UNRESOLVED      

 
i know
i believed
what      
i believed
i know
i felt
what
i felt
i know
i saw
what
i saw
i know
you said
what
you said
i know
i heard
what
i heard
i know
we did
what
we did
i know
i touched
what
i touched
i know
i opened you
up
i know
you let me
in
i know
i felt your
heart
beating around my
hand
i know
you let me
touch
what
you really
could not
give
i know
you made cheap
sport
of
what
i tried to
so vainly
share
then turned
your back on
all the
things
we ever
said and
did
then made
it seem so
superficial
brought it to
this screeching
end
a silent stop      
that left me
dangling
all alone here
in this empty
wind
of your
oh so casual
leaving
wherein you took
just what you
needed
milked it to
the very
end
then had
the nerve
to go  
on pretending
that we
could be just
friends
as i
in my delusion
adrift here in
this weakness
of my own
pretending
that we
could ever be
again
am now surprised
to find this
morning
here at
six a m
my own pathetic
needing
still clinging onto
your so called
love s
now long gone
jekyll  hyde
deceptive  ghostly
cold  cold  icy
narcissistic  hollow  empty
ghostly winds
again