In Old Age

Topee on my head,
to hide the fact I'm closer to being dead,
Once I was so young, happy, and strong, but I fear my health has faded,
It's like I'm becoming outdated,
People give me weird looks as pass,
I think I'm starting to grasp,
That I've become what I've feared most,
One of those old men with nothing to boast,
What have I done, who have I met,
What connections did I make,
Nothing I can think of can put my thoughts straight,
Because in the end I'm nothing to anyone,
To afraid to make connections,
I let the world slip,
And now sitting here at the end of my life regretting all of it,
I just wanted someone to love, squeeze, and hug,
But I couldn't act,
I let the world hold me back,
But if there one thing that I'd like to do,
It's travel back to meet you,
Maybe then I could be happy every time I get in bed,
To be finally able to rest my head,
And calm my thoughts,
Too long have I been alone in the dark,
Too long have I lived my life all alone,
I would give up everything my car, life, my throne,
Just to find a single being I could love,
But I'm afraid the time to act has past,
And now I lay my head down at last,
Goodbye to this world hello to the next,
Maybe in this life I will finally be blessed