can't survive another hit

you struck with force
my eyes blind to your ways
by the time they opened
my life... not a trace

things I couldn't dream
people were capable of
used my trust
to pull it of

my minds journey from there
an interesting road
one I won't boar you with
it's not your load

but now you call
like nothing was wrong
for reasons unclear
it's been so long..

whatever your reasons
I care not to know
for the past is buried
under a mountain of snow

and you only converse
behind a your masks
your intentions clouded
I can leave nothing to chance

so write me a eulogy
or take what's left of my life
or simply stand behind me
with your smirk and a knife

for the places my mind went
again I care not to see
the basement of hell
kept a part of me

now just an empty shell
rolling round in the sea

I've taken the lesson
valuable shit
discarded the rest
put it down to life

i hold no judgment
for how others live theirs
we are only human
weeping another's tears