Noncommital

I’m sober,
More often than not
I’m up and
I’m down.
I wanted to live
But it seems I don’t
Now.
I want to be,
Sober
Sober
Sober, right?
Maybe I won’t.
Then again,
Maybe I might.
Sober.
Maybe,
I’d rather be high.
Just one more hit
Promise I’ll be sober,
After tonight.
“Is that another lie?”
I’m sorry,
It’s just not the right
Time.