Time machine

So with you; I feel untrue; I don't wanna screw around; we're over now. It's all faded into a hell; every single yell; I don't wanna dwell on us now; all the broken lies; all the goodnights all fades with time. So with you; I feel much better. I feel like we would be together; and as i send this last letter; I'm reminded it was never bad weather. So through fair weather; yeah through it all he still burns in the back of my mind but i laugh as he falls.
Is this heaven or hell? A Utopia? Please tell. Because i just can't fight these feelings anymore; It's time to watch you crawl! Down on; Down on your knees; begging me; begging please; while i'm laughing because it's just me; and every word he said was no apology. Laughing; cause of what he said. Laughing; just because So with him; things are looking up. And with you? well listen up. Because with him things aren't so rough; and with you? I've had enough! So with us; it's all real; it's all; all appeal; it's not a broken lie i'll find i'm better off in time! better of in time; time! So is this a dreamland? Or is this a curse? Am I broken; or have i been cursed with a blessing since birth. Or am I blessed; yeah blessed; with this awful curse? I cannot see; all that i'm meant to be; I can't read your mind find out what's inside. I can tell you; all you mean to me; but with my luck that won't be alright. Am I better of in the time machine? I can find my dream; see what we're gonna be in the time machine i'm alone with me, and it just isn't right; i would fight for you; i would fight for me; I'd defend myself and defend what we'll be and it'll all get better in time; the time machine's a lie. So with you; are things gonna be true?