Poems About OCD Seeking Friendly Advice

I Have Found It To Be True Blue In My Time

Those With Problems Have The Best Lines

Diagnosing Others With A Mental Disease

O Please These Are The Ones Never At Ease

They All Have Obsessive Compulsive Disorders

And Refuse To Respect Boundaries And Borders

They Make Up Names And Have To Categorize

Why Is That A Surprise They Tell Themselves Lies

To Say They Are Sane As Though There Is A Norm

They Get Paid To Make You Just Want To Conform

Become A Lockstep Member Of The Robotic...

July 12th , 2018

Like a fly without his/her buzz
even popping a guarana (caffeine) does
not shake the feeling
  like brain covered with fuzz

no matter how hard I try eyelids claps
shut nor how many hours of sleep elapse
offers nary reprieve folds
    welded tightly shut

    feel like they weigh
    much as a ton mud covered flaps,
thus thought to summon
    meager energy reserves perhaps

generating poetic lines
    interrupted by taking constant naps
but no matter eyelids
    weigh heavy...

shut your mouth  
 
shield your emotions  
swallow them down  
 
all the anger and rage  
the resentment and pain  
the self-hatred and shame  
 
the fear of not being  
 
good enough  
 
i tried to change  
to be someone else  
 
but i’m always invisible  
 
unworthy and untouchable  
unwanted and unlovable  
the eyesore that is me  
 
 
this mia and ana  
who live inside me  
both my best friends  
and my worst enemies  
  ...

My hands ache
My heart breaks
I can't take
Any more torture

My brain itch
This Mindless tick
The is no fix
Its killing me

O     C D
controlling me
Can't break free
Just finish it