Mixed Feelings

Broken
Hurting
I look at the flame
Smiling
Laughing
I light the source of my shame
The devil on my shoulder
Killed the angel long ago
With no one else to help me
This is where I had to go
Haze
Courage
Builds in me as I inhale
Tears
Blood
This is what prevails
A sweet escape from who I am
From what I have become
I know the consequences
And yet I still succumb
Dark
Cold
Hiding what I am
Flame
Smoke
I am forever damned
Someday I will die
And when I do, read this
It was either a rope tied tight
Or one too many hits