing.
The small every day things that everyone else
does feel like looking up at Mt Everest.
Add in depression and anxiety and you've got a
recipe for chaos.
I swore at you in the hardware store
after you tried to bully me into making
a decision I didn't need to...
it feels like a permanent brain freeze after trying
to inhale too much icecream. Decision making literally hurts, particularly anything open ended.
Small decisions are exhausting but doable.
Hard decisions are panic attack inducing.
The small every day things that everyone else
does feel like looking up at Mt Everest.
Add in depression and anxiety and you've got a
recipe for chaos.
I swore at you in the hardware store
after you tried to bully me into making
a decision I didn't need to...
#anger
#conflict
#depression #relationships
#depression #relationships
159 reads
2 Comments
Ashleysworld
Poem Published
10th Nov 2024 4:09am
10th Nov 2024 4:09am
No reason
#depression
#hurt
#LifeStruggles
#sadness
#suffering
86 reads
4 Comments
Ashleysworld
Poem Published
8th Nov 2024 5:30am
8th Nov 2024 5:30am
Mother may I?
Mother may I go outside?
It's raining but I'll stay dry,
Mother may I have some dinner,
It's you I despise you're the sinner,
Up against the wall my back is turned,
The love you gave me it only burns,
I can't hide in my closet you'll look there first,
Under my bed is even worse,
You were always a bitch you were always mean,
You left your fingerprints at the crime scene,
Your abuse was emotional and physical too,
Mother I am done with you,
You abused me until I was an adult mother this is all your fault.
It's raining but I'll stay dry,
Mother may I have some dinner,
It's you I despise you're the sinner,
Up against the wall my back is turned,
The love you gave me it only burns,
I can't hide in my closet you'll look there first,
Under my bed is even worse,
You were always a bitch you were always mean,
You left your fingerprints at the crime scene,
Your abuse was emotional and physical too,
Mother I am done with you,
You abused me until I was an adult mother this is all your fault.
#abuse
#depression
#LifeStruggles
147 reads
8 Comments
Cursedvessel
Poem Published
7th Nov 2024 7:28am
7th Nov 2024 7:28am
Like A Summer Rose
I just don't know what to do with myself
Trapped in misery of my own making
Blasting the same song over and over
Each turn met with sobbing and screaming
I just don't know what to do with myself
At first it was about the political climate
The dictatorship soon to embark
And my first thought after the results
Was how lucky you were to be dead
So you dont have to live in this agony
I just don't know what to do with myself
Did you feel this intensely when you did it?
Was the future so bleak and numb to you?
Was it...
Trapped in misery of my own making
Blasting the same song over and over
Each turn met with sobbing and screaming
I just don't know what to do with myself
At first it was about the political climate
The dictatorship soon to embark
And my first thought after the results
Was how lucky you were to be dead
So you dont have to live in this agony
I just don't know what to do with myself
Did you feel this intensely when you did it?
Was the future so bleak and numb to you?
Was it...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#lyrics
#politics
#suicide
114 reads
0 Comments
AspergerPoet56
Poem Published
5th Nov 2024 3:36pm
5th Nov 2024 3:36pm
Eventually [Nothing]
depression
oppression
expression
it’s all the same
creation of a breath
leading to eventual death
oppression
expression
it’s all the same
creation of a breath
leading to eventual death
#apathy
#death
#depression
#minimalist
#morality
100 reads
4 Comments
thinlane
Poem Published
4th Nov 2024 6:16pm
4th Nov 2024 6:16pm
Sadness And Tears
Just another day filled with sadness
It's unrelenting and leaves me exhausted
But at least at the end of another day of tears
I can find refuge in sleep
Sometimes
Other times I just lie here
The nighttime gloom is both physical
And mental
And fills my mind with dark shapes
So that I sometimes yearn for the sun
Even though with the sun comes the sadness
And the useless tears
Depression has such long, sharp claws
They tear your guts out
And leave you just alive enough
To wish you were dead
It's unrelenting and leaves me exhausted
But at least at the end of another day of tears
I can find refuge in sleep
Sometimes
Other times I just lie here
The nighttime gloom is both physical
And mental
And fills my mind with dark shapes
So that I sometimes yearn for the sun
Even though with the sun comes the sadness
And the useless tears
Depression has such long, sharp claws
They tear your guts out
And leave you just alive enough
To wish you were dead
#depression
#MentalHealth
84 reads
1 Comment
backdeckbenny
Poem Published
3rd Nov 2024 11:59pm
3rd Nov 2024 11:59pm
Van Gogh
The first time I heard it, I thought I was going mad or it would drive me there very quickly.
Depression has a way of altering ones senses. You can imagine all sorts of silly things.So when the ringing in my ears started I wasn't certain it was real at all.
It may be tinnitus I reasoned and recalled Van Gogh going mad with the constant rimging or it could just be another bastard gift that depression brings.
Then one day I was reading a book by a renowned Buddhist monk and to my surprise he too had this same gentle vibrating hum going on all the time.He even gave...
Depression has a way of altering ones senses. You can imagine all sorts of silly things.So when the ringing in my ears started I wasn't certain it was real at all.
It may be tinnitus I reasoned and recalled Van Gogh going mad with the constant rimging or it could just be another bastard gift that depression brings.
Then one day I was reading a book by a renowned Buddhist monk and to my surprise he too had this same gentle vibrating hum going on all the time.He even gave...
#depression
79 reads
6 Comments
backdeckbenny
Poem Published
2nd Nov 2024 8:28pm
2nd Nov 2024 8:28pm
birds write poems too
I cried and so did they.
They wept for me but didn't know how to respond physically.
I'd just told my children I'd been diagnosed with depression.
They are clever kids and knew what depression was or at least what the dictionary said it looked like.
But here it was , standing before them, in the guise of a near sixty year old, fit as a fiddle father.
It was my wife,their mother who found the right thing to say...."give your father a hug".
And so began the journey, this time I had three angels watching over me, not saying much but by their...
They wept for me but didn't know how to respond physically.
I'd just told my children I'd been diagnosed with depression.
They are clever kids and knew what depression was or at least what the dictionary said it looked like.
But here it was , standing before them, in the guise of a near sixty year old, fit as a fiddle father.
It was my wife,their mother who found the right thing to say...."give your father a hug".
And so began the journey, this time I had three angels watching over me, not saying much but by their...
#depression
89 reads
3 Comments
Goldy-992
David Gold
David Gold
Poem Published
2nd Nov 2024 8:53am
2nd Nov 2024 8:53am
Demons Within
These demons, they whisper, they claw at my chest,
Yet I rise through the chaos, refusing their jest.
For strength is a fortress, built from the pain, A quiet resolve, like the calm after rain.
Each battle fought alone in the night,
A testament to the will, a glimmer of light,
In the silence I breathe, as the shadows collide,
A man forged in stillness, my spirit, my pride.
Yet I rise through the chaos, refusing their jest.
For strength is a fortress, built from the pain, A quiet resolve, like the calm after rain.
Each battle fought alone in the night,
A testament to the will, a glimmer of light,
In the silence I breathe, as the shadows collide,
A man forged in stillness, my spirit, my pride.
#depression
#insomnia
#strength
95 reads
2 Comments
Ashleysworld
Poem Published
31st Oct 2024 5:20am
31st Oct 2024 5:20am
I'm so depressed
I'm so depressed everyday I'm mourning,
Alone and suicidal heavy rain is pouring,
I can't find the meaning of life,
I wish the world would end tonight,
Everyone is so fucking abusive,
Because of them I listen to depressing music,
I'm so depressed no one sees it,
Even if they did they wouldn't believe it,
I'm drenched In Cold sweat,
Thinking of only death,
Behind my smile so fake,
You will only find pain and hate,
No one cared about me No one ever did,
I wish I could go back to being a kid,
No one likes me...
Alone and suicidal heavy rain is pouring,
I can't find the meaning of life,
I wish the world would end tonight,
Everyone is so fucking abusive,
Because of them I listen to depressing music,
I'm so depressed no one sees it,
Even if they did they wouldn't believe it,
I'm drenched In Cold sweat,
Thinking of only death,
Behind my smile so fake,
You will only find pain and hate,
No one cared about me No one ever did,
I wish I could go back to being a kid,
No one likes me...
#depression
#loneliness
#sadness
131 reads
2 Comments
Cursedvessel
Poem Published
29th Oct 2024 8:15am
29th Oct 2024 8:15am
Time hurts
In the beginning of our relationship
During our adventures
Id jest with the phrase
"Youve been gone for so long!"
Though it was only 5 minutes
And the days youd cook dinner
Coming back from the kitchen with kisses
Id continue the jest
"You've been gone for so long!"
Though it was at most 20 minutes
But then i had to move
And saw you less than i wanted
But the days i finally got to see you
The phrase escaped my lips
"Youve been gone for so long!"
Though it was at least 4...
During our adventures
Id jest with the phrase
"Youve been gone for so long!"
Though it was only 5 minutes
And the days youd cook dinner
Coming back from the kitchen with kisses
Id continue the jest
"You've been gone for so long!"
Though it was at most 20 minutes
But then i had to move
And saw you less than i wanted
But the days i finally got to see you
The phrase escaped my lips
"Youve been gone for so long!"
Though it was at least 4...
#depression
#grief
#love #suicide
#love #suicide
131 reads
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