My Life

This is for all the kids that are going through what I went through. Yeah….. You got so many problems you just...can't express em… you go no one to turn to…. well listen here. 

I was only 8 when I was abused I was so surprised I had no idea what had just happened my pops was always under the influence he had no Idea what was going on what he was puttin me through. We were always so close until that day when he abused me ever since then I couldn't look at him the same 

I had no one to talk no one to turn to but that pain that he causes is what keeps me going yeah it keeps me going

Then it was 4 years later I was all alone with him my brothers n sister away at school I didn't know what to do so the only thing I had to turn to was drugs n alcohol and then I realized all I was doing was the same thing as my pops my mom was always there but it was just to hard to talk cuz i hold my head up high no matter what cuz My pops always causin me stress n pain but i need that pain cuz 

I had no one to talk to no one to turn to but that pain that he causes is what keeps me going yeah it keeps me going

then I get a call sayin my pops is in the hospital he was lying on his death bed so we tried to get him help but he didn't want the help he said he was fine yeah he thinks he superman but he ain't the docs gave him 4-6 months so he went to get help but that help didn't do much cuz yeah he think he superman then he gets out and the doc said you good to go your back to normal now and I knew when that happened he would go back to his old ways but 

I had no one to tell no one to turn to but that pain that he causes is what keeps me going yeah it keeps me going

Now he back to the way he was but he trying to hide it cuz he thinks we stupid but nah we aint stupid he the stupid one cuz what he don't realize is he loosing us all. he don't realize how much he effect us cuz all he does is think about him self he dosnt get all the pain he causes us all. All i wanna do is let go but i got no one to talk to no one to turn to and I cant cuz the pain he causes is what keeps me going yeah it keeps me going