Trapped Inside the Ocean Tides

Ocean tides

I feel like the ocean waves, in a hurry to come to tide
I feel like I’m not worth the ground I walk on, so fragile.
Pain is nothing new to me, just something I endure.
Forever torturing me, just to see what I can handle.

SO many times, I’ve let you hurt me
So many times, I have given up on and left so calmly.
I just don’t know what to do anymore
And my heart hurts in such a way that the pain is slowly killing me..

A long time ago,  I felt that nothing could ever be different.
I am always adapting to my environment with such purpose and vigor
Though frequently trapped within my encasement of flesh.
Help me, please trade my life for another.

Seek me into oblivion
Into the transformation that is to be
---Fuck all the misguided information given
Unwilling to calculate the risks for anything cruel as can I see

Falling into the hole that has been dug just for my flesh
The ants and bugs are eating my insides,
I can’t believe that this is really happening to my soul
Always being sucked under the strong ocean tides.