A Little Bit of Me

I, cause my pain

I know they see its stain

can’t forget the past

know that love will never last


Find things to remember her

pained by the memories stir

prayed to God

broke the religious facade


No reason to tell

my soul is broken and damned to hell

my family wished God was my addiction

but the religious rush couldn’t hold my attention


She was better than any drug

just seeing her brought a smile to my ugly mug

I gave her my soul and my heart

I wasn’t enough, couldn’t keep her here and make me a new start

Blamed myself for so much

her hating me, my fathers death, my hatred for me and such

fought with so much pain and anger

to myself became a complete stranger


It is the past no longer

I strive to push forward and become stronger

still not where I want to be

far from being back to ME


Pushing and fighting to be free

here you go, just so you know, if you read this you now know just a little bit
of me