Wonderland and death

Is it worth it? Staring into the face of death i wonder what it might be like on the other side.Maybe it will be peaceful and maybe just maybe i can truly be happy with no fears.Is it worth it?Is there a place after death a wonderland that will save not only me but all of us?Where not a soul cry's in pain, where I am, you are and everyone else is safe. Is there such a place that whips your memory of all the bad that happened before you lost yourself and died? If there is a place like that I want to find it...I want to go there more than anything...wonderland is what I'm looking for, and as i stand here in front of death with the promise of a new place where nothing can go wrong there i turn away just for a moment and fall back. If death is what it takes to get to wonderland then so be it.