Inner Walls

So much on my mind can't decide which way to turn
when honestly I don't have many options 
Opted to find the easy way out but road blocks guard the path 
Struggle is the only answer to the tunnel of success
gasp for air attempt to take a breath
drowning in the sorrow of my prostrate depression 
So ready to release it all
Forgive myself for not knowing any better
Commend because I'm still holding on
Looking for a hand to hold...alone I still remain
need to obtain power over my mind frame the picture does not exist
So miserable why can't I find happiness?
Joy, Light, Satisfaction, Ecstasy
This pain kills me 
Discombobulates my soul
devours me until I am no more 
Who am I? For I feel like so many
society corrupts my character my personality becomes common
not of my own
but of the bodies that surround my entity  
I'm so lost 
Mirrors to my soul plead to be established 
I consume the corner of my mattress ball up tight
and wait for my Inner Walls to cave in