The calculation between life and death

I had this idea about life,
 but it wasn’t what I thought
it was.
 Its pure pain all about agony
 there is no time for fun,
 Not even to shoo a fucking gum
  it’s all about busting you’re ass on this
glob that’s full of scum
.
I have  A vision about death
 but it seems to me that
I’m just blind for a minute there
 I lost track of time, but now.
 I lost it for a life time
 someone help me out here.
God ? Jesus?! Marry?! are u near?
 Will u save me from this
fear
 calculating between life and death isn’t easy you hear?
 Now
common down and do my math! What will u bash?
 I’ll tell u!! I
did it before
; I’m just fooling around the answer for this calculation  is
 equal as
a fucking damn