Maybe Suicide

In high school
I thought about
Killing myself
On so many occasions
That I honestly don't think
I've ever counted that high
Ever
And it's impossible
For me to even give you
A ballpark estimate
They were just thoughts
Thoughts
That dragged
Me
Down
All

The


Way






Down

But everyone encouraged me
And told me
It would get better
And
It did
I emerged
Victorious
Alive
And
Well
Seemingly

Some parts of you
Though
Gone
Never really
Die

The thoughts have
Returned
And now
I'm almost 21
Just a little under two months
Until that so called
"Milestone"
The number that tells the world
I'm old enough to die
From alcohol poisoning
And boy
I love my alcohol
I only
Hope

Well

I tell myself
I hope
That one day
I won't walk into
A 7/11
Or
A liquor store
Buy some
Legal
Liquid poison
With intent
To
Literally
Drown
Myself
And never wake up
Again