Im Sorry(again)

We been thru it all,
baby you n me,
holes in the wall
crying in my sleep
you leave then return
sayin sorry and me bein
me,
I accept the apology
but a woman can only go
thru so much when you
constantly showing yo
rage toward me
Slamming doors,yelling,
yo fist,my face,they meet
as you knock me to the floor,
kicking me while im sliding to
the door,grab my hair and
U say this love as you grip me
up and toss me to the bed,
rip my panties off as you insert
yoself in,
Tryna push you off,
but its only making things worse,
you thrust once more as you bust
in me,roll off and leave,thats love?
How can that be?
am I that dumb to believe
that stupidity...
I finally came to my senses
Me standing over you with the
gun to the pillow,
wiping away the pain
you put upon me
now I wanna see you suffer,
do you likeyou did me,
click clack pause bang
We both screamed but I
silence yo last demand...
Should I feel bad about what I
just done??
Did he feel bad when he left
me bloody,scarred and hopeless
leaving it to myself to get the shit done...
He did and I wont say sorry nor bitch up like
he did,imma let em know I did it
because as he would say it...Its love...right?